# This doesn't have to be as good as it gets

An episode of [The Overwhelmed Brain](https://invisiblenetwork.ai/podcast/743537890), 15 Feb 2026, 40 min.

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Meaning, purpose, the pursuit of happiness... Just existing shouldn't be the only way to live. You are important - you just may not realize how much.

## Transcript

[0:00] These are my personal opinions.
[0:01] Always seek a professional when you're making choices about your mental health and well-being.
[0:11] Two years ago, I sent you an anonymous question for your podcast. "I never asked to be born,
[0:17] and my life feels exhausting." That's what this person said in their letter.
[0:22] They go on to say that the original message they sent said, "I don't understand why I should
[0:28] live, particularly considering that being born wasn't even my choice." You answered it in your
[0:34] episode called "I Didn't Ask to Be Born, and I Don't Want to Be Here." What struck me most was
[0:40] how you were right about me in most of the episode, even though I gave you almost no info about
[0:45] myself. "At the time, I was in my first year of post-grad and felt completely empty despite achieving things externally.
[0:53] Your response was gentle and humble, and your point about taking control of my life instead
[0:57] of feeling helpless and looking solely inward actually influenced me, even though I didn't fully realize it back then.
[1:06] I never wrote to thank you, and I wanted to do that now.
[1:08] Your answer mattered." Man, that really hit me.
[1:12] It made me tear up.
[1:14] And that's the message that somebody sent to me, thanking me for addressing their message or
[1:21] their previous message in a previous episode.
[1:24] And again, that's called "I Didn't Ask to Be Born, and I Don't Want to Be Here." You'll find
[1:29] it at theoverwhelmedbrain.com if you want to listen to that.
[1:33] It was a tough episode.
[1:34] I mean, that was a very tough one to do because these are real thoughts and feelings that any
[1:42] one of us could have at any time.
[1:45] And I've had these thoughts and feelings in my 20s, so I wanted to address it.
[1:50] And I addressed some of the harder ones that I may not believe that I have an answer to or that
[1:56] I have direction for, but I just put it out there anyway.
[2:01] I read this person's message, and I said, "I got to talk about this.
[2:05] If this person really believes that there's no reason to be here and they didn't want to be
[2:10] born and there's no meaning and purpose or whatever they think, I need to address it because
[2:17] that's a real challenge in so many people's lives.
[2:21] It was for me for many years, and I got through it.
[2:26] And this person apparently got through it.
[2:28] And again, I want to thank you so much for writing, for sharing that.
[2:32] I am so grateful and so humbled and honored that you wrote back." And I wrote them back, and
[2:39] I said, "A teacher in high school or a couple of teachers in my high school made an effect or
[2:48] made an impact on my life many years ago, and I didn't even realize it at the time. They just existed. They were my teacher.
[2:58] I learned something from them.
[3:00] I learned something by going to their class.
[3:04] But it wasn't just education.
[3:06] It was probably wisdom that I didn't fully comprehend at the time." And then 20 years went by,
[3:16] and I never thought about them again.
[3:18] And then suddenly, wait a minute, those people impacted my life more than I realized. Mrs.
[3:26] Mills gave me the creative freedom to be myself.
[3:32] She was a creative writing class, so that was a good place to do it.
[3:37] But I was young and immature, and I would just say foolish things sometimes, but she allowed
[3:45] me to be myself without restriction.
[3:49] And I never realized how important that was until many years later.
[3:55] And so I wrote her a letter.
[3:56] I sent her a thank you letter.
[3:58] It was multiple pages long.
[4:00] And she wrote me back, and she was so grateful.
[4:03] And she said, "Do you mind if I read this in my class?" And I said, "Of course, Nigel.
[4:09] I mean, if you think it's going to be of value to them, sure." So she read some of it to her
[4:16] class, and I didn't hear back from her after that.
[4:20] But I assume that she felt like I feel now, somebody reaching out from the past, thanking you
[4:27] or thanking me for something that I said to them that changed their perspective, that changed
[4:35] something about their life that made a difference.
[4:39] I wrote to another teacher, Mr. Duggan.
[4:43] I don't know if these people listen to my show, but somebody might know these people. And Mr.
[4:47] Duggan was my computer teacher, and he made a huge impact in my life.
[4:52] He introduced me to some authors and some creative people to listen to, just people on radio plays.
[5:04] And not that it matters, but I found new forms of entertainment and listening and sci-fi and, of course, computers.
[5:16] And that was the most impactful thing he had on me is the computer knowledge that he shared with me.
[5:22] And I just appreciated his openness, his personality, the way he was so personable and how he
[5:31] really wanted the best for us.
[5:33] That's what I could sense.
[5:35] He was very much invested in his responsibility as a teacher and just how he was also a friend.
[5:44] And so I wrote to him 20 years later, and I also received a message back saying, "You have no
[5:50] idea how important this message is for me, and it came at the right time because this is happening
[5:55] in my life." And he was grateful, and he was humble, and it really humbled me to hear that my
[6:02] message to him was impactful, just as this person's message to me is impactful.
[6:10] And I am just so grateful for these people in my life.
[6:14] And I'm sharing this with you because you never know how you're affecting someone or if you're
[6:20] even affecting anyone in your life.
[6:22] You never know, and you may never know for years.
[6:26] This is like my mom.
[6:28] I didn't have the gratitude and appreciation for her until I was away from home for like 10 years.
[6:36] And it was at that point I realized how much she did for me and for the kids, my siblings, and
[6:42] how much she kept us safe from the abusive person in the house and how much she did overall
[6:49] and how open she was and unrestrictive she was.
[6:52] She just let us be ourselves.
[6:55] And that was just an amazing realization I had so many years later.
[7:00] And I just got closer to my mom much later in life than I ever had been before.
[7:08] And then our relationship evolved more than it was in a very open and honest way where she felt
[7:16] like she could share anything with me, and I felt like I could share with her.
[7:20] I didn't feel that way when I was a kid.
[7:22] I just felt that way later.
[7:24] So her impact in my life was huge.
[7:27] And again, I'm sharing all of this with you because it's very difficult to tell how we're affecting people, but we are.
[7:36] We walk around affecting people all the time, and especially those people that we have connections with.
[7:43] And sometimes we are saving someone's life, and we don't even know it because it's going to
[7:47] happen 10 years from now when they remember the impact that we had in their life.
[7:54] And when that happens, there's a gratitude that comes over you and a feeling this is my experience.
[8:03] It's a feeling of just surprise.
[8:08] This person comes out of nowhere from the past. Surprise, you helped me.
[8:13] You made me feel better about myself.
[8:16] You made me feel different about life.
[8:19] You gave me a different perspective, a different outlook.
[8:22] I'm not saying that that's what that person said to me.
[8:25] I'm just saying this is what happens.
[8:27] This is what can happen to you, to anyone, that somebody can come in from your past and say,
[8:34] "You really made an impact in my life." And even if they don't say the words, even if they don't
[8:39] show the gratitude or appreciation about how you showed up in their life, they are still making
[8:44] decisions based on everyone they've known, all the influences in their life, all the impact
[8:51] that their education and their connections have made in their life to their life.
[8:57] And you are part of it.
[8:59] And what's fascinating about that is that it's not just the positive people that we've had in our life.
[9:04] It's the negative people too.
[9:06] Sometimes the negative people teach us, usually teach us a lot more than the positive people
[9:11] because of the challenge we went through that if we hadn't gone through it, our life would be different.
[9:18] And I know there are people listening now saying, "Yeah, my life would be a lot better if that
[9:22] person wasn't in it." Or there are other people like myself that say, "Yeah, my life sucked
[9:29] for a while, but I learned something from that person being in it.
[9:34] I learned something from all the toxicity they brought into my life because it changed my trajectory
[9:41] in a way that made me a better person." That doesn't mean I appreciated it at the time.
[9:48] I didn't appreciate going through the experiences and the challenges with that person at the time.
[9:53] I wished things were different back then.
[9:56] But now I look back and think to myself, "I wouldn't be who I am today without them.
[10:01] I would be completely different. Maybe I'd be smarter. Maybe I'd be better.
[10:06] Maybe I'd be happier without them. Or maybe not.
[10:10] Maybe this is currently the pinnacle of the evolution of where I ended up because of all the
[10:16] events that have occurred in my life.
[10:18] And this is as best as it could get up to this point.
[10:24] And maybe it wouldn't have gotten to this point had he not been in my life.
[10:29] And I have to believe that's true.
[10:32] Because if I choose not to believe that I would be better off without that person in my life,
[10:37] then what does that make my life?
[10:40] It makes it feel like it was a waste.
[10:43] It makes it feel like it wasn't worth living, that I feel regret and resentment.
[10:49] And I'll carry that forward with me into the future with every interaction and just having that
[10:55] as a low-level belief or understanding about life in general.
[11:00] And this is what life is.
[11:02] And I'll carry that forward with me and will be miserable.
[11:07] So I choose to be grateful for having gone through the challenges to get where I am today and
[11:16] to give me the knowledge that I have today because there were lessons I learned along the way
[11:22] that, you know, they were terrible to go through.
[11:26] And I don't like that I had to expose other people to what I didn't learn yet, if you know what I mean.
[11:36] We can expose other people to what we haven't learned about ourselves yet and what we haven't
[11:40] learned about life and relationships in order to have happier, healthier connections.
[11:47] If we haven't learned it yet, then we expose other people to what we haven't learned yet and
[11:51] maybe affect their lives too.
[11:53] But what can they carry forward from that point on?
[11:58] What can they learn from us?
[11:59] What can we learn from what has happened to us?
[12:03] And what will we do with that information?
[12:06] Because I know there are a lot of people listening now that have been through trauma, have been
[12:11] through difficulties, have been through abuse, some very awful, awful abuse.
[12:17] And when that has happened in your life, if that has happened in your life, it's hard to say,
[12:25] "Hey, I am grateful for that to happen." And I'm not telling you to say that. You can be angry.
[12:31] You can be hateful if you want.
[12:33] You can hate the people that did this stuff to you.
[12:37] But it's important to remember what you bring into tomorrow doesn't have to be what happened yesterday.
[12:45] And I'm not telling you to dismiss it.
[12:48] I'm not telling you to invalidate yourself.
[12:50] I'm just asking you, how do you want to feel?
[12:53] What do you want to bring forward?
[12:56] Now, maybe there's some healing to do.
[12:57] Maybe you do have something to work on in yourself to heal.
[13:01] And maybe you think that healing is not possible.
[13:05] I will certainly not invalidate that for you because I haven't suffered as you have.
[13:09] I haven't gone through what you've gone through. Maybe it was worse.
[13:13] Maybe it was a hundred times worse.
[13:15] Maybe it was not as bad as my stuff.
[13:18] But we all process suffering differently, and we all suffer in our own way.
[13:24] And our suffering is the only suffering that we know because we've experienced it.
[13:29] So when you have stuff to deal with and stuff to heal, that is a personal journey.
[13:36] And that journey sometimes requires a lot of hard work.
[13:40] And some people might say, "Well, I need to be forgiving." And other people might say, "Oh,
[13:44] I'll never forgive." And some people say, "Well, I'll never stop hating." And some people will
[13:49] say, "I will always be angry about what they did.
[13:55] I will always be angry at them.
[13:57] I will always be angry, like this person probably once felt, for being born because I didn't ask to be here.
[14:05] I didn't ask to be put in this situation.
[14:07] I didn't ask to be a victim of whatever's going on in my life.
[14:11] I don't want to participate in this crap." And this is very real.
[14:17] I mean, what I'm saying is very real to a lot of people.
[14:21] I don't want to go through this crap.
[14:22] I don't want to deal with this.
[14:25] I tell you what, I've been in that place a few times in my life.
[14:28] I don't want to deal with this. I hate this. It's sad to me. It's angering to me. I'm hating it.
[14:34] And I've even gotten depressed over it.
[14:38] I've suppressed what I wanted to say to people.
[14:41] I've repressed the emotions that have come up to me, and I have felt my system, my body, depress.
[14:48] That is a formula for depression. You suppress your thoughts.
[14:53] You repress the emotions that come up for you.
[14:56] You know, that's sometimes automatic because of our coping mechanisms and how we operate on
[15:01] the inside and on the outside too.
[15:04] But that can lead to depression.
[15:07] There's just that we hold ourselves back from being ourselves, from expressing who we are into the world.
[15:16] I don't know how many times I've said, "I'm so angry at that person, but I'm not going to say
[15:22] anything, and I'm not going to express my anger, and I'm just going to hold it in." And every
[15:28] time I did that, it didn't work out very well because I felt my body ache inside.
[15:36] I felt it wanting to find relief because I was pushing on it.
[15:42] I was pushing into my body the emotions that I didn't want to experience and the words I didn't
[15:49] want to say or I wanted to say, but I knew I couldn't because it would cause more trouble.
[15:54] So I stuffed them down.
[15:56] And I didn't even want to talk about it with anybody else because I didn't want to bring it
[15:58] up and experience those emotions.
[16:00] So I kept them stuffed.
[16:03] And in my 20s, that caused depression.
[16:07] And so what I learned to do, and it was very difficult, was start expressing what was inside of me.
[16:14] I mean, real stuff, not just, "Hey, I'm angry.
[16:17] I just want to let you know." It's more like, "That mother." It's more like, "I'm sharing the
[16:25] internal voice, the emotions externally.
[16:29] My internal voice is coming out." Does that mean I explode?
[16:34] It just means I'm giving my emotions a voice in a safe place with a safe person sometimes.
[16:40] But I learned that we are kind of like a pressure cooker.
[16:44] And the more we push downward and into ourselves, the more the pressure builds.
[16:50] And that pressure can either cause us to implode more depression, maybe some suicidal thoughts.
[16:58] And when we are continuing to push down, you know, push the thoughts and emotions down, that's
[17:04] when we have more thoughts about not wanting to be here and being self-destructive.
[17:11] And what is the opposite of that?
[17:14] That's how I looked at it.
[17:15] That's how I started looking at it when I was depressed.
[17:17] What is the opposite of all the things I'm doing now that cause me to feel this way?
[17:23] What do I need to do differently to turn things around?
[17:28] I wanted to do a 180, go in the other direction, and turn things around.
[17:32] So I started releasing it.
[17:35] How did I release it?
[17:36] I made a fool of myself.
[17:39] I broke down in front of a potential new partner within two months of our relationship, but
[17:45] within two months of when we met, I was feeling depressed.
[17:49] You know, I was experiencing it before we met, but I brought this depression into the relationship.
[17:55] And her words to me, because we had talked about a few things, she said, "When you're ready,
[18:02] just give me a call and we can talk about this, but you need to work on yourself.
[18:07] You need to heal or whatever.
[18:08] You need to figure it out because I'm with you, but you can't connect with me and you're just
[18:15] not there." I mean, she didn't use those words, but that's kind of how it came across. "You're not there.
[18:20] You're not connecting with me.
[18:22] And I need somebody I can connect with.
[18:24] So work on yourself, heal yourself, and I will, I will take care of myself and move forward in my life.
[18:32] And if you do find a path through this, give me a call." It was probably the most mature thing
[18:38] anyone has ever said to me because it was honest and it wasn't relying on the relationship.
[18:45] It was relying on two individuals who could make choices for themselves, who would like to be
[18:51] in a relationship, but the relationship wasn't the reason she decided to say that.
[18:58] The relationship was a benefit if everything worked out.
[19:03] But in order to have a relationship, both of us needed to bring in the best version of ourselves.
[19:09] And best is subjective, and it could be the healthiest version of ourselves, the most worked-on
[19:16] version of ourselves, the most healed, not that we'll ever be there.
[19:20] Maybe, maybe you'll be 100% healed one day, but we're always working on ourselves.
[19:26] And at the time, I needed to work on myself and I didn't.
[19:30] So I brought this depressed version of me into the relationship.
[19:36] And that caused so many issues because I couldn't connect with her.
[19:40] She couldn't connect with me.
[19:42] And she was a very empathetic person.
[19:43] So she was experiencing some of my down, you know, my down state.
[19:49] And she didn't want to experience that because she was a bright, energetic person that didn't
[19:55] want to get into a relationship with somebody who brought her down.
[19:58] And so when she decided to to exit the relationship, or at least start to exit the relationship
[20:04] by saying, you know, you really need to work on this and it's something that you should look
[20:10] at, but I don't want to be a part of this because this is, you know, it's not good for me.
[20:16] It's not healthy for me.
[20:17] That was the first time somebody made a decision for themselves without considering that the
[20:23] relationship might suffer or end.
[20:28] And that really made me understand how a relationship is supposed to work.
[20:33] You may not agree with that.
[20:35] You may say, you should work on it together and continue moving forward together, trying to
[20:40] heal what is going on and help each other.
[20:44] But that's not what happened.
[20:45] And because it didn't happen, it actually caused me to look inward instead of relying on the
[20:51] relationship to be my only source of happiness and energy and like an undepressed state.
[21:00] It was like my reprieve from depression.
[21:03] And when that happens, when somebody uses the relationship as a crutch, it becomes a drain on the relationship.
[21:13] It becomes a drain on the other person and both of you in general, even though you may feel,
[21:19] if you did this, you may feel lifted up because of the relationship.
[21:23] But if that is the source of your energy and happiness, or at least a reprieve, it drains the relationship.
[21:31] And so I look back at that time when she was ready to walk out the door and take care of herself,
[21:37] not because she didn't like me. She actually loved me.
[21:40] It's not because she saw me as defective or a problem.
[21:45] She just decided that it wasn't going to work for her or the relationship, but basically she
[21:53] was saying, I can't do this to myself.
[21:57] That didn't mean she didn't care because she wanted the relationship, but she decided that she
[22:03] couldn't do this to herself because she didn't want to expose herself to what would bring her down.
[22:10] And that was the most self-care I've ever seen somebody do for themselves.
[22:17] This doesn't mean that one should never stay in the relationship or work on things together.
[22:22] This was a fairly new relationship and she made decisions that were right for her because the
[22:27] investment wasn't wholly there yet.
[22:31] It was still a new relationship, but she saw some signs that were bringing her down.
[22:36] And this is something that I so much appreciate about her and what I've learned from her, is
[22:42] that sometimes there are signs that things aren't going well and we need to make a different
[22:49] plan, a different strategy, even an exit plan in order for us not to get into a situation that
[22:55] we may not be able to handle or may make us feel bad or unhappy or drained.
[23:03] And it's so important to catch that as soon as possible so that we don't end up in that depressed
[23:10] state that I was talking about.
[23:13] And this is hard to do when you're in a family and maybe when you're young and you're growing
[23:18] up in the family and you can't go anywhere yet and you can't express yourself because doing
[23:23] so is dangerous and you can't express your emotional state with anyone because you don't feel safe.
[23:30] And so you might get that depressing feeling from childhood.
[23:35] You might have developed a feeling that you could never be yourself because that's what you learned in childhood.
[23:41] And if you feel like you can't be yourself, what happens to you? Where do you go?
[23:48] That's something I had to learn. Where did I go?
[23:51] It took me probably 40 years before I discovered that I relied so much on other relationships
[23:59] for my happiness, for my energy.
[24:01] It took me so long.
[24:03] It took me a good half of my life to realize that I was missing from the relationship because
[24:10] I defined myself as a component of the relationship.
[24:14] Like I was half me at all times until I got into a relationship and then I was the whole me. You complete me.
[24:23] I was the half me without a relationship and that's not good enough.
[24:29] And I didn't realize that it wasn't good enough until I was until the person that I'm talking
[24:33] about, the woman that I met that became my wife and now my ex-wife many, many years ago, taught
[24:39] me these lessons that it's important to find myself and bring myself into the relationship and
[24:47] not hide myself and not be myself in the relationship.
[24:52] Because when I do that, I am putting the pressure on the other person and the relationship to
[24:59] make me a whole person.
[25:03] And that's what I did most of my life.
[25:04] I chased other people to make me a whole person.
[25:08] So I walked around as half me.
[25:10] And being half me, I didn't know who I was.
[25:15] And when the divorce came and I had to deal with that and heal from that and also learn about
[25:20] my other dysfunctional and toxic behaviors that I brought into relationships, it was the first
[25:25] time I decided that I'm going to stay single because I have no effing clue who I am.
[25:32] And I decided to find out who the hell I was.
[25:36] Who am I without another person in my life? That was my question.
[25:39] Who are you without another person in your life?
[25:42] If you don't know the answer to that, that is so important.
[25:47] That is one of the most important, if not the most important question that you probably should
[25:54] explore if you don't know.
[25:56] And I'm not saying if you ask the question, who am I and nothing comes up, that means you don't
[26:00] know because that's a, that's a very existential question.
[26:04] It's a very esoteric question.
[26:06] It's a very spiritual question for some people.
[26:09] And if you don't know, it doesn't mean you don't really know because sometimes who you are is just a feeling.
[26:16] I mean, that's my opinion, but sometimes I can't answer who am I, or maybe you can't answer
[26:21] who am I without saying what you do, what your name is, where you live, what you like, you know, all this stuff.
[26:31] If I were to, like, off the cuff right now, if I ask myself, who am I?
[26:36] What's the first thing that comes up?
[26:38] I can't even tell you without sounding ridiculous.
[26:42] The first thing that comes up is I am the totality of who I am. And that sounds ridiculous. I don't know.
[26:48] Maybe that's a good answer.
[26:49] Maybe that's the fullness of who I am.
[26:53] I am that I am.
[26:54] That's really what it reminds me of.
[26:56] I am the totality of who I am.
[27:00] That feels kind of filling when I say that.
[27:02] It feels kind of good.
[27:03] I am the totality of who I am. Wow, that's a lot.
[27:07] If you don't have a good answer to that, or if you have a bad feeling when that comes up, that's something worth exploring.
[27:16] And the way I explored it was asking myself, who am I without somebody else in my life?
[27:23] You know, that's a meditation I did for well over a year.
[27:26] I used to go to go to bed and I would visualize myself as the last person on earth.
[27:32] That is quite enlightening if you've never done it.
[27:35] But I imagine that I was the last person on earth and I had to discover who I was by being alone, truly alone.
[27:45] If that sounds depressing, I get it.
[27:48] I'm not saying it's going to bring you happiness or anything like that.
[27:51] I'm saying it's just a question to explore if you haven't done it yet.
[27:55] And it's a a meditation that you could try to figure out who you are because during this visualization,
[28:03] I had to explore reality without a single other person in it. There are some benefits.
[28:13] There are a lot of drawbacks, but I had to explore what life would be like without anybody in it.
[28:18] Luckily, in my visualization, it was modern times.
[28:21] It wasn't like before we built houses and things like that.
[28:26] I wasn't like alone on an earth that wasn't developed yet.
[28:30] But in my visualization, that would be an interesting one though.
[28:32] I haven't tried that yet.
[28:33] In my visualization, there were houses.
[28:36] There were grocery stores that had food in them.
[28:38] And how long would that food last, you know, and the canned goods and stuff like that?
[28:43] And in my in my vision quest, I guess you could say, there were animals.
[28:48] So there were dogs that were stuck in houses and I had to rescue them.
[28:52] And I was just going around trying to figure out what I would do.
[28:56] And so after I got past all this initial stuff, okay, I found my food.
[29:00] I've, I got an RV.
[29:01] I got a pickup truck because all that's free now.
[29:04] I had to discover after I got everything that I needed, what's the point of all this?
[29:09] What is the next step?
[29:11] And for me, what I discovered is my next step was always pursuit and searching.
[29:16] I'm searching for other people and just in case I'm not the last person, I'm searching for a
[29:22] place to live, a place to thrive and not have to worry about wild animals or cold weather or
[29:31] other things that might be out of my control.
[29:33] I tried to make my life as peaceful as possible.
[29:36] And I never felt the need to, you know, hurt myself.
[29:39] I never had suicidal ideation or anything like that.
[29:41] I just wanted to live and I wanted to find out what more there was.
[29:46] And I also wanted to solve the mystery why I was, I was the only person on earth.
[29:49] But that was also very enlightening because it's a reminder of what I felt the meaning of life
[29:56] was in the first place, which was, and this is another thing that's going to sound very anticlimactic,
[30:03] which is, I believe, the meaning of life is to find out what the meaning of life is.
[30:09] And that is the meaning.
[30:10] That's what gives it purpose.
[30:12] That's our quest, is to continue moving forward, trying to figure that out, but not seeing it
[30:19] as a disappointment if we don't find it, but always a curiosity in moving toward it.
[30:26] And so my pursuit, my quest about the meaning of all of this, it continues because it, it compounds.
[30:35] The meaning of life compounds for me.
[30:38] As soon as I meet a new person who brings a value to my life, that compounds the meaning of life.
[30:45] It brings purpose into my life. But there's more. And there's always more.
[30:51] And that curiosity pushes me forward.
[30:53] And I think that's a positive, optimistic viewpoint moving forward with anything is that, yeah,
[31:00] crap happened in the past and I can learn from that and I can try to heal that.
[31:06] I can work on it.
[31:07] I can reflect on it, but I can't let it define me.
[31:10] I can't let it stay with me, impacting me every step of the way.
[31:15] I need to move forward from it.
[31:18] And again, I'm not saying, hey, just do that and you'll be fine because, yeah, there's, there's
[31:22] a lot of people that have dealt with trauma and abuse that I will never comprehend or feel what they've felt.
[31:31] And if that's you, I am so sorry that you went through that.
[31:36] No one deserves that kind of treatment. You didn't deserve that.
[31:41] But I tell you what you do deserve.
[31:44] You deserve to look forward to a better day tomorrow.
[31:48] And what you bring into tomorrow defines what happens tomorrow.
[31:54] And if you can't get rid of the negativity, that's okay. Be forgiving of yourself.
[32:00] Be forgiving of how you showed up in the past because you weren't who you are today.
[32:07] And you're bringing a new version of you into the next day, every single day going forward.
[32:13] And so there's some choice there.
[32:17] And then there are some thoughts and emotions that you might feel that you believe you have
[32:22] no choice but to think and feel.
[32:25] And if that's not out of your life yet, be okay.
[32:28] Be gentle on yourself because some things take time.
[32:32] And some traumas take a lot more time than others.
[32:35] And some abuse will never be forgotten.
[32:37] And you know, you may not be able to forget it, but it's always important to take another step
[32:42] forward so that you're not so consumed with the past.
[32:47] And this person who wrote to me or wrote back and said, you know, you read my message on the
[32:52] air and just wanted to let you know that you made an impact.
[32:56] Maybe the first week after they listened to the episode, nothing changed.
[33:01] Maybe the first month, maybe a year, nothing really changed.
[33:06] But the wheels were in motion. The seed was planted.
[33:10] And there were steps of progress being made unconsciously where they finally got to the point
[33:16] where they could write back and say, "Look, you influenced my life." And so maybe that small
[33:23] moment in time when this person listened to the episode, they started seeing things a little
[33:28] bit differently or maybe one thing that they heard on my show made an impact that changed something
[33:35] else in their life that they didn't even realize.
[33:37] And all these little seemingly disconnected or unconnected events were occurring that they didn't
[33:43] even realize were compounding up to the point where they finally felt a little bit differently. Maybe they're not jubilant.
[33:51] Maybe they're not blissful right now, but they feel different.
[33:55] And that's a step forward, a step in the right direction.
[33:59] And it's a little bit or a lot of letting go of what has been holding them down or holding them back.
[34:05] And that to me is meaningful. That makes an impact.
[34:10] Every little step forward you take has a little bit of impact where finally the culmination
[34:17] and combination of all those steps and everything that you've been through gets to the point
[34:21] where it's meaningful, even in the smallest way.
[34:26] So you never know what impact someone's going to make in your life or what impact you're going
[34:31] to make in someone else's life.
[34:32] And you don't know how that's going to turn out.
[34:35] Maybe for years, maybe for who knows how long.
[34:39] And suddenly you are surprised by a message or you're surprised by someone's progress.
[34:44] And you can look at them and say, "Wow, I think I had an impact on them because they probably
[34:48] wouldn't have done that if I didn't say anything." That reminds me of my wife.
[34:52] She'll say, "You know, I tell people what they need to do." I'm putting words in her mouth,
[34:57] but I told my son what he needed to do and he just dismissed it and said, "That's not going
[35:02] to work." And then six months later, he goes and does it and he tells me, "Hey, look what I did.
[35:09] I came up with this idea and I did it." And she said, "I gave you that idea six months ago."
[35:13] And he says, "No, you didn't." So that little seed gets planted in people and sometimes they
[35:20] think it's their own idea, but that's fine.
[35:24] Whatever it takes to get them there, that's what I've learned.
[35:27] I've learned that actually with some coaching clients I had in the past where they'll say, "Oh,
[35:32] I did this and I don't need you anymore because I did this." And I'm thinking, "Well, you talked
[35:37] about that very same thing." I'm not telling them this, but I'm just thinking it.
[35:41] You talked about that very same thing in our session and you came to a new realization because of our session.
[35:47] At least that's how I interpreted it.
[35:49] And now you're on your own, which is good. I'm glad.
[35:52] And this is what you're doing and you have reached a new level of happiness and positivity. That's awesome. That's great.
[35:58] I don't say, "Hey, I taught you that." I say, "Good for you. That's what I want.
[36:03] That's what I want for you.
[36:04] I want that for you." So I don't take credit.
[36:09] And I'm not taking credit today.
[36:11] I'm just saying you never know who has an impact in your life or who you're impacting.
[36:16] And sometimes it's difficult to find the meaning or purpose of life until it reveals itself later.
[36:25] And for me, it reveals itself every day because every day I am on that journey. I'm on that pursuit.
[36:31] And as long as I'm on that pursuit, there's meaning in my life.
[36:35] Every person, every event compounds that meaning and gives me more and more purpose.
[36:42] I hope you got something from today's episode.
[36:44] Thanks for listening to another episode of The Overwhelmed Brain.
[36:47] I want to start by thanking the patrons of the week, Debra and Tammy. Thank you so much.
[36:52] And wow, Crystal, you gave a generous donation. Thank you so much.
[36:58] She wrote, "Just an extra donation.
[37:00] Thanks for your wonderful weekly podcast.
[37:02] They are always so helpful." This is one of those times where suddenly I get this message out
[37:07] of the blue or this generous contribution to my wellbeing and to my show and all of that. I am grateful. I am humbled. Thank you, Crystal.
[37:16] And thanks to all the patrons that give every month. I appreciate you.
[37:20] And if you value the show like these patrons do and you want to give back, you can head over
[37:24] to more TOB and there are options to do so over there.
[37:28] And speaking of relationships that will impact you, if you're looking for a show on how to navigate
[37:33] difficult relationships or a particular difficult relationship, listen to my other podcast called
[37:38] Love and Abuse over at loveandabuse.com.
[37:41] It's not just about abuse.
[37:42] It's about control and manipulation and all the other difficulties that you can have in pretty much regular relationships too.
[37:50] So that's over at loveandabuse.com.
[37:52] And if you know you're the difficult one in the relationship, I encourage you to join the program
[37:57] that is helping a lot of people heal over at healedbeing.com and you'll learn what dysfunctional
[38:03] and toxic behaviors look like you may not even know you're doing.
[38:07] And with that, always keep your mind open because that's how you make the best decisions.
[38:12] And be firm in your decisions and actions so that you can create the life you want.
[38:17] Always take steps to grow and evolve.
[38:20] You are powerful beyond measure.
[38:23] And above all, and this is something I absolutely know to be true about you, you are amazing.

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