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Why Do I Feel This Way?

Kate DeAraugo & Claudia Coy

58 episodes

Kate DeAraugo was crowned Australian Idol champion in 2005... but not all fairytales have happy endings and Kate’s life quickly spiralled out of control.

More about the show

In 2017, Kate was convicted of drug possession, drug driving and weapons possession.

Six years later, Kate is sober, happily married and with a new baby – so she's decided to turn her difficult experiences into a podcast where she can talk about her life in the hope of giving hope and offering a safe space for other to acknowledge their own hardships.

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  1. I Loved My Baby. I Still Wasn't Okay | Tara Hall

    · 41 min · S5 E6

    This episode contains lived-experience discussion of traumatic birth, postnatal depression and anxiety, intrusive thoughts, panic attacks, addiction and recovery, and restrictive eating, and includes strong language.…

  2. Young Divas, Australian Idol, leaving Christianity and finding herself | Emily Williams

    · 1 h 14 min · S5 E8 · Explicit

    This episode contains lived-experience discussion of childhood abuse, family violence, young motherhood, addiction and religious trauma, and includes strong language and sexual references. Australian Idol and Young…

  3. What an Intervention Really Looks Like | Belinda Walsh

    · 1 h 08 min · S5 E7

    This episode contains lived-experience discussion of addiction, alcohol and other drug use, childhood sexual abuse, family relationships, treatment and recovery. Season Partner: Aurora Healthcare Belinda Walsh…

  4. Anxious, Avoidant and the Chemistry Trap | Louisa Josem

    · 1 h 15 min · S5 E5

    This episode contains lived-experience discussion of relationship conflict, infidelity, substance use and emotionally unsafe or abusive relationships. Relationship coach Louisa Josem joins Kate and Claudia to unpack…

  5. What Would You Say to Your Younger Self? | Rod Coy

    · 56 min · S5 E4

    This episode contains lived-experience discussion of grief, regret, ageing, addiction recovery and mental health. Rod Coy joins Kate and Claudia to tell the story of the bike trip he never forgot. At 23, Rod set off…

  6. Breaking the Cycle | Karise Eden Part 2

    · 40 min · S5 E3 · Explicit

    This episode contains lived-experience discussion of childhood trauma, out-of-home care, homelessness and housing instability, domestic abuse and mental health struggles. In Part 2, Karise Eden picks up her story at…

  7. The Life Before The Voice | Karise Eden Part 1

    · 1 h 01 min · S5 E3 · Explicit

    CONTENT NOTE: This episode contains lived-experience discussion of childhood abuse and neglect, foster care, homelessness, addiction, violence and mental health struggles. Before Australia knew Karise Eden through The…

  8. Bogan Gate, Anxiety, Kyle & Jackie O… and an Escape Goat? | Mitchell Coombs

    · 1 h 02 min · S5 E2 · Explicit

    This episode contains lived-experience discussion of anxiety, depression, prescribed medication, alcohol use, bullying, body image and mental health struggles. Mitchell Coombs joins Kate and Claudia for a very funny,…

  9. We Weren’t Okay: Addiction, Bulimia and Coming Back

    · 1 h 10 min · S5 E1

    Kate and Claudia are back for Season 5, starting with an honest catch-up about where life has really taken them. Kate opens up about recognising that her mental health had slipped, coming close to relapse, and making…

  10. Alternative methods to healing

    · 43 min · S4 E9

    How would you manage your recovery? Today's guest has turned a lifetime of battles into purpose by helping others..... but with her own twist and an open mind. So sit back and relax and remember - this is not medical…

  11. The Sweetest Couple

    · 50 min · S4 E6

    Addiction doesn't just effect the individual, it's something that impacts many people, on many levels. In this chat, we talk to the sweetest, most delightful couple who's story started with addiction, but has blossomed…

  12. The connection between sex & mental health

    · 47 min · S4 E5 · Explicit

    Have you ever had problems discussing the things you want... in the bedroom? Mental health and sex, are two topics we've never talked about on the pod. You talk about these sorts of things with your friends, but…

  13. Let's Get Candid

    · 24 min · S4 E4

    We took a big break. Turns out we both needed it. In this episode we detail what we've been up to over the last few months and why we needed some space. If you, or anyone you know is struggling, call Lifeline now on…

  14. Born Into Addiction with Hope Richards

    · 42 min · S4 E3 · Explicit

    With a mother supplying drugs, multiple home invasions and a police raid, Hope was surrounded by addiction and abuse throughout her entire childhood - but she refuses to let that define who she is today. This is a…

  15. Ben Besant & The Lindt Cafe Siege Pt2

    · 33 min · S4 E2 · Explicit

    Ben Besant was the tactical officer who shot and killed terrorist Man Monis in the 2014 Lindt Cafe siege. However for a decade he was only publicly referred to as "Officer A" due to a suppression order from the…

  16. Ben Besant & The Lindt Cafe Siege

    · 41 min · S4 E1 · Explicit

    Ben Besant was the tactical officer who shot and killed terrorist Man Monis in the 2014 Lindt Cafe siege. However for a decade he was only publicly referred to as “Officer A” due to a suppression order from the…

  17. Why trolls aren't always trolls

    · 32 min · S3 E14

    This our monthly catch up episode where we are brutally honest with each other and our healing. In this ep we talk about Kate's viral video on TikTok and the confronting comments she recieved because of it. Claudia…

  18. The Reality of Living With HIV

    · 32 min · S3 E17 · Explicit

    In this episode we're joined by one of our incredible listeners, Rhys. Eight years ago Rhys was diagnosed with HIV and has been navigating the realities of the disease ever since. In this chat we unpack the stigmas…

  19. AFL legend Gavin Crosisca on playing while high

    · 48 min · S3 E13 · Explicit

    Today we're joined by AFL legend Gavin Crosisca, who's recently admitted to playing while high for most of his footy career. Today, Gavin is 14 years clean, Director of Sober Living Rehab and back (where it all began)…

  20. Boys To The Bush

    · 40 min · S3 E12 · Explicit

    This week we're chatting to Adam DeMamiel, Co-Founder and CEO of Boys To The Bush. Boys to the Bush started when three school teachers noticed common issues in young men with similar backgrounds - disconnected,…

  21. Dating after a long-term relationship

    · 30 min · S3 E11 · Explicit

    Claudia has officially entered the dating jungle... and what a wild place it is out there. In this episode we catch up on the last 4 weeks, including dates, babies and therapy! Trigger Warning: This episode contains…

  22. I quit, but I'm not an addict

    · 42 min · S3 E11

    In this weeks ep we breakdown the difference between identifying as an addict and acknowledging behaviour that no longer serves you. We're joined by media powerhouse Sangeeta Kocharekar who, after causing a scene at…

  23. Living With An Invisible Illness

    · 44 min · S3 E15 · Explicit

    This week we're joined by Lili Higgins. On the outside Lil looks like she has everything - successful career, an incredible family, a beautiful smile and a strong social media following... but no one sees Lili's daily…

  24. Grief, Let's Talk About It

    · 35 min · S3 E16 · Explicit

    This week we reflect on grief. The grief that comes when you lose a loved one, grief of a life you envisioned for yourself that never came to fruition and grief of a relationship that came to an end. What does grief…

  25. Intervention Specialist, Belinda Walsh

    · 47 min · S3 E14 · Explicit

    Today we're joined by Intervention Specialist and Founder of Sober Living Rehab, Belinda Walsh. With almost 4o years of experience, Belinda unpacks the power of intervention, including best practices as well as the…

  26. Late Diagnosis with Keeshia Pettit

    · 1 h 00 min · S3 E7

    Keeisha Pettit is the Executive Producer of some of Australia’s biggest podcast such as Life Uncut, Two Doting Dads and Not An Overnight Success. She’s also recently stepped out and started her own podcast, Cloud,…

  27. "I can do hard things"

    · 35 min · S3 E8 · Explicit

    From livin' la vida loca to facing our fears head on - this month's catch up is a wild one. Also, we want to hear from you! If you've intentionally faced your fears and lived to tell the tale, send us a DM and let us…

  28. Lockie Welch

    · 39 min · S3 E8 · Explicit

    You'll know him as the positive man who spreads love and joy on Instagram and TikTok, but Lockie Welch is so much more than his beautiful reels. In this episode we shine a light on mens mental health and the ways in…

  29. Kate's Big Decision

    · 28 min · S3 E7 · Explicit

    In this episode Kate details a big decision she's made around breastfeeding and what's led her to this outcome. We also unpack the MAFs incident that unfolded last week and the way it was handled within the bounds of…

  30. Havening with Elle McBride

    · 45 min · S3 E6

    Four years ago Justin Bieber made headlines when he was filmed 'havening' himself on the set of his music video for Yummy. It got the world talking - what is havening? does it actually work? and how do you know you're…

  31. The Nude Nutritionist

    · 1 h 02 min · S3 E5

    Today we're joined by the one and only Nude Nutritionist, Lyndi Cohen. Lyndi is an Aussie dietitian, author and podcaster who specialises in helping people stop emotional and binge eating. In this chat we unpack what…

  32. "My therapist is proud of me"

    · 34 min · S3 E4 · Explicit

    Kate's had a baby and Claudia's therapist is proud of her - there's a lot to unpack here. Strap in as we give you an update on the last 4 weeks and the massive life changes that have happened in a very small amount of…

  33. Healing From Toxic Relationships

    · 43 min · S3 E3

    Today we're joined by Life Coach and host of the Unfiltered Experience podcast , Louisa Josem. Having survived toxic relationships in the past, Louisa has made it her life goal to educate herself and others on the…

  34. How Danni Carr Quit Alcohol

    · 54 min · S3 E2 · Explicit

    Danni Carr is a podcaster, sober coach, meditation breath work teacher and author (amongst other things). In this episode we discuss Danni's journey to quitting alcohol, how her relationship with the rock'n'roll muso…

  35. We Have A Lot To Catch Up On

    · 34 min · S3 E1 · Explicit

    We both had very eventful (and VERY different) Chrissie / NYE breaks. In this ep we unpack navigating family dynamics during the busy period, being an extroverted introvert and where we're both at in therapy. We also…

  36. The year that was

    · 23 min · S2 E16

    In this episode we take a look back at the year that was. Both finishing 2024 very differently to how we started it, we reflect on the trials, tribulations and joys of the last 12 months. And the exciting things to…

  37. Diane Young (Psychotherapist)

    · 1 h 01 min · S2 E15

    Today we’re joined by psychotherapist Diane Young. Specialising in trauma and addiction, Diane has seen and worked through it all. In this episode we chat about the many roads to recovery, how to find the right…

  38. Heartled Warriors with Dane Muller

    · 53 min · S2 E14

    Today we're joined by the Founder & Director of Heartled Warriors - Dane Muller. Having battled his own fight with mental health, Dane now leads men, women, couples and youths through retreats with the focus on…

  39. Spiritual Warfare with Nikki Dellar

    · 1 h 07 min · S2 E13

    From New Age rituals to psych wards to 'demonic attacks' to church on Sundays... fair to say Nikki has lived 1,000 lives in her short 33 years on Earth. In today's chat Nikki unpacks the path that led to her…

  40. Sex Talk with AJ Paps

    · 49 min · Explicit

    Today we're joined by sex shop owner, entrepreneur and TikTok sensation AJ Papas. AJ is known for his non-nonsense, tough-love relationship and sex advice and he treats this episode no different. From re-creating old…

  41. Jonathon 'JMo' Moran

    · 51 min · S2 E11 · Explicit

    Jonathon Moran has been synonymous with Aussie media for over 25 years. If you've ever read the paper, listened to radio or been to really any event in Sydney - you would have heard about JMo. In this episode, JMo…

  42. The Governor

    · 1 h 20 min · S2 E10

    Today we're joined by former Operations Manager of Corrections Victoria, Roz aka The Governor. Having worked with both men's and women's prisons for 27 years, Roz has seen and heard it all. In this episode we talk…

  43. Nick Bowditch

    · 1 h 10 min · Explicit

    Today we're joined by Nick Bowditch - author, psychotherapist, motivational speaker, TedX presenter, entrepreneur, podcast host and PhD student (clinical psychology). .... he also happens to be in recovery. Nick…

  44. Sex Addiction

    · 54 min · S2 E8 · Explicit

    Today we're joined by Kate's friend Travis. From a wealthy family, raised in an affluent area, Travis seemingly 'had it all' growing up. For 28 years, Travis lived a heteronormative life and found himself unable to…

  45. October Catch Up

    · 32 min · S2 E7

    We have some updates. One of us is heading into her third trimester, the other finally got her mental health plan. Join us as we unpack what's been going on in our worlds this month. Trigger Warning: This episode…

  46. Steph Easton

    · 48 min · S2 E6 · Explicit

    Today we're joined by founder of Your Recovery House, Steph Easton. Having her own experience with disordered eating and addiction, Steph created the holistic rehab to treat the 'root cause of behavioural issues' and…

  47. Paul Field

    · 1 h 08 min · S3 E5

    Paul Field is Australian music royalty - known as one of the founding members of the Cockroaches and The Field Brothers, not to mention the Managing Director of the Wiggles for over 20 years. Over 35 years ago, when…

  48. Jaz Flowers

    · 51 min · S3 E4 · Explicit

    In today's episode we're joined by TikTok sensation Jaz Flowers (364k+ followers & over 12.6 million likes). From the outside it looks like Jaz has everything - the media career, the supportive husband and thousands…

  49. Osher Gunsberg

    · 1 h 18 min · S2 E3 · Explicit

    Known for hosting Australian Idol, The Bachelor, The Bachelorette, Bachelor In Paradise and The Masked Singer, Osher has well and truly established himself as Aussie TV royalty. Originally known as 'Andrew G', he…

  50. Dr Cara Crossan

    · 39 min · S2 E2 · Explicit

    Today we're joined by Dr Cara Crossan - Clinical Psychotherapist and Specialist in Addiction. With over 13 years experience working with individuals and families affected by addictions, Cara will unpack what it means…

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