# Book 8 Chapter 5 - A Sudden Resolution, Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov, Librivox Audiobook

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[0:00] Speaker 1: CHAPTER V. A SUDDEN RESOLUTION She was sitting in the
[0:02] Speaker 1: kitchen with her grandmother. They were both just going to bed.
[0:27] Speaker 1: Relying on Nazar Ivanovitch, they had not locked themselves in.
[0:31] Speaker 1: Mitya ran in, pounced on Fenya, and seized her by
[0:34] Speaker 1: the throat. Speak at once! Where is she? With whom
[0:37] Speaker 1: is she now, at Mokhoy? He roared furiously. Both the
[0:41] Speaker 1: women squealed. Arr! I'll tell you! Arr! Dimitri Fyodorovich, darling,
[0:46] Speaker 1: I'll tell you everything directly. I won't hide anything, gabbled Fenya,
[0:49] Speaker 1: frightened to death. She's gone to Mokhoy, to her officer.
[0:53] Speaker 1: What officer? roared Mitya. To her officer. the same one
[0:57] Speaker 1: she used to know, the one who threw her over
[0:59] Speaker 1: five years ago, cackled Fenya as fast as she could speak.
[1:03] Speaker 1: Mitya withdrew the hands with which he was squeezing her throat.
[1:06] Speaker 1: He stood facing her, pale as death, unable to utter
[1:09] Speaker 1: a word, but his eyes showed that he realized it all, all,
[1:13] Speaker 1: from the first word, and guessed the whole position. Poor
[1:17] Speaker 1: Fenya was not in a condition at that moment to
[1:19] Speaker 1: observe whether he understood or not. She remained sitting on
[1:22] Speaker 1: the trunk as she had been when he ran into
[1:24] Speaker 1: the room, trembling all over, holding her hands out before
[1:28] Speaker 1: her as though trying to defend herself. she seemed to
[1:31] Speaker 1: have grown rigid in that position. Her wide-opened, scared eyes
[1:35] Speaker 1: were fixed immovably upon him, and to make matters worse,
[1:38] Speaker 1: both his hands were smeared with blood. On the way,
[1:42] Speaker 1: as he ran, he must have touched his forehead with them,
[1:44] Speaker 1: wiping off the perspiration, so that on his forehead and
[1:47] Speaker 1: his right cheek were blood-stained patches. Fenya was on the
[1:51] Speaker 1: verge of hysterics. The old cook had jumped up and
[1:54] Speaker 1: was staring at him like a mad woman, almost unconscious
[1:57] Speaker 1: with terror. Mitya stood for a moment, then mechanically sank
[2:01] Speaker 1: onto a chair next to fenya he sat not reflecting
[2:04] Speaker 1: but as it were terror-stricken benumbed yet everything was clear
[2:09] Speaker 1: as day that officer he knew about him he knew
[2:12] Speaker 1: everything perfectly he had known it from koroshenka herself had
[2:15] Speaker 1: known that a letter had come from him a month before,
[2:18] Speaker 1: so that for a month, for a whole month, this
[2:21] Speaker 1: had been going on, a secret from him, till the
[2:24] Speaker 1: very arrival of this new man, and he had never
[2:26] Speaker 1: thought of him. But how could he? How could he
[2:29] Speaker 1: not have thought of him? Why was it he had
[2:31] Speaker 1: forgotten this officer, like that, forgotten him, as soon as
[2:34] Speaker 1: he heard of him? That was the question that faced
[2:37] Speaker 1: him like some monstrous thing, and he looked at this
[2:40] Speaker 1: monstrous thing with horror, growing cold with horror. But suddenly,
[2:45] Speaker 1: as gently and mildly as a gentle and affectionate child,
[2:48] Speaker 1: he began speaking to Fenya as though he had utterly
[2:50] Speaker 1: forgotten how he had scared and hurt her just now.
[2:54] Speaker 1: He fell to questioning Fenya with an extreme preciseness, astonishing
[2:58] Speaker 1: in his position, and though the girl looked wildly at
[3:00] Speaker 1: his blood-stained hands, she too, with wonderful readiness and rapidity,
[3:05] Speaker 1: answered every question as though eager to put the whole
[3:08] Speaker 1: truth and nothing but the truth before him. Little by little,
[3:12] Speaker 1: even with a sort of enjoyment, she began explaining every detail,
[3:16] Speaker 1: not wanting to torment him, but, as it were, eager
[3:19] Speaker 1: to be of the utmost service to him. She described
[3:22] Speaker 1: the whole of that day in great detail, the visit
[3:25] Speaker 1: of Rakitin and Alyosha, how she, Fenya, had stood on
[3:28] Speaker 1: the watch, how the mistress had set off, and how
[3:30] Speaker 1: she had called out of the window to Alyosha to
[3:33] Speaker 1: give him, Mitya, her greetings, and to tell him to
[3:36] Speaker 1: remember forever how she had loved him for an hour.
[3:39] Speaker 1: Hearing of the message, Mitya suddenly smiled and there was
[3:42] Speaker 1: a flush of color on his pale cheeks. At the
[3:45] Speaker 1: same moment, Fenya said to him, not a bit afraid
[3:48] Speaker 1: now to be inquisitive, Look at your hands, Dmitri Fyodorovich!
[3:52] Speaker 1: They're all over blood! Yes, answered Mitya, mechanically. He looked
[3:57] Speaker 1: carelessly at his hands, and at once forgot them and
[4:00] Speaker 1: Fenya's question. He sank into silence again. Twenty minutes had
[4:04] Speaker 1: passed since he had run in. His first horror was over,
[4:07] Speaker 1: but evidently some new fixed determination had taken possession of him.
[4:12] Speaker 1: He suddenly stood up, smiling dreamily. What has happened to you, sir?
[4:17] Speaker 1: said Fenya, pointing to his hands again. She spoke compassionately,
[4:21] Speaker 1: as though she felt very near to him now in
[4:23] Speaker 1: his grief. Mitya looked at his hands again. That's blood, Fenya,
[4:28] Speaker 1: he said, looking at her with a strange expression. That's
[4:32] Speaker 1: human blood. And my God, why was it shed? But, Fenya,
[4:38] Speaker 1: there's a fence here. He looked at her as though
[4:41] Speaker 1: setting her a riddle. A high fence, and terrible to
[4:44] Speaker 1: look at. But at dawn tomorrow, when the sun rises,
[4:48] Speaker 1: Mitya will leap over that fence. You don't understand what fence, Fenya,
[4:53] Speaker 1: and never mind. You'll hear tomorrow and understand. And now, goodbye.
[4:58] Speaker 1: I won't stand in her way. I'll step aside. I
[5:01] Speaker 1: know how to step aside. Live, my joy. You loved
[5:05] Speaker 1: me for an hour. Remember Mityenka Karamazov so forever. She
[5:10] Speaker 1: always used to call me Mityenka, do you remember? and
[5:13] Speaker 1: with those words he went suddenly out of the kitchen.
[5:16] Speaker 1: Fenya was almost more frightened at this sudden departure than
[5:19] Speaker 1: she had been when he ran in and attacked her.
[5:22] Speaker 1: Just ten minutes later, Dmitri went in to Pyotr Ilyich Paratin,
[5:26] Speaker 1: the young official with whom he had pawned his pistols.
[5:29] Speaker 1: It was by now half-past eight, and Pyotr Ilyich had
[5:32] Speaker 1: finished his evening tea, and had just put his coat
[5:35] Speaker 1: on again to go to the metropolis to play billiards.
[5:38] Speaker 1: Mitya caught him coming out. Seeing him with his face
[5:41] Speaker 1: all smeared with blood, the young man uttered a cry
[5:44] Speaker 1: of surprise.' Good heavens! What is the matter?'' I have
[5:48] Speaker 1: come for my pistols,' said Mitya,' and brought you the money.
[5:52] Speaker 1: And thanks very much. I am in a hurry, Pyotr Ilyich.
[5:55] Speaker 1: Please make haste.' Pyotr Ilyich grew more and more surprised.
[5:59] Speaker 1: He suddenly caught sight of a bundle of bank-notes in
[6:01] Speaker 1: Mitya's hand, and, what was more, he had walked in
[6:04] Speaker 1: holding the notes, as no one walks in, and no
[6:07] Speaker 1: one carries money. He had them in his right hand,
[6:10] Speaker 1: and held them outstretched as if to show them. Perhotin's servant-boy,
[6:14] Speaker 1: who met Mitya in the passage, said afterwards that he
[6:16] Speaker 1: walked into the passage in the same way, with the
[6:19] Speaker 1: money outstretched in his hand, so he must have been
[6:21] Speaker 1: carrying them like that even in the streets. They were
[6:25] Speaker 1: all rainbow-coloured hundred-rouble notes, and the fingers holding them were
[6:29] Speaker 1: covered with blood. When Pyotr Ilyich was questioned later on
[6:33] Speaker 1: as to the sum of money, he said that it
[6:35] Speaker 1: was difficult to judge at a glance. but that it
[6:37] Speaker 1: might have been two thousand, or perhaps three, but it
[6:40] Speaker 1: was a big, fat bundle. Dmitri Fyodorovitch, so he testified afterwards,
[6:46] Speaker 1: seemed unlike himself, too, not drunk, but, as it were, exalted,
[6:51] Speaker 1: lost to everything, but at the same time, as it were, absorbed,
[6:55] Speaker 1: as though pondering and searching for something, and unable to
[6:58] Speaker 1: come to a decision. He was in a great haste,
[7:01] Speaker 1: answered abruptly and very strangely, and at moments seemed not
[7:04] Speaker 1: at all dejected, but quite cheerful. But what is the
[7:09] Speaker 1: matter with you? What's wrong? cried Pyotr Ilyich, looking wildly
[7:12] Speaker 1: at his guest. How is it that you're all covered
[7:14] Speaker 1: with blood? Have you had a fall? Look at yourself!
[7:18] Speaker 1: He took him by the elbow and led him to
[7:19] Speaker 1: the glass. Seeing his blood-stained face, Mitya started and scowled wrathfully. Damnation!
[7:26] Speaker 1: That's the last straw! he muttered angrily. hurriedly changing the
[7:30] Speaker 1: notes from his right hand to the left, and impulsively
[7:33] Speaker 1: jerked the handkerchief out of his pocket. But the handkerchief
[7:36] Speaker 1: turned out to be soaked with blood, too. It was
[7:38] Speaker 1: the handkerchief he had used to wipe Grigory's face. There
[7:41] Speaker 1: was scarcely a white spot on it, and it had
[7:43] Speaker 1: not merely begun to dry, but had stiffened into a
[7:46] Speaker 1: crumpled wall and could not be pulled apart. Mitya threw
[7:50] Speaker 1: it angrily on the floor.' Oh, damn it!' he said.'
[7:52] Speaker 1: Haven' t you a rag of some sort, to wipe my face?'' Sir,
[7:56] Speaker 1: you are only stained, not wounded.' You'd better wash,' said
[7:59] Speaker 1: Pyotr Ilyitch.' Here' s a washstand. I'll pour you out some water.''
[8:03] Speaker 1: A washstand? That's all right. But where am I to
[8:06] Speaker 1: put this?' With the strangest perplexity he indicated his bundle
[8:10] Speaker 1: of hundred-rouble notes, looking inquiringly at Pyotr Ilyitch as though
[8:14] Speaker 1: it were for him to decide what he, Mitya, was
[8:17] Speaker 1: to do with his own money.' In your pocket or
[8:20] Speaker 1: on the table here. They won't be lost.'' In my pocket.'
[8:24] Speaker 1: yes in my pocket all right but i say that's
[8:27] Speaker 1: all nonsense he cried as though suddenly coming out of
[8:30] Speaker 1: his absorption look here let's first settle that business of
[8:33] Speaker 1: the pistols give them back to me here's your money
[8:36] Speaker 1: because i'm in great need of them and i haven't
[8:38] Speaker 1: a minute a minute to spare and taking the topmost
[8:41] Speaker 1: note from the bundle he held it out to pyotr
[8:44] Speaker 1: ilyitch' But I shan't have change enough. Haven't you less?'' No,'
[8:49] Speaker 1: said Mitya, looking again at the bundle, and as though
[8:52] Speaker 1: not trusting his own words, he turned over two or
[8:54] Speaker 1: three of the topmost ones.' No, they're all alike,' he added,
[8:58] Speaker 1: and again he looked inquiringly at Pyotr Ilyich.' How have
[9:02] Speaker 1: you grown so rich?' the latter asked.' Wait, I'll send
[9:05] Speaker 1: my boy to Plotnikov's. They close late, to see if
[9:08] Speaker 1: they won't change it.' Here, Mitya,' he called into the passage.'
[9:12] Speaker 1: To Plotnikov's shop, first rate, cried Mitya, as though struck
[9:16] Speaker 1: by an idea. Mitya, he turned to the boy as
[9:19] Speaker 1: he came in, look here, run to Plotnikov's and tell
[9:22] Speaker 1: them that Dmitri Fyodorovich sends his greetings and will be
[9:25] Speaker 1: there directly. But listen, listen, tell them to have champagne,
[9:29] Speaker 1: three dozen bottles, ready before I come, and packed as
[9:33] Speaker 1: it was to take to Mokhoi. I took four dozen
[9:35] Speaker 1: with me then, he added, suddenly addressing Pyotr Ilyich. They
[9:39] Speaker 1: know all about it, don't you trouble, Mitya, he turned
[9:41] Speaker 1: again to the boy. stay listen tell them to put
[9:45] Speaker 1: in cheese strasburg pies smoked fish ham caviare and everything
[9:50] Speaker 1: everything they've got up to a hundred roubles or a
[9:53] Speaker 1: hundred and twenty as before but wait don't let them
[9:56] Speaker 1: forget dessert sweets pears watermelons Two or three, or four. No,
[10:02] Speaker 1: one melon's enough. And chocolate, candy, toffee, fondants. In fact,
[10:08] Speaker 1: everything I took to Mokre before. Three hundred roubles' worth
[10:11] Speaker 1: with the champagne. Let it be just the same again.
[10:14] Speaker 1: And remember, Mischa, if you're cold, Mischa. His name is Mischa,
[10:18] Speaker 1: isn't it? he turned to Pyotr Ilyitch again.' Wait a minute,'
[10:22] Speaker 1: Pyotr Ilyitch intervened, listening and watching him uneasily.' You' d better
[10:26] Speaker 1: go yourself and tell them. He'll muddle it.'' He will.
[10:30] Speaker 1: I see he will. Amisha, I was going to kiss
[10:33] Speaker 1: you for the commission. If you don't make a mistake,
[10:35] Speaker 1: there's ten roubles for you. Run along. Make haste. Champagne's
[10:39] Speaker 1: the chief thing. Let them bring up champagne. And brandy, too.
[10:42] Speaker 1: And red and white wine. And all I had then.
[10:45] Speaker 1: They know what I had then.'' But listen,' Pyotr Ilyitch
[10:49] Speaker 1: interrupted with some impatience. I say, let him simply run
[10:52] Speaker 1: and change the money, and tell them not to close,
[10:55] Speaker 1: and you go and tell them... Give him your note.
[10:58] Speaker 1: Be off, Misha. Put your best leg forward. Pyotr Ilyitch
[11:02] Speaker 1: seemed to hurry Misha off on purpose, because the boy
[11:05] Speaker 1: remained standing with his mouth and eyes wide open, apparently
[11:08] Speaker 1: understanding little of Misha's orders, gazing up with amazement and
[11:11] Speaker 1: terror at his blood-stained face and the trembling blood-stained fingers
[11:15] Speaker 1: that held the notes. Well, Now come and wash, said
[11:19] Speaker 1: Pyotr Ilyich sternly. Put the money on the table, or
[11:22] Speaker 1: else in your pocket. That's right, come along. But take
[11:25] Speaker 1: off your coat. And beginning to help him off with
[11:28] Speaker 1: his coat, he cried out again, Look, your coat's covered
[11:32] Speaker 1: with blood, too. That's—it's not the coat. It's only a
[11:36] Speaker 1: little here on the sleeve, and that's only here where
[11:39] Speaker 1: the handkerchief lay. It must have soaked through. I must
[11:42] Speaker 1: have sat on the handkerchief at Fenya's, and the blood's
[11:44] Speaker 1: come through. Mitya explained at once, with a childlike unconsciousness
[11:49] Speaker 1: that was astounding. Pyotr Ilyich listened, frowning. Well, you must
[11:54] Speaker 1: have been up to something. You must have been fighting
[11:56] Speaker 1: with someone, he muttered. They began to wash. Pyotr Ilyich
[12:00] Speaker 1: held the jug and poured out the water. Mitya, in
[12:03] Speaker 1: desperate haste, scarcely soaped his hands. They were trembling, and
[12:07] Speaker 1: Pyotr Ilyich remembered it afterwards. But the young official insisted
[12:11] Speaker 1: on his soaping them thoroughly and rubbing them more. He
[12:15] Speaker 1: seemed to exercise more and more sway over Mitya as
[12:18] Speaker 1: time went on. It may be noted in passing that
[12:21] Speaker 1: he was a young man of sturdy character.' Look, you
[12:24] Speaker 1: haven't got your nails clean. Now rub your face, here
[12:27] Speaker 1: on your temples, by your ear. Will you go in
[12:30] Speaker 1: that shirt? Where are you going? Look, all the cuff
[12:33] Speaker 1: of your right sleeve is covered with blood.'' Yes, it's
[12:36] Speaker 1: all bloody,' observed Mitya, looking at the cuff of his shirt.'
[12:39] Speaker 1: Then change your shirt.' I haven't time. You see, I'll—'
[12:44] Speaker 1: Mitya went on with the same confiding ingenuousness, drying his
[12:48] Speaker 1: face and hands on the towel and putting on his coat.'
[12:50] Speaker 1: I' ll turn it up at the wrist. It won't be
[12:53] Speaker 1: seen under the coat. You see—'' Tell me now, what
[12:57] Speaker 1: game have you been up to? Have you been fighting
[12:59] Speaker 1: with someone? In the tavern again, as before? Have you
[13:02] Speaker 1: been beating that captain again?' Pyotr Ilyich asked him reproachfully.'
[13:06] Speaker 1: Whom have you been beating now? Or killing, perhaps?'' Nonsense,'
[13:11] Speaker 1: said Mitya. Don't worry, said Mitya, and he suddenly laughed.
[13:15] Speaker 1: I smashed an old woman in the marketplace just now. Smashed?
[13:20] Speaker 1: An old woman? An old man, cried Mitya, looking Pyotr
[13:24] Speaker 1: Ilyich straight in the face, laughing and shouting at him
[13:27] Speaker 1: as though he were deaf. Confound it! An old woman?
[13:31] Speaker 1: An old man? Have you killed someone? We made it up.
[13:35] Speaker 1: We had a row and made it up. In a
[13:37] Speaker 1: place I know of. We parted friends. A fool! He's
[13:41] Speaker 1: forgiven me. He should have forgiven me by now. If
[13:44] Speaker 1: he'd got up, he wouldn't have forgiven me.' Mitya suddenly winked.'
[13:48] Speaker 1: Only damn him! You know I say, Pyotr Ilyich, damn him!
[13:52] Speaker 1: Don't worry about him. I don't want to just now.'
[13:55] Speaker 1: Mitya snapped out, resolutely.' Whatever do you want to go
[13:59] Speaker 1: picking quarrels with everyone for? Just as you did with
[14:02] Speaker 1: that captain over some nonsense. You've been fighting, and now
[14:05] Speaker 1: you're rushing off on the spree. That's you all over.
[14:08] Speaker 1: Three dozen champagne? What do you want all that for?' Bravo!
[14:13] Speaker 1: Now give me the pistols. Upon my honour, I've no
[14:15] Speaker 1: time now. I should like to have a chat with you,
[14:18] Speaker 1: my dear boy, but I haven't the time, and there's
[14:20] Speaker 1: no need. It's too late for talking. Where's my money?
[14:23] Speaker 1: Where have I put it? he cried, thrusting his hands
[14:26] Speaker 1: into his pockets. You put it on the table, yourself.
[14:29] Speaker 1: Here it is. Had you forgotten? Money's like dirt or
[14:33] Speaker 1: water to you, it seems. Here are your pistols. It's
[14:36] Speaker 1: an odd thing. At six o'clock you pledged them for
[14:38] Speaker 1: ten roubles, and now you've got thousands. Two or three,
[14:41] Speaker 1: I should say.' Three, you bet,' laughed Mitya, stuffing the
[14:46] Speaker 1: note into the side pocket of his trousers.' You' ll lose
[14:49] Speaker 1: it like that. Have you found a gold mine?'' The mines?
[14:53] Speaker 1: The gold mines?' Mitya shouted at the top of his voice,
[14:56] Speaker 1: and went off into a roar of laughter.' Would you
[14:59] Speaker 1: like to go to the mines, Brotin? There's a lady
[15:01] Speaker 1: here who'll stump up three thousand for you if only
[15:03] Speaker 1: you'll go. She did it for me. She's so awfully
[15:06] Speaker 1: fond of gold mines. Do you know Madame Gaglikov?' I
[15:11] Speaker 1: don't know her, but I've heard of her and seen her.
[15:14] Speaker 1: Did she really give you three thousand? Did she really?
[15:18] Speaker 1: said Pyotr Ilyich, eyeing him dubiously. As soon as the
[15:21] Speaker 1: sun rises tomorrow, as soon as Phoebus, ever young, flies upwards,
[15:25] Speaker 1: praising and glorifying God, you go to her, this Madame Khaklakov,
[15:29] Speaker 1: and ask her whether she did stump up that three
[15:32] Speaker 1: thousand or not. Try and find out. I don't know
[15:35] Speaker 1: what terms you are. Since you say it so positively,
[15:38] Speaker 1: I suppose she did give it to you. You've got
[15:40] Speaker 1: the money in your hand. But instead of going to Siberia,
[15:43] Speaker 1: you're spending it all. Where are you really off to now, eh?''
[15:47] Speaker 1: To Mokhoi.'' To Mokhoi? But it's night!'' Once the lad
[15:52] Speaker 1: had all, now the lad has not,' cried Mitya suddenly.'
[15:56] Speaker 1: How not? You say that with all those thousands. I'm
[16:00] Speaker 1: not talking about thousands. Damn thousands! I'm talking of female character.
[16:05] Speaker 1: Fickle is the heart of woman, treacherous and full of vice.'
[16:09] Speaker 1: I agree with Ulysses. That's what he says. I don't
[16:13] Speaker 1: understand you. Am I drunk? Not drunk, but worse. I'm
[16:19] Speaker 1: drunk in spirit, Pyotr Ilyich, drunk in spirit. But that's enough.
[16:24] Speaker 1: What are you doing, loading the pistol? Unloading the pistol.
[16:29] Speaker 1: Unfastening the pistol case, Mitya actually opened the powder horn
[16:32] Speaker 1: and carefully sprinkled and rammed in the charge. Then he
[16:35] Speaker 1: took the bullet and, before inserting it, held it in
[16:38] Speaker 1: two fingers in front of the candle.' Why are you
[16:41] Speaker 1: looking at the bullet?' asked Pyotr Ilyich, watching him with
[16:45] Speaker 1: uneasy curiosity.' Ah, fancy! Why, if you meant to put
[16:49] Speaker 1: that bullet in your brain, would you look at it
[16:51] Speaker 1: or not?'' Why look at it? It's going into my brain,
[16:55] Speaker 1: so it's interesting to look and see what it's like. Ah,
[16:58] Speaker 1: but that's foolishness, a moment's foolishness. Now that's done,' he added,
[17:02] Speaker 1: putting in the bullet, and driving it home with the ramrod.'
[17:04] Speaker 1: Pyotr Ilyich, my dear fellow!' That's nonsense, all nonsense, and
[17:08] Speaker 1: if only you knew what nonsense. Give me a little
[17:11] Speaker 1: piece of paper now. Here's some paper. No, a clean
[17:15] Speaker 1: new piece, writing paper. That's right. And taking a pen
[17:19] Speaker 1: from the table, Mitya rapidly wrote two lines, folded the
[17:23] Speaker 1: paper in four, and thrust it in his waistcoat pocket.
[17:26] Speaker 1: He put the pistols in the case, locked it up,
[17:28] Speaker 1: and kept it in his hand. Then he looked at
[17:31] Speaker 1: Pyotr Ilyich with a slow, thoughtful smile. Now let's go.
[17:36] Speaker 1: Where are we going? No, wait a minute. Are you
[17:39] Speaker 1: thinking of putting that bullet in your brain, perhaps? Pyotr
[17:43] Speaker 1: Ilyich asked uneasily. I was fooling about the bullet. I
[17:47] Speaker 1: want to live. I love life. You may be sure
[17:49] Speaker 1: of that. I love golden-haired Forbus in his warm light.
[17:53] Speaker 1: Dear Pyotr Ilyich, do you know how to step aside?
[17:57] Speaker 1: What do you mean by stepping aside? Making way, making
[18:01] Speaker 1: way for a dear creature, and for one I hate.
[18:03] Speaker 1: and to let the one I hate become dear. That's
[18:06] Speaker 1: what making way means. And to say to them, God
[18:09] Speaker 1: bless you, go your way, pass on, while I... While you?
[18:15] Speaker 1: That's enough, let's go. Upon my word, I'll tell someone
[18:19] Speaker 1: to prevent your going there, said Pyotr Ilyich, looking at him.
[18:22] Speaker 1: What are you going to mockery for, now? There's a
[18:25] Speaker 1: woman there, a woman. That's enough for you. You shut up. Listen,
[18:30] Speaker 1: though you're such a savage, I've always liked you. I
[18:33] Speaker 1: feel anxious. Thanks, old fellow. I'm a savage, you say. Savages. Savages.
[18:39] Speaker 1: That's what I am always saying. Savages. Why, here's Mischa.
[18:43] Speaker 1: I was forgetting him. Mischa ran in, post-haste, with a
[18:47] Speaker 1: handful of notes in change, and reported that everyone was
[18:50] Speaker 1: in a bustle at the Plotnikovs. They are carrying down
[18:53] Speaker 1: the bottles, and the fish, and the tea. It will
[18:55] Speaker 1: all be ready directly. Mitya seized ten roubles and handed
[18:59] Speaker 1: it to Pyotr Ilyich, then tossed another ten-rouble note to Mitya.'
[19:03] Speaker 1: Don' t dare to do such a thing!' cried Pyotr Ilyich.'
[19:07] Speaker 1: I won't have it in my house. It's a bad,
[19:09] Speaker 1: demoralizing habit. Put your money away. Here, put it here.
[19:13] Speaker 1: Why waste it? Who would come in handy to-morrow? I
[19:16] Speaker 1: dare say you'll be coming to me to borrow ten
[19:18] Speaker 1: roubles again. Why do you keep putting the notes in
[19:20] Speaker 1: your side pocket? You'll lose them.'' I say, my dear fellow,
[19:25] Speaker 1: let's go to Mokoe together.' what should i go for
[19:29] Speaker 1: i say let's open a bottle at once and drink
[19:31] Speaker 1: to life i want to drink and especially to drink
[19:34] Speaker 1: with you i've never drunk with you have i very
[19:38] Speaker 1: well we can go to the metropolis i was just
[19:41] Speaker 1: going there i haven't time for that let's drink at
[19:44] Speaker 1: the plotnikos in the back room shall i ask you
[19:46] Speaker 1: a riddle ask away Mitya took the piece of paper
[19:50] Speaker 1: out of his waistcoat pocket, unfolded it, and showed it.
[19:54] Speaker 1: In a large, distinct hand was written,' I punish myself
[19:57] Speaker 1: for my whole life. My whole life I punish.'' I
[20:02] Speaker 1: will certainly speak to someone. I'll go at once,' said
[20:05] Speaker 1: Piotr Ilyich, after reading the paper.' You won't have time,
[20:08] Speaker 1: dear boy.' Come and have a drink. March! Plotnikov's shop
[20:13] Speaker 1: was at the corner of the street, next door but
[20:15] Speaker 1: one to Pyotr Ilyich's. It was the largest grocery shop
[20:18] Speaker 1: in our town, and by no means a bad one,
[20:21] Speaker 1: belonging to some rich merchants. They kept everything that could
[20:24] Speaker 1: be got in a Petersburg shop, grocery of all sort, wines,
[20:28] Speaker 1: bottled by the brothers Eliseev, fruits, cigars, tea, coffee, sugar,
[20:33] Speaker 1: and so on. There were three shop assistants and two
[20:36] Speaker 1: errand boys always employed. Though our part of the country
[20:39] Speaker 1: had grown poorer, the landowners had gone away, and trade
[20:42] Speaker 1: had got worse, yet the grocery stores flourished as before,
[20:46] Speaker 1: every year with increasing prosperity. There were plenty of purchases
[20:49] Speaker 1: for their goods. They were awaiting Mitya with impatience in
[20:53] Speaker 1: the shop. They had vivid recollections of how he had bought,
[20:56] Speaker 1: three or four weeks ago, wine and goods of all
[20:59] Speaker 1: sorts to the value of several hundred roubles, paid for
[21:02] Speaker 1: in cash. They would never have let him have anything
[21:05] Speaker 1: on credit, of course. They remembered that then, as now,
[21:09] Speaker 1: he had had a bundle of hundred-ruble notes in his hand,
[21:12] Speaker 1: and had scattered them at random, without bargaining, without reflecting,
[21:15] Speaker 1: or caring to reflect what use so much wine and
[21:18] Speaker 1: provisions would be to him. The story was told all
[21:22] Speaker 1: over the town that, driving off then with Groschenka to Mokre,
[21:26] Speaker 1: he had spent three thousand in one night, and the
[21:29] Speaker 1: following day, and had come back from the spree without
[21:31] Speaker 1: a penny. He had picked up a whole troop of gypsies.
[21:35] Speaker 1: and camped in our neighbourhood at the time who for
[21:38] Speaker 1: two days got money without stint out of him while
[21:40] Speaker 1: he was drunk and drank expensive wine without stint people
[21:45] Speaker 1: used to tell laughing at mitya how he had given
[21:48] Speaker 1: champagne to grimy handed peasants and feasted the village women
[21:51] Speaker 1: and girls on sweets and strasburg pies though to laugh
[21:56] Speaker 1: at mitya to his face was rather a risky proceeding
[21:59] Speaker 1: there was much laughter behind his back especially in the
[22:02] Speaker 1: tavern at his own ingenious public avowal that all he
[22:05] Speaker 1: had got out of grishenka by this escapade was permission
[22:09] Speaker 1: to kiss her foot and that was the utmost she
[22:11] Speaker 1: had allowed him by the time mitya and pyotr ilyitch
[22:15] Speaker 1: reached the shop they found a cart with three horses
[22:18] Speaker 1: harnessed abreast with bells and with andrei the driver ready
[22:22] Speaker 1: waiting for mitya at the entrance In the shop they
[22:25] Speaker 1: had almost entirely finished packing one box of provisions, and
[22:28] Speaker 1: were only waiting for Mitya's arrival to nail it down
[22:31] Speaker 1: and put it in the cart. Pyotr Ilyich was astounded.'
[22:35] Speaker 1: Where did this cart come from, in such a hurry?'
[22:38] Speaker 1: he asked Mitya.' I met Andrei as I ran to you,
[22:42] Speaker 1: and told him to drive straight here to the shop.
[22:44] Speaker 1: There's no time to lose. Last time I drove with Timofey,
[22:47] Speaker 1: but Timofey now has gone on before me with the witch.
[22:50] Speaker 1: Shall we be very late, Andrei?' They'll only get there
[22:54] Speaker 1: an hour at most before us. Not even that, maybe.
[22:57] Speaker 1: I got Timofey ready to start. I know how it
[22:59] Speaker 1: will go. Their pace won't be ours, Dmitri Fyodorovich. How
[23:03] Speaker 1: could it be? They won't get there an hour earlier. Andrei,
[23:07] Speaker 1: a lanky, red-haired, middle-aged driver, wearing a full-skirted coat and
[23:11] Speaker 1: with a caftan on his arm, replied warmly. Fifty roubles
[23:15] Speaker 1: for vodka, over only an hour behind them. I warrant
[23:19] Speaker 1: the time, Dmitri Fyodorovich. Eh! They won't be half an
[23:22] Speaker 1: hour before us, let alone an hour.' Though Mitya bustled
[23:26] Speaker 1: about seeing after things, he gave his orders strangely, as
[23:29] Speaker 1: it were, disconnectedly and inconsecutively. He began a sentence and
[23:33] Speaker 1: forgot the end of it. Pyotr Ilyich found himself obliged
[23:37] Speaker 1: to come to the rescue.' Four hundred roubles' worth, not
[23:40] Speaker 1: less than four hundred roubles' worth, just as it was then,'
[23:43] Speaker 1: commanded Mitya.' Four dozen champagne, not a bottle less.'' What
[23:48] Speaker 1: do you want with so much? What's it for?' Stay,
[23:52] Speaker 1: cried Pato Ilić. What's this box? What's in it? Surely
[23:55] Speaker 1: there isn't four hundred roubles worth here. The officious shopman
[23:59] Speaker 1: began explaining with oily politeness that the first box contained
[24:03] Speaker 1: only half a dozen bottles of champagne, and only the
[24:06] Speaker 1: most indispensable articles, such as savouries, sweets, toffee, etc. But
[24:10] Speaker 1: the main part of the goods ordered would be packed
[24:13] Speaker 1: and sent off, as on the previous occasion, in a
[24:15] Speaker 1: special cart also with three horses, travelling at full speed,
[24:19] Speaker 1: so that it would arrive not more than an hour
[24:21] Speaker 1: later than Dmitri Fyodorovich himself. Not more than an hour!
[24:26] Speaker 1: Not more than an hour! and put in more toffee
[24:28] Speaker 1: and fondants. The girls there are so fond of it,
[24:31] Speaker 1: Mitya insisted hotly. The fondants are all right, but what
[24:36] Speaker 1: do you want with four dozen of champagne? One would
[24:38] Speaker 1: be enough, said Pyotr Ilyich, almost angry. He began bargaining,
[24:43] Speaker 1: asking for a bill of goods, and refused to be satisfied.
[24:46] Speaker 1: But he only succeeded in saving a hundred roubles. In
[24:49] Speaker 1: the end it was agreed that only three hundred roubles
[24:51] Speaker 1: worth should be sent. Well, you may go to the devil,
[24:55] Speaker 1: cried Pyotr Ilyich on second thoughts. What's it to do
[24:58] Speaker 1: with me? Throw away your money, since it costs you nothing.
[25:02] Speaker 1: This way, my economist, this way. Don't be angry. Mitya
[25:05] Speaker 1: drew him into a room at the back of the shop.
[25:08] Speaker 1: They'll give us a bottle here directly. We'll taste it. Ach,
[25:11] Speaker 1: Pyotr Ilyich, come along with me, for you're a nice fellow,
[25:14] Speaker 1: the sort I like. Mitya sat down on a wicker
[25:17] Speaker 1: chair before a little table, covered with a dirty dinner napkin.
[25:21] Speaker 1: Pyotr Ilyich sat down opposite, and the champagne soon appeared,
[25:24] Speaker 1: and oysters were suggested to the gentleman. First-class oysters, the
[25:28] Speaker 1: last lot in. Hang the oysters. I don't eat them,
[25:32] Speaker 1: and we don't need anything, cried Pyotr Ilyich, almost angrily.
[25:36] Speaker 1: There's no time for oysters, said Mitya, and I'm not hungry.
[25:39] Speaker 1: Do you know, friend, he said suddenly, with feeling, I
[25:42] Speaker 1: never have liked all this disorder. Who does like it?
[25:46] Speaker 1: Three dozen of champagne for peasants, upon my word, that's
[25:49] Speaker 1: enough to make anyone angry. That's not what I mean.
[25:52] Speaker 1: I'm talking of a higher order.' There's no order in me,
[25:55] Speaker 1: no higher order. But that's all over. There's no need
[25:59] Speaker 1: to grieve about it. It's too late, damn it. My
[26:02] Speaker 1: whole life has been disorder, and one must set it
[26:05] Speaker 1: in order. Is that a punner? You're raving, not making puns.
[26:10] Speaker 1: Glory be to God in heaven. Glory be to God
[26:13] Speaker 1: in me. That verse came from my heart once. It's
[26:16] Speaker 1: not a verse, but a tear. I made it myself.
[26:20] Speaker 1: Not while I was pulling the captain's beard, though. Why
[26:23] Speaker 1: do you bring him in, all of a sudden? Why
[26:25] Speaker 1: do I bring him in? Foolery. All things come to
[26:29] Speaker 1: an end. All things are made equal. That's the long
[26:31] Speaker 1: and short of it. You know, I keep thinking of
[26:34] Speaker 1: your pistols. That's all foolery, too. Drink, and don't be fanciful.
[26:39] Speaker 1: I love life. I've loved life too much, shamefully much. Enough.
[26:44] Speaker 1: Let's drink to life, dear boy. I propose a toast.
[26:47] Speaker 1: Why am I pleased with myself? I'm a scoundrel, but
[26:50] Speaker 1: I'm satisfied with myself.' and yet I am tortured by
[26:53] Speaker 1: the thought that I am a scoundrel, but satisfied with myself.
[26:56] Speaker 1: I bless the creation, I am ready to bless God
[26:59] Speaker 1: and his creation directly, but I must kill one noxious
[27:02] Speaker 1: insect for fear it should crawl and spoil life for others.
[27:06] Speaker 1: Let us drink to life, dear brother. What can be
[27:09] Speaker 1: more precious than life? Nothing. To life, and to one
[27:13] Speaker 1: queen of queens. Let's drink to life, and to your
[27:16] Speaker 1: queen too, if you like. they drank a glass each
[27:20] Speaker 1: although mitya was excited and expansive yet he was melancholy
[27:24] Speaker 1: too it was as though some heavy overwhelming anxiety were
[27:27] Speaker 1: weighing upon him misha here's your misha come misha come
[27:32] Speaker 1: here my boy drink this glass to phoebus the golden
[27:35] Speaker 1: head of to-morrow morn what are you giving it him
[27:39] Speaker 1: for cried pyotr ilyitch irritably yes yes yes let me
[27:43] Speaker 1: i want to Mischa emptied the glass, bowed, and ran out.
[27:49] Speaker 1: He'll remember it afterwards, Mitja remarked. Woman, I love woman.
[27:54] Speaker 1: What is woman? The queen of creation. My heart is sad,
[27:58] Speaker 1: my heart is sad, Pyotr Ilyich. Do you remember Hamlet?
[28:02] Speaker 1: I'm very sorry, good Horatio. Alas, poor Yorick. Perhaps that's me, Yorick. Yes,
[28:08] Speaker 1: I'm Yorick now, and a skull afterwards. Pyotr Ilyich listened
[28:12] Speaker 1: in silence. Mitja, too, was silent for a while. What
[28:16] Speaker 1: dog's that you've got here? he asked the shopman, casually,
[28:20] Speaker 1: noticing a pretty little lab dog with dark eyes sitting
[28:23] Speaker 1: in the corner. It belongs to Vervarek Alexeyevna, the mistress,
[28:28] Speaker 1: answered the clerk. She brought it and forgot it here.
[28:31] Speaker 1: It must be taken back to her. I saw one
[28:35] Speaker 1: like it in the regiment, murmured Mitya, dreamily. Only that
[28:39] Speaker 1: one had its hind leg broken. By the way, Pyotr Ilyich,
[28:43] Speaker 1: I wanted to ask you. Have you ever stolen anything
[28:46] Speaker 1: in your life? What a question. Oh, I didn't mean anything.
[28:50] Speaker 1: From somebody's pocket, you know. I don't mean government money.
[28:53] Speaker 1: Everyone steals that, and no doubt you do too. You
[28:57] Speaker 1: go to the devil. I'm talking of other people's money,
[29:00] Speaker 1: stealing straight out of a pocket, out of a purse.
[29:04] Speaker 1: I stole twenty copies from my mother when I was
[29:06] Speaker 1: nine years old. I took it off the table on
[29:08] Speaker 1: the sly and held it tight in my hand. Well,
[29:11] Speaker 1: and what happened? Oh, nothing. I kept it three days.
[29:15] Speaker 1: Then I felt ashamed, confessed, and gave it back. And
[29:18] Speaker 1: what then? Naturally, I was whipped. But why do you ask?
[29:22] Speaker 1: Have you stolen something? I have, said Mitya, winking slyly.
[29:27] Speaker 1: What have you stolen? inquired Pyotr Ilyich, curiously. I stole
[29:32] Speaker 1: twenty kopeks for my mother when I was nine years old,
[29:34] Speaker 1: and gave it back three days later. As he said this,
[29:38] Speaker 1: Mitya suddenly got up.' Dmitri Fyodorovich, won't you come now?'
[29:42] Speaker 1: called Andrei from the door of the shop.' Are you ready? Well, come,'
[29:47] Speaker 1: Mitya started. A few more last words, and— Andrei, a glass
[29:51] Speaker 1: of vodka at starting. Give him some brandy as well.
[29:54] Speaker 1: That box— the one with the pistols— put under my seat. Good-bye,
[29:58] Speaker 1: Pyotr Ilyich.' Don't remember evil against me. But you're coming
[30:02] Speaker 1: back tomorrow. Will you settle the little bill now? cried
[30:05] Speaker 1: the clerk, springing forward. Ah, yes, the bill, of course.
[30:09] Speaker 1: He pulled the bundle of notes out of his pocket again,
[30:12] Speaker 1: picked out three hundred roubles, threw them on the counter,
[30:15] Speaker 1: and ran hurriedly out of the shop. Everyone followed him out,
[30:18] Speaker 1: bowing and wishing him good luck. André, coughing from the
[30:21] Speaker 1: brandy he had just swallowed, jumped up on the box
[30:24] Speaker 1: but mitya was only just taking a seat when suddenly
[30:27] Speaker 1: to his surprise he saw fenya before him she ran
[30:30] Speaker 1: up panting clasped her hands before him with a cry
[30:34] Speaker 1: and plumped down at his feet dmitri fyodorovitch dear good
[30:38] Speaker 1: dmitri fyodorovitch don't harm my mistress and it was i
[30:42] Speaker 1: told you all about it and don't murder him he
[30:45] Speaker 1: came first he's hers he'll marry agrafena alexandrovna now that's
[30:50] Speaker 1: why he's come back from Dmitri Fyodorovich, dear, don't take
[30:54] Speaker 1: a fellow creature's life. Tut, tut, tut, that's it, is it?
[30:58] Speaker 1: So you're off there to make trouble, muttered Pyotr Ilyich.
[31:01] Speaker 1: Now it's all clear, as clear as daylight. Dmitri Fyodorovich,
[31:06] Speaker 1: give me your pistols at once, if you mean to
[31:08] Speaker 1: behave like a man, he shouted aloud to Mitya. Do
[31:11] Speaker 1: you hear, Dmitri? The pistols? Wait a bit, brother, I'll
[31:15] Speaker 1: throw them into the pool on the road, answered Mitya. Fenya,
[31:18] Speaker 1: get up, don't kneel to me. Mitya won't hurt anyone.
[31:21] Speaker 1: The silly fool won't hurt anyone again. But I say, Fenya,
[31:25] Speaker 1: he shouted, after having taken his seat, I hurt you
[31:27] Speaker 1: just now, so forgive me and have pity on me.
[31:30] Speaker 1: Forgive a scoundrel. But it doesn't matter if you don't.
[31:33] Speaker 1: It's all the same now. Now then, Andrei, look alive.
[31:37] Speaker 1: Fly along, full speed. Andrei whipped up the horses, and
[31:41] Speaker 1: the bells began ringing. Good-bye, Pyotr Ilyich. My last tear
[31:45] Speaker 1: is for you. He's not drunk, but he keeps babbling
[31:48] Speaker 1: like a lunatic, Pyotr Ilyich thought as he watched him go.
[31:52] Speaker 1: He had half a mind to stay and see the
[31:54] Speaker 1: cart packed with the remaining wines and provisions, knowing that
[31:57] Speaker 1: they would deceive and defraud Mitya. But, suddenly feeling vexed
[32:01] Speaker 1: with himself, he turned away with a curse and went
[32:04] Speaker 1: to the tavern to play billiards. He's a fool, though
[32:08] Speaker 1: he's a good fellow, he muttered as he went. I've
[32:10] Speaker 1: heard of that officer, Grushenka's former flame. Well, if he
[32:15] Speaker 1: has turned up,' Ech, those pistols! Damn it all! I'm
[32:18] Speaker 1: not his nurse. Let them do what they like. Besides,
[32:21] Speaker 1: it'll come to nothing. They're a set of brawlers, that's all.
[32:25] Speaker 1: They'll drink and fight, fight and make friends again. They're
[32:29] Speaker 1: not men who do anything real. What does he mean by,
[32:32] Speaker 1: I'm stepping aside, I'm punishing myself? It'll come to nothing.
[32:36] Speaker 1: He shouted such phrases a thousand times, drunk in the taverns.
[32:41] Speaker 1: But now he's not drunk. Drunk in spirit.' They're fond
[32:45] Speaker 1: of frying phrases, the villains. Am I his nurse? He
[32:48] Speaker 1: must have been fighting. His face was all over blood.
[32:51] Speaker 1: With whom? I shall find out at the metropolis. And
[32:54] Speaker 1: his handkerchief was soaked in blood. It's still lying on
[32:57] Speaker 1: my floor. Hang it! He reached the tavern in a
[33:01] Speaker 1: bad humour, and at once made up a game. The
[33:04] Speaker 1: game cheered him. He played a second game, and suddenly
[33:07] Speaker 1: began telling one of his partners that Dmitri Karamazov had
[33:10] Speaker 1: come in for some cash again, something like three thousand roubles.
[33:14] Speaker 1: and had gone to Mokroy again to spend it with Grushenka.
[33:18] Speaker 1: This news roused singular interest in his listeners. They all
[33:21] Speaker 1: spoke of it, not laughing, but with a strange gravity.
[33:25] Speaker 1: They left off playing. Three thousand? But where can he
[33:29] Speaker 1: have got three thousand? Questions were asked. The story of
[33:32] Speaker 1: Madame Khokhlakov's present was received with scepticism. Hasn't he robbed
[33:37] Speaker 1: his old father? That's the question. Three thousand! There's something
[33:41] Speaker 1: odd about it. He boasted aloud that he would kill
[33:43] Speaker 1: his father. We all heard him, here, and it was
[33:46] Speaker 1: the three thousand he talked about. Pyotr Ilyich listened. All
[33:50] Speaker 1: at once he became short and dry in his answers.
[33:53] Speaker 1: He said not a word about the blood on Mitya's
[33:55] Speaker 1: face and hands, though he had meant to speak of
[33:57] Speaker 1: it at first. They began a third game, and by
[34:00] Speaker 1: degrees the talk about Mitya died away. But by the
[34:04] Speaker 1: end of the third game Pyotr Ilyich felt no more
[34:07] Speaker 1: desire for billiards. he laid down the queue and without
[34:10] Speaker 1: having supper as he had intended he walked out of
[34:13] Speaker 1: the tavern when he reached the market-place he stood still
[34:16] Speaker 1: in perplexity wondering at himself he realized that what he
[34:20] Speaker 1: wanted was to go to fiodor pavlovitch's and find out
[34:23] Speaker 1: if anything had happened there on account of some stupid
[34:26] Speaker 1: nonsense it's sure to turn out am i going to
[34:29] Speaker 1: wake up the household and make a scandal phew damn
[34:33] Speaker 1: it is it my business to look after them in
[34:36] Speaker 1: a very bad humour he went straight home and suddenly
[34:39] Speaker 1: remembered fenya damn it all i ought to have questioned
[34:42] Speaker 1: her just now he thought with vexation i should have
[34:45] Speaker 1: heard everything and the desire to speak to her and
[34:48] Speaker 1: so find out became so pressing and importunate that when
[34:52] Speaker 1: he was half-way home he turned abruptly and went towards
[34:55] Speaker 1: the house where grushenka lodged going up to the gate
[34:58] Speaker 1: he knocked the sound of the knock and the silence
[35:01] Speaker 1: of the night sobered him and made him feel annoyed
[35:04] Speaker 1: and no one answered him Everyone in the house was asleep.
[35:08] Speaker 1: And I shall be making a fuss, he thought, with
[35:10] Speaker 1: a feeling of positive discomfort. But instead of going away altogether,
[35:14] Speaker 1: he fell to knocking again, with all his might, filling
[35:17] Speaker 1: the street with clamour. Not coming? Well, I will knock
[35:21] Speaker 1: them up, I will, he muttered at each knock, fuming
[35:24] Speaker 1: at himself, but at the same time he redoubled his
[35:27] Speaker 1: knocks on the gate. End of chapter 5 of book
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