# Book Four Chapter Seven, Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov, Librivox Audiobook

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[0:00] Speaker 1: CHAPTER XXXVII AND IN THE OPEN AIR The air is fresh,
[0:28] Speaker 1: but in my apartment it is not so in any
[0:30] Speaker 1: sense of the word. Let us walk slowly, sir. I
[0:34] Speaker 1: should be glad of your kind interest. I, too, have
[0:38] Speaker 1: something important to say to you, observed Alyosha, only I
[0:43] Speaker 1: don't know how to begin. To be sure, you must
[0:46] Speaker 1: have business with me. You would never have looked in
[0:49] Speaker 1: upon me without some object, lest you come simply to
[0:53] Speaker 1: complain of the boy, and that's hardly likely. And by
[0:56] Speaker 1: the way about the boy, I could not explain to
[0:59] Speaker 1: you in there, but here I will describe that scene
[1:03] Speaker 1: to you. My toe was thicker a week ago, I
[1:06] Speaker 1: mean my beard. That's the nickname they give to my beard. Schoolboys,
[1:13] Speaker 1: most of all. Well, your brother, Dmitri Fyodorovich, was pulling
[1:19] Speaker 1: me by my beard. I'd done nothing. He was in
[1:24] Speaker 1: a towering rage. and happened to come upon me. He
[1:29] Speaker 1: dragged me out of the tavern into the marketplace. At
[1:33] Speaker 1: that moment the boys were coming out of school, and
[1:36] Speaker 1: with them Elusha. As soon as he saw me in
[1:40] Speaker 1: such a state, he rushed up to me. Father, he cried, Father.
[1:49] Speaker 1: He caught hold of me, hugged me, tried to pull
[1:53] Speaker 1: me away, crying to my assailant. Let go. Let go.
[1:58] Speaker 1: It's my father. Forgive him. Yes, he actually cried. Forgive him.
[2:03] Speaker 1: He clutched at that hand, that very hand in his
[2:07] Speaker 1: little hands and kissed it. I remember his little face
[2:11] Speaker 1: at that moment. I haven't forgotten it and I never shall.
[2:18] Speaker 1: I swear, cried Alyosha, that my brother will express his
[2:23] Speaker 1: most deep and sincere regret even if he has to
[2:26] Speaker 1: go down on his knees in that same marketplace. I'll
[2:30] Speaker 1: make him, or he is no brother of mine. Ah,
[2:34] Speaker 1: then it's only a suggestion, and it does not come
[2:38] Speaker 1: from him, but simply from the generosity of your own
[2:42] Speaker 1: warm heart. You should have said so. No, in that case,
[2:47] Speaker 1: allow me to tell you of your brother's highly chivalrous,
[2:51] Speaker 1: soldierly generosity. for he did give expression to it at
[2:57] Speaker 1: the time he left off dragging me by my beard
[3:01] Speaker 1: and released me you are an officer he said and
[3:07] Speaker 1: i am an officer if you can find a decent
[3:11] Speaker 1: man to be your satin send me your challenge i
[3:17] Speaker 1: will give satisfaction though you are a scoundrel that's what
[3:23] Speaker 1: he said a chivalrous spirit indeed i retired with ilusha
[3:30] Speaker 1: and that scene is a family record imprinted for ever
[3:33] Speaker 1: on ilusha's soul no it's not for us to claim
[3:37] Speaker 1: the privileges of noblemen judge for yourself you've just been
[3:42] Speaker 1: in our mansion what did you see there three ladies
[3:48] Speaker 1: one a cripple and weak-minded another a cripple and hunchback
[3:54] Speaker 1: and the third not cripple but far too clever she
[3:58] Speaker 1: is a student dying to get back to petersburg to
[4:02] Speaker 1: work for the emancipation of the russian woman on the
[4:06] Speaker 1: banks of the neva i won't speak of ilusha he
[4:10] Speaker 1: is only nine i am alone in the world and
[4:14] Speaker 1: if i die what will become of all of them
[4:17] Speaker 1: i simply ask you that and if i challenge him
[4:20] Speaker 1: and he kills me on the spot what then what
[4:23] Speaker 1: will become of them and worse still if he doesn't
[4:27] Speaker 1: kill me but only cripples me i couldn't work but
[4:31] Speaker 1: i should still be a mouth to feed who would
[4:34] Speaker 1: feed it and who would feed them all must i
[4:39] Speaker 1: take ilusha from school and send him to beg the
[4:43] Speaker 1: street that's what it means for me to challenge him
[4:47] Speaker 1: to a duel it's silly talk and nothing else He
[4:52] Speaker 1: will beg your forgiveness. He will bow down at your
[4:55] Speaker 1: feet in the middle of the marketplace, cried Alyosha again
[5:00] Speaker 1: with glowing eyes. I did think of prosecuting him, the
[5:07] Speaker 1: captain went on. But look in our code. Can I
[5:10] Speaker 1: get much compensation for a personal injury? And then Agrafena
[5:16] Speaker 1: Aleksandrovna sent for me and shouted at me. Don't dare
[5:22] Speaker 1: to dream of it. If you proceed against him, I'll
[5:26] Speaker 1: publish it to all the world that he beat you
[5:28] Speaker 1: for your dishonesty, and then you will be prosecuted. I
[5:32] Speaker 1: call God to witness whose was the dishonesty and by
[5:36] Speaker 1: whose commands I acted. Wasn't it by her own and
[5:40] Speaker 1: Fyodor Pavlovich's? And what's more, she went on, I'll dismiss
[5:45] Speaker 1: you for good, and you'll never earn another penny from me.
[5:49] Speaker 1: I'll speak to my merchant, too. That's what she calls
[5:52] Speaker 1: her old man. And he will dismiss you. And if
[5:56] Speaker 1: he dismisses me, what can I earn then from anyone?
[6:01] Speaker 1: Those two are all I have to look to, for
[6:03] Speaker 1: your Fyodor Pavlovich has not only given over employing me
[6:08] Speaker 1: for another reason, but he means to make use of
[6:11] Speaker 1: papers I've signed to go to law against me. And
[6:14] Speaker 1: so I kept quiet. And you have seen our retreat.
[6:18] Speaker 1: But now let me ask you, Did Lucia hurt your
[6:22] Speaker 1: finger much? I didn't like to go into it in
[6:25] Speaker 1: her mansion before him. Yes, very much. And he was
[6:30] Speaker 1: in a great fury. He was avenging you on me
[6:33] Speaker 1: as a Karamazov. I see that now. But if only
[6:37] Speaker 1: you had seen how he was throwing stones at his schoolfellows.
[6:40] Speaker 1: It's very dangerous. They might kill him. They are children
[6:44] Speaker 1: and stupid. A stone may be thrown and break somebody's head.
[6:48] Speaker 1: That's just what has happened. He has been bruised by
[6:51] Speaker 1: a stone today, not on the head, but on the chest,
[6:55] Speaker 1: just above the heart. He came home crying and groaning,
[6:58] Speaker 1: and now he is ill. And you know he attacks
[7:02] Speaker 1: them first. He is bitter against them on your account.
[7:06] Speaker 1: They say he stabbed a boy called Krasotkin with a
[7:08] Speaker 1: penknife not long ago. I've heard about that too. It's dangerous.
[7:13] Speaker 1: Krasotkin is an official here. We may hear more about it.
[7:17] Speaker 1: I would advise you. alyosha went on warmly not to
[7:22] Speaker 1: send him to school at all for a time till
[7:24] Speaker 1: he is calmer and his anger is past the captain
[7:30] Speaker 1: repeated that's just what it is he is a little
[7:34] Speaker 1: creature but it's a mighty anger You don't know all, sir.
[7:39] Speaker 1: Let me tell you more. Since that incident, all the
[7:44] Speaker 1: boys have been teasing him about the wisp of toad.
[7:47] Speaker 1: Schoolboys are a merciless race individually. They are angels, but together,
[7:52] Speaker 1: especially in schools, they are merciless. Their teasing has stirred
[7:58] Speaker 1: up a gallant spirit in Illusia. An ordinary boy, a
[8:02] Speaker 1: weak son, would have submitted, have felt ashamed of his father, sir,
[8:07] Speaker 1: but he stood up for his father against them all
[8:10] Speaker 1: for his father and for truth and justice for what
[8:15] Speaker 1: he suffered when he kissed your brother's hand and cried
[8:18] Speaker 1: to him forgive father forgive him that only god knows
[8:23] Speaker 1: and i his father for our children not your children
[8:27] Speaker 1: but ours the children of the poor gentleman looked down
[8:31] Speaker 1: upon by every one know what justice means sir even
[8:36] Speaker 1: at nine years old how should the rich know they
[8:41] Speaker 1: don't explore such depths once in their lives but at
[8:45] Speaker 1: that moment in the square when he kissed his hand
[8:48] Speaker 1: at that moment my ilusha had grasped all that justice
[8:53] Speaker 1: means that truth entered into him and crushed him for
[8:58] Speaker 1: ever sir the captain said hotly again with a sort
[9:04] Speaker 1: of frenzy and he struck his right fist against his
[9:07] Speaker 1: left palm as though he wanted to show how the
[9:10] Speaker 1: truth crushed that very day sir he fell ill with
[9:17] Speaker 1: fever and was delirious all night all that day he
[9:21] Speaker 1: hardly said a word to me but i noticed he
[9:24] Speaker 1: kept watching me from the corner though he turned to
[9:27] Speaker 1: the window and pretended to be learning his lesson but
[9:30] Speaker 1: i could see his mind was not on his lessons
[9:34] Speaker 1: Next day I got drunk to forget my trouble. Sent
[9:38] Speaker 1: for man as I am, and I don't remember much.
[9:42] Speaker 1: Mama began crying too. I am very fond of Mama. Well,
[9:47] Speaker 1: I spent my last penny drowning my troubles. Don't despise
[9:51] Speaker 1: me for that, sir. In Russia, men who drink are
[9:55] Speaker 1: the best. The best men amongst us are the greatest drunkards.
[10:01] Speaker 1: i lay down and i don't remember about ilusha though
[10:05] Speaker 1: all that day the boys had been jeering at him
[10:08] Speaker 1: at school whispered toe they shouted your father was pulled
[10:14] Speaker 1: out of the tavern by his whispered toe you ran
[10:17] Speaker 1: by and begged forgiveness On the third day, when he
[10:23] Speaker 1: came back from school, I saw he looked pale and wretched.
[10:28] Speaker 1: What is it? I asked. He wouldn't answer. Well, there's
[10:32] Speaker 1: no talking our mansion without Mama and the girls taking
[10:35] Speaker 1: part in it. What's more, the girls had heard about
[10:38] Speaker 1: it the very first day. Valvara had begun snarling. You
[10:43] Speaker 1: fools and buffoons! Can you ever do anything rational? Quite so,
[10:49] Speaker 1: I said. Can we ever do anything rational? For the
[10:54] Speaker 1: time I turned it off like that. So in the
[10:57] Speaker 1: evening I took the boy out for a walk, for
[11:01] Speaker 1: you must know we go for a walk every evening,
[11:03] Speaker 1: always the same way along which we are going now,
[11:07] Speaker 1: from our gate to that great stone which lies alone
[11:10] Speaker 1: in the road under the hurdle, which marks the beginning
[11:13] Speaker 1: of the town pasture. A beautiful and lonely spot, sir.
[11:19] Speaker 1: and i walked along hand in hand as usual he
[11:23] Speaker 1: has a little hand his fingers are thin and cold
[11:27] Speaker 1: he suffers with his chest you know father said he
[11:31] Speaker 1: father well said i i saw his eyes flashing father
[11:39] Speaker 1: how he treated you then it can't be helped ilusha
[11:44] Speaker 1: i said don't forgive him father don't forgive him at
[11:49] Speaker 1: school they say that he has paid you ten roubles
[11:51] Speaker 1: for it no ilusha said i i would not take
[11:55] Speaker 1: money from him for anything then he began trembling all
[12:00] Speaker 1: over took my hand in both his and kissed it
[12:03] Speaker 1: again father he said father challenge him to a duel
[12:08] Speaker 1: at school they say you are a coward won't challenge
[12:11] Speaker 1: him and that you'll accept ten roubles from him i
[12:15] Speaker 1: can't challenge him to a duel ilusha i answered and
[12:20] Speaker 1: i told briefly what i've just told you he listened
[12:26] Speaker 1: father he said anyway don't forgive it when i grow
[12:31] Speaker 1: up i'll call him out myself and kill him his
[12:34] Speaker 1: eyes shone and glowed and of course i'm his father
[12:39] Speaker 1: and i had to put in a word it's a
[12:41] Speaker 1: sin to kill i said even in a duel. Father,
[12:46] Speaker 1: he said, when I grow up I'll knock him down,
[12:49] Speaker 1: knock the sword out of his hand, I'll fall on him,
[12:52] Speaker 1: wave my sword over him, and say, I could kill you,
[12:56] Speaker 1: but I forgive you, so bear. You see what the
[13:00] Speaker 1: workings of his little mind have been during these two days.
[13:04] Speaker 1: He must have been planning that vengeance all day, and
[13:07] Speaker 1: raving about it at night, but he began to come
[13:12] Speaker 1: home from school badly beaten. I found out about it
[13:15] Speaker 1: the day before yesterday, and you are right, I won't
[13:19] Speaker 1: send him to that school any more. I heard that
[13:22] Speaker 1: he was standing up against all the class alone and
[13:24] Speaker 1: defying them all, that his heart was full of resentment,
[13:28] Speaker 1: of bitterness. I was alarmed about him. We went for
[13:32] Speaker 1: another walk. Father, he asked, are the rich people stronger
[13:37] Speaker 1: than anyone else on earth? Yes, Elisha, I said. There
[13:42] Speaker 1: are no people on earth stronger than the rich. Father,
[13:46] Speaker 1: he said, I will get rich. I will become an
[13:49] Speaker 1: officer and conquer everybody. The Tsar will reward me. I
[13:54] Speaker 1: will come back here and then no one will dare.
[13:58] Speaker 1: Then he was silent and his lips still kept trembling. Father,
[14:04] Speaker 1: he said, what a horrid town this is. Yes, Elisha,
[14:09] Speaker 1: I said, it isn't a very nice town. Father, let
[14:14] Speaker 1: us move into another town, a nice one, he said,
[14:19] Speaker 1: where people don't know about us. We will move, we will, Elisha,
[14:24] Speaker 1: said I, only I must save up for it. I
[14:28] Speaker 1: was glad to be able to turn his mind from
[14:30] Speaker 1: painful thoughts, and we began to dream of how we
[14:34] Speaker 1: would move to another town. how we would buy a
[14:38] Speaker 1: horse and cart we will put mamma and your sisters
[14:42] Speaker 1: inside we will cover them up and we'll walk you
[14:46] Speaker 1: shall have a lift now and then and i'll walk
[14:49] Speaker 1: beside for we must take care of our horse we
[14:52] Speaker 1: can't over-ride that's how we'll go he was enchanted at
[14:57] Speaker 1: that most of all at the thought of having a
[15:00] Speaker 1: horse and driving him for of course a russian boy
[15:03] Speaker 1: is born among horses We chatted a long while. Thank God,
[15:09] Speaker 1: I thought. I have diverted his mind and comforted him.
[15:14] Speaker 1: That was the day before yesterday, in the evening, but
[15:18] Speaker 1: last night everything was changed. He had gone to school
[15:22] Speaker 1: in the morning. He came back depressed, terribly depressed. In
[15:27] Speaker 1: the evening I took him by the hand and we
[15:29] Speaker 1: went for a walk. He would not talk. There was
[15:32] Speaker 1: a wind blowing and no sun. and a feeling of autumn.
[15:37] Speaker 1: Twilight was coming on. We walked along, both of us depressed. Well,
[15:43] Speaker 1: my boy, said I, how about our setting off on
[15:46] Speaker 1: our travels? I thought I might bring him back to
[15:50] Speaker 1: our talk of the day before. He didn't answer, but
[15:53] Speaker 1: I felt his fingers trembling in my hand. I thought,
[15:57] Speaker 1: it's a bad job, there's something fresh. We had reached
[16:00] Speaker 1: the stone where we are now. I sat down on
[16:03] Speaker 1: the stone, and in the air there were lots of
[16:06] Speaker 1: kites flapping and whirling. There were as many as thirty inside.
[16:11] Speaker 1: Of course, it's just the season for the kites. Look,
[16:14] Speaker 1: Elusha said I. It's time we got our last year's
[16:17] Speaker 1: kite again. I'll mend it. Where have you put it away?
[16:22] Speaker 1: My boy made no answer. He looked away and turned
[16:26] Speaker 1: sideways to me. and then a gust of wind blew
[16:29] Speaker 1: up the sand he suddenly fell on me he poked
[16:32] Speaker 1: his little arms round my neck and held me tight
[16:35] Speaker 1: you know when children are silent and proud and try
[16:38] Speaker 1: to keep back their tears when they are in great
[16:40] Speaker 1: trouble and suddenly break down their tears fall in streams
[16:45] Speaker 1: With those warm streams of tears he suddenly wetted my face.
[16:50] Speaker 1: He sobbed and shook as though we were in convulsions
[16:53] Speaker 1: and squeezed up against me as I sat on the stone. Father,
[16:57] Speaker 1: he kept crying. Dear father, how he insulted you. And
[17:02] Speaker 1: I sobbed too. We sat shaking in each other's arms. Elisha,
[17:07] Speaker 1: I said to him. Elisha, darling. No one saw us then.
[17:13] Speaker 1: God alone saw us. I hope he will record it
[17:16] Speaker 1: to my credit. You must thank your brother, Alexei Fyodorovich. No, sir,
[17:23] Speaker 1: I won't thrash my boy for your satisfaction. He had
[17:28] Speaker 1: gone back to his original tone of resentful buffoonery. Alyosha felt, though,
[17:33] Speaker 1: that he trusted him, and that if there had been
[17:36] Speaker 1: someone else in his Alyosha's place, the man would not
[17:40] Speaker 1: have spoken so openly, and would not have told what
[17:43] Speaker 1: he had just told. This encouraged Alyosha, whose heart was
[17:48] Speaker 1: trembling on the verge of tears. Ah, how I would
[17:53] Speaker 1: like to make friends with your boy, he cried. If
[17:56] Speaker 1: you could arrange it. Certainly, sir, muttered the captain. But now,
[18:04] Speaker 1: listen to something quite different, Alyosha went on. I have
[18:08] Speaker 1: a message for you, that same brother of mine, Dimitri.
[18:12] Speaker 1: has insulted his betrothed too a noble-hearted girl of whom
[18:16] Speaker 1: you have probably heard i have a right to tell
[18:19] Speaker 1: you of her wrong i ought to do so in
[18:21] Speaker 1: fact for hearing of the insult done to you and
[18:25] Speaker 1: learning all about your unfortunate position she commissioned me at
[18:29] Speaker 1: once just now to bring you this help from her
[18:33] Speaker 1: but only from her alone not from dimitri who has
[18:36] Speaker 1: abandoned her nor from me his brother nor from any
[18:40] Speaker 1: one else but from her Only from her she intrudes
[18:44] Speaker 1: you to accept her help. You have both been insulted
[18:48] Speaker 1: by the same man. She thought of you only when
[18:52] Speaker 1: she had just received a similar insult from him. Similar
[18:56] Speaker 1: in its cruelty, I mean. She comes like a sister
[18:59] Speaker 1: to help a brother in misfortune. She told me to
[19:03] Speaker 1: persuade you to take these two hundred roubles from her
[19:06] Speaker 1: as from a sister, knowing that you are in such need.
[19:10] Speaker 1: No one will know of it. it can give rise
[19:12] Speaker 1: to no unjust slander there are the two hundred roubles
[19:16] Speaker 1: and i swear you must take them unless unless all
[19:20] Speaker 1: men are to be enemies on earth but there are
[19:23] Speaker 1: brothers even on earth you have a generous heart you
[19:27] Speaker 1: must see that you must and alyosha held her two
[19:31] Speaker 1: new rainbow-coloured hundred-rouble notes they were both standing at the
[19:39] Speaker 1: time by the great stone close to the fence, and
[19:42] Speaker 1: there was no one near. The notes seemed to produce
[19:46] Speaker 1: a tremendous impression on the captain. He started, but at
[19:51] Speaker 1: first only from astonishment. Such an outcome of their conversation
[19:56] Speaker 1: was the last thing he expected. Nothing could have been
[20:00] Speaker 1: farther from his dreams than help from anyone, and such
[20:04] Speaker 1: a son! He took the notes, and for a minute
[20:08] Speaker 1: he was almost unable to answer, quite a new expression
[20:13] Speaker 1: came into his face.' That, for me?'' So much money?''
[20:17] Speaker 1: Two hundred roubles.'' Good heavens! Why haven't I seen so
[20:24] Speaker 1: much money for the last four years? Mercy on us!
[20:28] Speaker 1: And she says she is a sister. And is that
[20:30] Speaker 1: the truth?'' I swear that all I told you is
[20:33] Speaker 1: the truth,' cried Alyosha. The captain flushed red. Listen, my dear, listen.
[20:41] Speaker 1: If I take it, I shan't be behaving like a scoundrel.
[20:43] Speaker 1: In your eyes, Alexei Fyodorovich, I shan't be a scoundrel. No,
[20:48] Speaker 1: Alexei Fyodorovich, listen. Listen, he hurried, touching Alyosha with both
[20:53] Speaker 1: his hands. You are persuading me to take it, saying
[20:56] Speaker 1: that it's a sister sends it, but inwardly, in your heart,
[21:00] Speaker 1: won't you feel contempt for me if I take it, eh? No, no,
[21:04] Speaker 1: on my salvation, I swear I shan't, and no one
[21:07] Speaker 1: will ever know but me, I, you, and she, and
[21:10] Speaker 1: one other lady, her great friend. Never mind the lady. Listen,
[21:15] Speaker 1: Alexei Fyodorovich, at a moment like this you must listen,
[21:19] Speaker 1: for you can't understand what these two hundred roubles mean
[21:22] Speaker 1: to me now. The poor fellow went on, rising gradually
[21:27] Speaker 1: into a sort of incoherent, almost wild enthusiasm. He was
[21:32] Speaker 1: thrown off his balance, and talked extremely fast, as though
[21:36] Speaker 1: afraid he would not be allowed to say all he
[21:39] Speaker 1: had to say. Besides its being honestly acquired from a
[21:44] Speaker 1: sister so highly respected and revered, do you know that
[21:48] Speaker 1: now I can look after Mama and Nina, my hunchback
[21:51] Speaker 1: angel daughter? Dr. Hudson Stuber came to me in the
[21:54] Speaker 1: kindness of his heart, and was examining them both for
[21:57] Speaker 1: a whole hour. I can make nothing of it, said he,
[22:00] Speaker 1: but he prescribed a mineral water, which is kept to
[22:03] Speaker 1: the chemists here. He said it would be sure to
[22:05] Speaker 1: do her good, and he ordered baths, too, with some
[22:09] Speaker 1: medicine in them. The mineral water cost thirty kopecks, and
[22:12] Speaker 1: she'd need to drink forty bottles, perhaps. So I took
[22:15] Speaker 1: the prescription, and laid it on the shelf under the icons,
[22:19] Speaker 1: and there it lies. And he ordered hot baths for Nina,
[22:22] Speaker 1: with something dissolved in them morning and evening. But how
[22:25] Speaker 1: can we carry out such a cure in our mansion,
[22:28] Speaker 1: without servants, without help, without a bath, and without watered'
[22:32] Speaker 1: Nina is rheumatic all over.' I don't think I told
[22:35] Speaker 1: you that.' All her right side aches at night.' She
[22:38] Speaker 1: is in agony, and would you believe it,' the angel
[22:40] Speaker 1: bears it without groaning.' For fear of waking us, we
[22:43] Speaker 1: eat what we can get,' and she'll only take the leavings,'
[22:46] Speaker 1: what you'd scarce to give to a dog.' I am
[22:49] Speaker 1: not worth it.' I am taking it from you.' I
[22:52] Speaker 1: am a burden on you.'' That' s what her angel eyes
[22:55] Speaker 1: tried to express.' We wait on her, but she doesn't
[22:58] Speaker 1: like it.' I am a useless cripple, no good to anyone.'
[23:02] Speaker 1: as though she were not worth it, when she is
[23:04] Speaker 1: the saving of all of us with her angelic sweetness.
[23:08] Speaker 1: Without her, without her gentle word, it would be hell
[23:11] Speaker 1: among us. She softens even Varvara, and don't judge Varvara
[23:16] Speaker 1: harshly either. She is an angel too, she too has
[23:19] Speaker 1: suffered wrong. She came to us for the summer, and
[23:23] Speaker 1: she brought sixteen rubles she had earned by lessons and
[23:26] Speaker 1: saved up to go back with to Petersburg in September,
[23:29] Speaker 1: that is now. but we took her money and lived
[23:32] Speaker 1: on it, so now she has nothing to go back with,
[23:35] Speaker 1: though indeed she couldn't go back, for she has to
[23:38] Speaker 1: work for us like a slave. She's like an ober-driven
[23:40] Speaker 1: horse with all of us on her back. She waits
[23:43] Speaker 1: on us all, mends and washes, sweeps the floor, puts
[23:46] Speaker 1: Mama to bed. And Mama is capricious and tearful and insane.
[23:50] Speaker 1: And now I can get a servant with this money,
[23:53] Speaker 1: you understand, Alexei Poyadorovich. I can get medicines with the
[23:57] Speaker 1: dear creatures. I can send my student to Petersburg. I
[24:00] Speaker 1: can buy beef. I can feed them properly. Good Lord,
[24:03] Speaker 1: but it's a dream! Alyosha was delighted. that he had
[24:08] Speaker 1: brought him such happiness, and that the poor fellow had
[24:11] Speaker 1: consented to be made happy.' Stay, Alexei Fyodorovitch, stay!' the
[24:17] Speaker 1: captain began to talk with frenzied rapidity, carried away by
[24:21] Speaker 1: a new daydream.' Do you know that Elisha and I
[24:24] Speaker 1: will perhaps really carry out our dream? We will buy
[24:26] Speaker 1: a horse and cart, a black horse, he insists on
[24:29] Speaker 1: it being black, and we will set off, as we
[24:31] Speaker 1: pretended the other day.' I have an old friend, a
[24:34] Speaker 1: lawyer in Cape Province, and I heard through a trustworthy
[24:37] Speaker 1: man that if I were to go, he'd give me
[24:39] Speaker 1: a place as clerk in his office, so who knows,
[24:42] Speaker 1: maybe he would. So I just put my ma and
[24:44] Speaker 1: Nina in the cart and Alyosha could drive and I'd walk,
[24:46] Speaker 1: I'd walk. Why, if I only succeed in getting one
[24:49] Speaker 1: debt paid that's owing me, I should have perhaps enough
[24:52] Speaker 1: for that too. There would be enough, cried Alyosha. Katerina
[24:57] Speaker 1: Ivanovna will send you as much more as you need.
[25:01] Speaker 1: And you know I have money too. Take what you want,
[25:03] Speaker 1: as you would from a brother, from a friend. You
[25:05] Speaker 1: can give it back later. You'll get rich. You'll get rich.
[25:08] Speaker 1: And you know you couldn't have a better idea than
[25:10] Speaker 1: to move to another province. It would be the saving
[25:13] Speaker 1: of you, especially of your boy. And you ought to
[25:16] Speaker 1: go quickly before the winter, before the cold. You must
[25:18] Speaker 1: write to us when you are there. And we will
[25:21] Speaker 1: always be brothers. No, it's not a dream. Alyosha could
[25:25] Speaker 1: have hugged him. He was so pleased. But glancing at him,
[25:29] Speaker 1: he stopped short. The man was standing with his neck
[25:32] Speaker 1: outstretched and his lips protruding, with a pale and frenzied face.
[25:38] Speaker 1: His lips were moving as though trying to articulate something.
[25:41] Speaker 1: No sound came, but still his lips moved. It was uncanny.'
[25:44] Speaker 1: What is it?' asked Alyosha, startled.' Alexei Fyodorovich. I— you—' muttered
[25:55] Speaker 1: the captain, faltering, looking at him with a strange, wild-fixed stare.
[25:59] Speaker 1: and an air of desperate resolution. At the same time,
[26:04] Speaker 1: there was a sort of grin on his lips. I knew, sir.
[26:09] Speaker 1: Wouldn't you like me to show you a little trick
[26:11] Speaker 1: I know? He murmured suddenly, in a firm, rapid whisper,
[26:16] Speaker 1: his voice no longer faltering. What trick? A pretty trick,
[26:20] Speaker 1: whispered the captain. His mouth was twisted on the left side.
[26:24] Speaker 1: His left eye was screwed up. He still stared at Alyosha,
[26:29] Speaker 1: what is the matter what trick Alyosha cried now thoroughly
[26:32] Speaker 1: alarmed why look squealed the captain suddenly and showing him
[26:38] Speaker 1: the two notes which he had been holding by one
[26:41] Speaker 1: corner between his thumb and forefinger during the conversation he
[26:45] Speaker 1: crumpled them up savagely and squeezed them tight in his
[26:48] Speaker 1: right hand do you see do you see he shrieked
[26:52] Speaker 1: pale and infuriated and suddenly flinging up his hand he
[26:56] Speaker 1: threw the crumpled notes on the sand see he shrieked
[27:00] Speaker 1: again pointing to them look there and with wild fury
[27:07] Speaker 1: he began trampling them under his heel gasping and exclaiming
[27:12] Speaker 1: as he did so so much for your money so
[27:16] Speaker 1: much for your money so much for your money so
[27:19] Speaker 1: much for your money suddenly he darted back and drew
[27:24] Speaker 1: himself up before alyosha and his whole figure expressed unutterable
[27:30] Speaker 1: pride tell those who sent you that the wisp of
[27:34] Speaker 1: toad does not sell his honour he cried raising his
[27:38] Speaker 1: arm in the air then he turned quickly and began
[27:41] Speaker 1: to run but he had not run five steps before
[27:44] Speaker 1: he turned completely round and kissed his hand to he
[27:48] Speaker 1: ran another five paces and then turned round for the
[27:51] Speaker 1: last time this time his face was not contorted with
[27:54] Speaker 1: laughter but quivering all over with tears in a tearful
[27:59] Speaker 1: faltering sobbing voice he cried what should i say to
[28:03] Speaker 1: my boy if i took money from you for our
[28:08] Speaker 1: sake and then he ran on without turning alyosha looked
[28:16] Speaker 1: after him inexpressibly grieved oh he saw that till the
[28:21] Speaker 1: very last moment the man had not known he would
[28:24] Speaker 1: crumple up and fling away the notes he did not
[28:27] Speaker 1: turn back' Al- Yosha knew he would not.' He would not
[28:32] Speaker 1: follow him,' and call him back he knew why.' When
[28:36] Speaker 1: he was out of sight,' Al- Yosha picked up the two notes.'
[28:39] Speaker 1: They were very much crushed and crumpled,' and had been
[28:44] Speaker 1: pressed into the sand,' but were uninjured,' and even rustled
[28:48] Speaker 1: like new ones' when Al-Yosha unfolded them and smoothed them out.'
[28:52] Speaker 1: After smoothing them out,' he folded them up,' put them
[28:57] Speaker 1: in his pocket.' and went to Katerina Ivanovna to report
[29:01] Speaker 1: on the success of her commission.

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