# Keeping Up With The Sweeties

An episode of [Keep it Positive, Sweetie](https://invisiblenetwork.ai/podcast/1689495115), 5 Oct 2025, 1 h 16 min.

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This week, we are calling all the Sweeties to the floor, literally! Keeping up with The Sweeties was an unexpected emotional journey filled with laughs, prayers, and a few tears. Visit: CrystalReneeHayslett.com See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

## Transcript

[0:00] Speaker 1: Calling all my sweeties to the forefront. I'm your host,
[0:03] Speaker 1: mister Nan, and this is the keeping pone of Sweetish Show.
[0:09] Speaker 1: Welcome sweeties, Welcome back.
[0:11] Speaker 2: I know it's been a few weeks since we've seen
[0:13] Speaker 2: each other.
[0:13] Speaker 1: But have no fear.
[0:14] Speaker 2: That's right. They're calling in and they are. They're running
[0:17] Speaker 2: a show.
[0:17] Speaker 1: That's it.
[0:18] Speaker 2: They always run a show, though. I'm so excited to
[0:20] Speaker 2: be talking to them one on one. They really are
[0:23] Speaker 2: the spearheaders of this community. I love them so much,
[0:27] Speaker 2: and I'm happy to sit down and talk with them.
[0:28] Speaker 2: JB who is our first caller?
[0:31] Speaker 1: Hi, Samantha, how are you?
[0:36] Speaker 3: I am great? I am great.
[0:38] Speaker 1: I'm loving the hat. What did you do to the brim?
[0:42] Speaker 3: I put some plos around it, and I put these
[0:45] Speaker 3: buttons I made at all of my stuff I custom once.
[0:48] Speaker 3: I bought them. But I'm singing them for for the cruise.
[0:54] Speaker 1: Oh I love that.
[0:55] Speaker 4: I love it for the cruise.
[0:57] Speaker 3: I only I've been wearing the hat and and everything
[1:01] Speaker 3: else I'm saving for the cruise.
[1:03] Speaker 1: That me too. I cannot wait. So tell me something.
[1:08] Speaker 1: What's going on?
[1:10] Speaker 5: Well?
[1:11] Speaker 3: I just I tossed in turn. I was like, Lord,
[1:13] Speaker 3: please let her take me because I am so excited
[1:18] Speaker 3: to be here because every time you had a line,
[1:22] Speaker 3: I tried and tried to get the goals, but unfortunately
[1:27] Speaker 3: I couldn't make it because everybody copped out. So I say,
[1:31] Speaker 3: you know what, one day, I'm going to be able
[1:33] Speaker 3: to get on. I'm going to see her because I
[1:36] Speaker 3: didn't want to wait till February.
[1:38] Speaker 1: But I made it. I made it. Look, you made
[1:41] Speaker 1: a year here, now I made it.
[1:43] Speaker 3: So what I wanted to ask you about because I
[1:45] Speaker 3: know you follow God and you strongly find it, and
[1:49] Speaker 3: because of you, I strongly started to follow more and more.
[1:54] Speaker 3: I read more on every book. Last week when you
[1:57] Speaker 3: came on and I was packing the joke about you
[2:00] Speaker 3: showed another book and like hold on, Christ bought I
[2:04] Speaker 3: read them every day. I'm going from one to the other,
[2:08] Speaker 3: one to the other, and and I'm understanding more and
[2:13] Speaker 3: more and more a plate. And but the scary thing
[2:17] Speaker 3: is that what I'm reading is what's going on now,
[2:21] Speaker 3: what's happening?
[2:22] Speaker 2: And I literally wrote a song about that. Yeah, what
[2:24] Speaker 2: we what we're reading in the Bible? Like I was saying,
[2:27] Speaker 2: I wake up and read my daily word, but I'm
[2:29] Speaker 2: seeing it in daily Yes, it's so true.
[2:32] Speaker 6: Yeah, I see.
[2:33] Speaker 3: I keep one of the bathroom because when I get
[2:37] Speaker 3: up inside, it's it's quiet. Although I live about myself,
[2:41] Speaker 3: it's quiet for some reason. I don't turn anything on, yes,
[2:44] Speaker 3: so if I turn something on in the living room,
[2:46] Speaker 3: I can't hear it in my in my bathroom, so
[2:48] Speaker 3: I read and it's peace. And I learned to also
[2:54] Speaker 3: be okay being by myself when I'm home and part
[2:57] Speaker 3: when I went off from work, because at one time
[2:59] Speaker 3: I I just had to have somebody around me. I
[3:02] Speaker 3: just had to be with somebody. I had to go out.
[3:06] Speaker 6: Now I just come home.
[3:08] Speaker 3: And I learned it because at first I could not understand, Okay,
[3:11] Speaker 3: why would you want to be by yourself? But I
[3:14] Speaker 3: learned how to love myself at once. For the time
[3:17] Speaker 3: I didn't. Yeah, but I'm comfortable now. But I have been.
[3:25] Speaker 3: I remember I sent you a message and you asked
[3:27] Speaker 3: me back while a month ago, and I was asking
[3:32] Speaker 3: about dating itself because I've been divorced since my son
[3:38] Speaker 3: was nine and he's thirty five as a fat day,
[3:42] Speaker 3: thirty thirty five.
[3:44] Speaker 1: So it's been a long time.
[3:45] Speaker 3: Okay, Well, yeah, so I've been by myself and I
[3:49] Speaker 3: because I was still holding on to anger from from
[3:53] Speaker 3: the abuse. So and you, you you trying to encurse
[3:58] Speaker 3: me to let the new person that was trying to
[4:01] Speaker 3: talk to me lett him in. I couldn't.
[4:05] Speaker 1: I couldn't do it.
[4:07] Speaker 3: I tried, I really tried, and I stopped. I stopped calling.
[4:12] Speaker 3: I stopped calling because one, he's a little bit older
[4:16] Speaker 3: than men. I'm fifty nine and a half and he's
[4:18] Speaker 3: sixty two. That's the age having a thing to do
[4:21] Speaker 3: with it. But he was setting his ways. He liked
[4:25] Speaker 3: to watch family, feel so I was confused when when
[4:29] Speaker 3: the call he wanted to watch family and watch the moves.
[4:32] Speaker 3: So I found myself basically going back many many years
[4:37] Speaker 3: of being controlled.
[4:39] Speaker 1: Mm hmm, got it.
[4:41] Speaker 3: So I gave up, that gave up all.
[4:44] Speaker 1: Listen. I think you saw the signs.
[4:47] Speaker 2: And you know, a lot of times we go through
[4:49] Speaker 2: things and we try to open up to something new.
[4:53] Speaker 1: You know, your deal breakers.
[4:55] Speaker 2: You know, if it felt like you were repeating your
[4:57] Speaker 2: past for you, you know, well, I think that that's
[5:03] Speaker 2: good for you. You know that you were able to
[5:04] Speaker 2: see that.
[5:06] Speaker 3: Yeah, I just and my son, he said, Mom, would
[5:10] Speaker 3: you like for me to call him? I'm like, no,
[5:11] Speaker 3: I'm fine, And to be honest with you, I am
[5:14] Speaker 3: I'm fine. It's been so long that I am fine. Uncomfortable, Yes,
[5:21] Speaker 3: I just I just can't start all over them, and
[5:24] Speaker 3: I pass off to anybody that's trying to do it.
[5:27] Speaker 2: But it's been so long for me to I just know,
[5:31] Speaker 2: I totally understand. I'm gonna pull up a scripture for you.
[5:34] Speaker 2: And it's funny. I just read this to someone else
[5:38] Speaker 2: on a second.
[5:40] Speaker 3: And you has the best title of your show, I love.
[5:47] Speaker 3: And the thing is that I watched Sisters and Fatima
[5:50] Speaker 3: every day.
[5:53] Speaker 1: Really every day.
[5:54] Speaker 3: I'm watching us c R in now, and I mean
[5:57] Speaker 3: watching like because I always pull something from each of
[6:01] Speaker 3: them and I have to go back, and then I
[6:03] Speaker 3: go back and I pull something else.
[6:05] Speaker 1: All right, it is Are you ready?
[6:07] Speaker 7: I'm ready.
[6:09] Speaker 1: It's first Corinthians, chapter seven, Corinthians, chapter verse eight through nine. Nine, Okay, yes,
[6:18] Speaker 1: And it says I say, to those who aren't married
[6:21] Speaker 1: and to widows, it is better to stay unmarried, just
[6:24] Speaker 1: as I am. But if they can't control themselves, they
[6:27] Speaker 1: should go ahead and marry. It's better to marry than
[6:30] Speaker 1: to burn with lust.
[6:32] Speaker 2: And there was another version that I that also talked
[6:35] Speaker 2: about it's better to stay single so that you can
[6:39] Speaker 2: honestly honor God and focus on God with an undivided heart,
[6:42] Speaker 2: and if you don't have to deal with the anxieties
[6:44] Speaker 2: and the worldly troubles of marriage, and that was very
[6:49] Speaker 2: It's just stuck out to me because you look around
[6:51] Speaker 2: and everybody's pushing you to get married, you know, but
[6:54] Speaker 2: they don't talk about all the things that come along
[6:56] Speaker 2: with it. You know, If you can control yourself and
[7:00] Speaker 2: stay focused on God and live within his will, sometimes
[7:03] Speaker 2: that is the best thing for you.
[7:05] Speaker 1: But if you can't, then it's best to get married.
[7:08] Speaker 2: But I think that you should definitely just focus on yourself.
[7:12] Speaker 2: The fact that you are able to be by yourself
[7:14] Speaker 2: is something that is so important. My mother taught me
[7:16] Speaker 2: at a very young age. You must learn to be
[7:20] Speaker 2: by yourself.
[7:20] Speaker 1: You can't look for other people to make you happy,
[7:23] Speaker 1: and that is something that you have mastered. And you
[7:24] Speaker 1: are far ahead of people who are looking for love
[7:27] Speaker 1: in all the wrong places.
[7:29] Speaker 2: So keep seeking Jesus missing that. I want to thank
[7:31] Speaker 2: you so much for your support. I'm so glad we
[7:34] Speaker 2: got to talk today and I have this hell. Don't cry,
[7:40] Speaker 2: it's only because.
[7:43] Speaker 3: It's only because you make it. It makes sense how
[7:47] Speaker 3: I feel. But everybody else keep asking me to try again,
[7:52] Speaker 3: but I really don't want to.
[7:55] Speaker 1: Yeah, and you don't have to. That's the thing. This
[7:58] Speaker 1: is your life and you only get it once.
[8:00] Speaker 3: Yeah.
[8:01] Speaker 1: Okay, And and I'm I'm good and I'm blessed you are.
[8:06] Speaker 2: You are more than you even realize it. Thank you
[8:09] Speaker 2: so much, miss Samantha. And I'm so glad I got
[8:11] Speaker 2: to talk to you today.
[8:12] Speaker 3: Okay, all right, you have.
[8:14] Speaker 1: A wonderful day. Hi. How do you pronounce your name?
[8:19] Speaker 8: Sarah is good?
[8:20] Speaker 3: Oh?
[8:21] Speaker 1: Sarah? Okay, awesome, Sarah. How are you doing?
[8:25] Speaker 8: I'm good? I'm so excited? Oh my god?
[8:27] Speaker 3: Wow?
[8:30] Speaker 8: Wow? Do you remember the person called every time calls
[8:34] Speaker 8: your big sister?
[8:35] Speaker 1: It's me? That's you. Also, Hey, lady.
[8:42] Speaker 8: Nice, My English is not bad.
[8:45] Speaker 1: But from where are you from?
[8:48] Speaker 8: Belgium?
[8:48] Speaker 1: Belgium?
[8:50] Speaker 3: Wow?
[8:51] Speaker 1: That's incredible. Wow. Yeah, so I'm have no idea how
[8:56] Speaker 1: reach was Belgium?
[8:58] Speaker 8: Yeah, thank you so much by having me here. I'm
[9:02] Speaker 8: so happy. I was waiting for this moment for well.
[9:07] Speaker 1: I am so glad we guests are today.
[9:09] Speaker 8: Yes, you are really truly aspiration for me, so.
[9:16] Speaker 1: Yeah, thank you, thank you. What's on your mind?
[9:22] Speaker 8: Okay? I have one question. I wrote my question because, yeah,
[9:29] Speaker 8: how do you know when it's really God's voice guiding you?
[9:35] Speaker 1: Sarah? That's a good question.
[9:39] Speaker 2: It's so funny because a lot of times when we
[9:42] Speaker 2: are steadying our prayer walk and talking to God, we
[9:46] Speaker 2: can start thinking things and it can be us trying
[9:49] Speaker 2: to guide ourselves and not letting God guide us. And
[9:52] Speaker 2: I think the telltale sign is when when you when
[9:57] Speaker 2: you're go in a certain direction and you're listening to
[10:00] Speaker 2: the voice. If things go in a smooth way, then
[10:03] Speaker 2: you know it's God's voice, you know. But sometimes when
[10:07] Speaker 2: we try to steer it and take it into our
[10:08] Speaker 2: own hands and we're running into obstacles and like why
[10:11] Speaker 2: did these things keep happening?
[10:12] Speaker 1: It's because we're out of the will of God.
[10:14] Speaker 2: So I think, whenever you pray, pray, God, please help
[10:19] Speaker 2: me to discern my voice in your voice, because I
[10:22] Speaker 2: want you to take control of my life.
[10:24] Speaker 1: And I think you will start.
[10:26] Speaker 2: As you continue to grow, you will continue to know
[10:29] Speaker 2: for sure that's his voice, you know.
[10:32] Speaker 6: Wow?
[10:32] Speaker 1: Yeah, not amazing.
[10:33] Speaker 6: Yeah.
[10:34] Speaker 8: And one one question, one more question, Sorry.
[10:39] Speaker 3: Do you hope.
[10:41] Speaker 8: What do you hope your sweetest carried in the hurt
[10:46] Speaker 8: when after listening to you?
[10:49] Speaker 1: Yeah, you know what, that's a great question.
[10:52] Speaker 2: I hope that after my sweeties listened to me, that
[10:54] Speaker 2: they when they're inspired. I will hope that they are
[10:58] Speaker 2: inspired to walk differently, to walk boldly, to be confident
[11:04] Speaker 2: in Christ and in themselves and just know that they
[11:07] Speaker 2: are made in His image and they are beautiful. You know,
[11:10] Speaker 2: a lot of times we can walk through this world
[11:13] Speaker 2: insecure because of all the different images that we see
[11:16] Speaker 2: and thinking that we're not.
[11:17] Speaker 1: Living up to those images.
[11:20] Speaker 2: But when you live up to the true image, the
[11:21] Speaker 2: one that you're made in, which is God, nothing can
[11:24] Speaker 2: hold a candle to that, you know what I'm saying.
[11:27] Speaker 2: So I think that I just want the sweeties to
[11:29] Speaker 2: just know that one staying true to Him and saying
[11:33] Speaker 2: true to yourself and being positive, leading with kindness and
[11:36] Speaker 2: loving your neighbors.
[11:37] Speaker 1: You love yourself, which is the golden rule.
[11:39] Speaker 2: And we all know that the greatest of everything is love,
[11:42] Speaker 2: and we can continue to love on each other, we
[11:44] Speaker 2: can change this wicked world. Yeah man, thank you, Hey man,
[11:50] Speaker 2: you're welcome, said no, thank you.
[11:52] Speaker 1: What time is it? In Belgium.
[11:55] Speaker 8: Oh now it's almost eleven pm.
[12:00] Speaker 2: Oh wow, well, thank you so much for staying up
[12:02] Speaker 2: to chat with me. I faoroughly enjoyed it. Yes, from
[12:07] Speaker 2: your big sister. Thank you, Miss Tucker.
[12:12] Speaker 1: I'm on, Oh, Chrystal.
[12:15] Speaker 9: Why do I feel like I've won the lottery? Oh
[12:18] Speaker 9: my god?
[12:20] Speaker 1: How beautiful? How are you doing? I'm wonderful. How are
[12:23] Speaker 1: you doing?
[12:24] Speaker 3: I'm doing good.
[12:26] Speaker 10: I'm at work, but I got off the clock for you.
[12:29] Speaker 1: Thank you, Thank you so much. I love that. What's
[12:34] Speaker 1: going on?
[12:37] Speaker 8: Not a whole lot of her.
[12:39] Speaker 10: I live in Virginia.
[12:41] Speaker 3: Okay, yeah, I just dropped.
[12:43] Speaker 10: I have a twenty year old at an eighteen year old.
[12:46] Speaker 10: My daughter is down here in your neighborhood. She dropped
[12:48] Speaker 10: all wow in your Expelman. So she's wow her best life.
[12:53] Speaker 1: Yes, yes she is. And it's an incredible college to
[12:56] Speaker 1: congress to her.
[12:58] Speaker 10: Yeah, she's feeling myself right now.
[13:00] Speaker 9: So yes, yes, but I just want to tell you that,
[13:04] Speaker 9: you know, I just love everything about you.
[13:07] Speaker 10: I just.
[13:09] Speaker 1: You know.
[13:09] Speaker 10: I was late to the game of watching sisters. My
[13:12] Speaker 10: mom and my sister would say.
[13:13] Speaker 3: Are you watching sisters?
[13:14] Speaker 8: I'm like, no, I'm not watching sisters. I'm not.
[13:16] Speaker 10: I watched it, but I'm not watching sisters.
[13:19] Speaker 1: Oh yeah, they haven't have not so it's that thing. Yes, yes,
[13:24] Speaker 1: but when I started watching.
[13:25] Speaker 3: I was like, oh my god, Fatima. I fell in
[13:28] Speaker 3: love with your character. But then when I follow you, I.
[13:32] Speaker 10: Started to research the person and I mean you You're
[13:36] Speaker 10: just awesome. I mean such an inspiration too.
[13:39] Speaker 1: Thank you. That means so much to me. Yes, you
[13:43] Speaker 1: so Muchody.
[13:44] Speaker 10: You know that a young a young woman can look
[13:46] Speaker 10: up to. I mean showing them that you know, success
[13:49] Speaker 10: looks different because you do promote that success looks different.
[13:53] Speaker 3: For different people.
[13:55] Speaker 10: Everybody doesn't have the same path.
[13:57] Speaker 3: And I just love all.
[13:58] Speaker 10: That about you. You know, the foundation. I will support
[14:02] Speaker 10: whatever you know.
[14:04] Speaker 1: Thank you. You have a kid's necklace sign.
[14:07] Speaker 3: I got your kids nextlist. Yes, I love it, and
[14:10] Speaker 3: I will be thank you. I will be on the boat.
[14:14] Speaker 2: We're gonna have a time. Yes, Yes, I cannot wait
[14:18] Speaker 2: to meet you in real life.
[14:20] Speaker 10: Well, you know I came to I wasn't you know.
[14:23] Speaker 10: I wasn't a fan the first live, but the second
[14:25] Speaker 10: live I didn't meet you in Atlanta.
[14:29] Speaker 1: In Atlanta, yes, at the Fox Theater.
[14:32] Speaker 3: That's right, thank you?
[14:34] Speaker 1: Did you enjoy yourself.
[14:36] Speaker 10: I enjoyed it immensely, travel by myself.
[14:39] Speaker 7: All my friends were shocked.
[14:40] Speaker 3: They was like when they saw the pictures, they was like.
[14:42] Speaker 1: What, like, yes, yes, we had a time. That's amazing.
[14:48] Speaker 2: We have some more live shows coming up, so I
[14:51] Speaker 2: think you'll be in your area too, if I'm not mistaken.
[14:53] Speaker 1: So I would love to see you again before February.
[14:56] Speaker 10: Yeah, yes, yes, please please please come to Virginia.
[15:00] Speaker 3: You know, not a lot happen.
[15:03] Speaker 10: You have to travel other places, you know, but you
[15:06] Speaker 10: come to Virginia, we would appreciate it absolutely. Yeah, yeah,
[15:10] Speaker 10: thank you, thank you for I put a pluge in
[15:12] Speaker 10: for you wherever you go. You want to thank you.
[15:15] Speaker 10: I told my Girlma's daughter, who's a student there, she
[15:18] Speaker 10: cares to see you.
[15:20] Speaker 1: She was so would that means so much.
[15:23] Speaker 2: Something that you said that really stuck out was you
[15:26] Speaker 2: fell in love with my character, but then you looked
[15:28] Speaker 2: into who I was, And something that is so important
[15:30] Speaker 2: to me is my character as Crystal. You know, Fatima
[15:34] Speaker 2: pools people in, but then I want to make sure
[15:37] Speaker 2: that I'm starting over Crystal properly so that people can
[15:40] Speaker 2: be inspired in that way as well.
[15:41] Speaker 1: So that means so much.
[15:44] Speaker 10: And I'm putting a shameless plug in for a small buckethead.
[15:49] Speaker 11: Okay, yeah, small, right now, it's just medium and lodge.
[15:54] Speaker 1: Okay, a big fella, we need some small and medium
[15:58] Speaker 1: bucket hats.
[15:58] Speaker 10: Okay, tell Big West, get owned it. But he said, okay,
[16:06] Speaker 10: I said, you know, I.
[16:08] Speaker 3: Know you're walking closely with God. I will be. I
[16:12] Speaker 3: was brought up in the church and went to.
[16:14] Speaker 7: Church all the time.
[16:15] Speaker 10: I am still struggling with consistency though, because ever since COVID,
[16:20] Speaker 10: I have not been consistent in going to I should.
[16:24] Speaker 8: Yeah, I'll go.
[16:25] Speaker 10: With Sunday here and there, but you know, I can
[16:27] Speaker 10: come up with every excuse in the book.
[16:31] Speaker 1: Oh yeah, you know what. I understand it.
[16:34] Speaker 2: And I think COVID definitely kind of changed everybody's routine,
[16:38] Speaker 2: you know, being used to going to church every Sunday
[16:40] Speaker 2: and then being forced to watch it from home on Sundays.
[16:43] Speaker 2: It got a little comfortable, you know, to do that.
[16:46] Speaker 2: But I think in order to one, we're not supposed
[16:50] Speaker 2: to forsake the assembly. It's just something about being in
[16:52] Speaker 2: the house of the Lord around people who are seeking
[16:54] Speaker 2: the same thing you're seeking, you know. But also even
[16:58] Speaker 2: consistency It's hard, you know, it's hard to be consistent
[17:03] Speaker 2: when the schedules changing and life is happening, children are
[17:06] Speaker 2: going to college.
[17:08] Speaker 1: You know, it is so much happening.
[17:09] Speaker 2: But one thing that I know God craves is intimacy
[17:14] Speaker 2: with us. And that's that one on one time, whether
[17:17] Speaker 2: it's us praying or spending time in our Bible, or
[17:20] Speaker 2: even joining groups and having friends that will lead us
[17:24] Speaker 2: in that way as well. Right now, I feel like
[17:26] Speaker 2: all my friends have found Jesus. We're following him. We're
[17:29] Speaker 2: waking up reading our Bibles, we're calling each other, can't
[17:32] Speaker 2: we guys said this today and.
[17:33] Speaker 1: They were like, mm hm, God is working on you.
[17:36] Speaker 2: And I think it's just important to make sure you
[17:39] Speaker 2: have good community. But also understand that the fact that
[17:43] Speaker 2: you're even thinking about it, that means God is tugging
[17:46] Speaker 2: at you, you know, and the devil doesn't have you,
[17:49] Speaker 2: because if he did, you wouldn't even be thinking about God.
[17:51] Speaker 1: So you're on the right path.
[17:54] Speaker 2: And just I say, just pick up a Sunday because
[17:57] Speaker 2: is there something that you do all the time you
[17:58] Speaker 2: make time for? Can you think of one thing besides
[18:01] Speaker 2: work that you always make time for?
[18:03] Speaker 10: You know, it's shameless, Sissa Tima.
[18:06] Speaker 1: Okay, so the same way you show it for me
[18:09] Speaker 1: that for three a m.
[18:11] Speaker 3: That is a shame.
[18:14] Speaker 1: Well, I thank you for that.
[18:16] Speaker 2: But we have to be careful not to make idols
[18:18] Speaker 2: of people, right, and it's crazy as it sounds.
[18:21] Speaker 1: We have to be careful of that.
[18:22] Speaker 2: And for me, I want to make sure that I
[18:25] Speaker 2: don't become someone's idol over God, you know, So definitely
[18:29] Speaker 2: pursue them the same way because he's gonna be like
[18:31] Speaker 2: the same way you're pursuing Crystal and Fatima and Isatima.
[18:33] Speaker 1: And I need you to give me the energy I
[18:37] Speaker 1: got you. Ye, you got this. You're praying for you. Okay.
[18:42] Speaker 3: You grew up at the church.
[18:44] Speaker 10: I mean I went ye until COVID, so it's.
[18:48] Speaker 1: Yeah, it is yeah, yeah you will. Yes, yes, thank
[18:55] Speaker 1: you so much.
[18:56] Speaker 3: Great, this was great.
[18:57] Speaker 10: Yes, it was so good to talk to you when
[19:00] Speaker 10: I saw that leak for this week.
[19:03] Speaker 1: Hello, that's right, yes, thank you.
[19:06] Speaker 3: So much, thank you, thank you much.
[19:09] Speaker 1: You have a wonderful day. To get back on the
[19:10] Speaker 1: clock now. Yeah, No, it's time to go home now,
[19:15] Speaker 1: miss a perfecta at end of the day. Yes, there
[19:17] Speaker 1: you go, all right, have a good email.
[19:19] Speaker 3: Appreciate you so much.
[19:21] Speaker 1: You are so welcome. Thank you and thanks for your support. Seriously, Christina,
[19:28] Speaker 1: how are you doing today?
[19:34] Speaker 3: I'm good?
[19:35] Speaker 7: Thank you? How are you?
[19:36] Speaker 1: I'm good.
[19:37] Speaker 2: I'm excited to be talking to you all today, my sweeties.
[19:41] Speaker 12: I am so excited because I was just talking to
[19:45] Speaker 12: my sister about how do you know it would be
[19:47] Speaker 12: so cool if she could like tap into like real
[19:49] Speaker 12: live people like I know you have.
[19:51] Speaker 7: I watched I've been rocking since season one?
[19:53] Speaker 12: Who who is your first guest from Yeah?
[20:01] Speaker 1: Was not very first. Now he has his own show.
[20:05] Speaker 12: Rocking with you from man. I was just like, I mean,
[20:07] Speaker 12: all these great people are on. It's such an inspiration.
[20:09] Speaker 12: It's such a blessing to watch, and I'm like, it'd
[20:12] Speaker 12: be really cool if she really get people like, you know.
[20:14] Speaker 6: Like us.
[20:14] Speaker 12: She was like, yeah, that would be dope. So I
[20:16] Speaker 12: was like, look at God in my conversation.
[20:18] Speaker 1: Come on night, Wow, that's amazing.
[20:25] Speaker 7: Listen tell me about how I was like.
[20:27] Speaker 12: People were talking about like, oh, yeah, I got you
[20:29] Speaker 12: know she posted she posted. I'm like, oh, I didn't
[20:32] Speaker 12: see anything, so I'm like whatever. Then I got the Lincoln.
[20:35] Speaker 12: I called my sister screaming. She was like, calm down,
[20:38] Speaker 12: calm Christina.
[20:42] Speaker 1: Where are you coming from.
[20:43] Speaker 7: I'm from New York.
[20:45] Speaker 2: I was just in New York for the US Open.
[20:47] Speaker 2: I love New York. Are you sneezing up there? Because
[20:50] Speaker 2: I started sneezing out of nowhere when I got to
[20:52] Speaker 2: New York. Okay, I don't know what was going on.
[20:57] Speaker 1: What's going on? Not doing much?
[21:00] Speaker 12: Just you know, it's just this is just really crazy.
[21:02] Speaker 12: You know, you are such an inspiration to so many people.
[21:06] Speaker 12: And again with the young lady who just said before,
[21:10] Speaker 12: like I started watching Sisters Big TP fan, and I
[21:13] Speaker 12: was like, you know, fell in love with the characters.
[21:15] Speaker 12: But then when you started the podcast, that's when I
[21:17] Speaker 12: really locked in.
[21:18] Speaker 7: I was like, this woman is on to something right here,
[21:21] Speaker 7: Like she is putting it out there.
[21:24] Speaker 12: And it's crazy because like you would come in my
[21:26] Speaker 12: spirit and I'm like, I don't know this woman, but
[21:29] Speaker 12: like God would just dropping of my spirits. So I'd
[21:31] Speaker 12: be like, let me just pray, you know whatever. I
[21:33] Speaker 12: don't know what's going on in the season of her life.
[21:35] Speaker 12: Let me just keep it in my press.
[21:36] Speaker 1: And yeah, it's.
[21:38] Speaker 7: Just so good.
[21:38] Speaker 12: Like I manifested, I keep my journal with me. I've
[21:42] Speaker 12: seen you one and look at God.
[21:44] Speaker 1: I'll tell you, Ronie, here we are. He is real.
[21:48] Speaker 1: I love that it is love that.
[21:53] Speaker 12: So my question, I think, would be, what's bringing you
[21:56] Speaker 12: joy in this season?
[21:58] Speaker 1: Mmm? What is that? Is so good? Christina? What is
[22:01] Speaker 1: bringing me joy this season?
[22:04] Speaker 2: Honestly, this walk with God, man, it is bringing me
[22:08] Speaker 2: the most peace I've ever had.
[22:11] Speaker 1: He is freeing me of things that I didn't even
[22:14] Speaker 1: know I needed.
[22:14] Speaker 2: Freedom that I didn't even know I needed freedom from. Also,
[22:19] Speaker 2: the people that I'm connecting with in this season of
[22:21] Speaker 2: my life has been amazing. I love how everyone is
[22:26] Speaker 2: really just seeking his face. I love how everyone is
[22:29] Speaker 2: going after what God has planted in their hearts.
[22:33] Speaker 1: It's a season of getting it, getting to it.
[22:35] Speaker 2: We're in our fourth quarter and I'm just excited about
[22:39] Speaker 2: what God has in store. I was at dinner with
[22:42] Speaker 2: some friends the other night and we went around the
[22:44] Speaker 2: table and talked about what we were grateful for and
[22:47] Speaker 2: what we were looking forward to as the year ended.
[22:50] Speaker 2: And one of my friends, Maya, said, I am in
[22:54] Speaker 2: a space of gratitude and I am continuously asking God
[22:58] Speaker 2: show me how good it can get. And I felt
[23:01] Speaker 2: that and I just feel like he's constantly doing that.
[23:03] Speaker 2: But yeah, that's what brains me the most joy.
[23:06] Speaker 1: Yeah, that's so good.
[23:08] Speaker 7: That's so good.
[23:09] Speaker 1: Yeah, thank you, Thank you so much. I appreciate your support. Yes,
[23:14] Speaker 1: I'm glad we got to talk today.
[23:16] Speaker 12: Yes, I mean I saw you as Women Evolved with
[23:18] Speaker 12: that line, and my sister was like, we wanna wait,
[23:20] Speaker 12: I wait on the line we're going on the.
[23:23] Speaker 1: Cruise, Like I am.
[23:25] Speaker 7: I'm fangirling real hard right here.
[23:27] Speaker 1: Thank you. Did you enjoy Woman Evolved? Oh my god?
[23:31] Speaker 7: It was just it was amazing.
[23:34] Speaker 1: That it was.
[23:35] Speaker 12: Oh, oh my god, I read the room just to
[23:40] Speaker 12: be amongst women who have the same mindset, focus, you know.
[23:46] Speaker 12: I mean, I've been a believer for a very long time,
[23:48] Speaker 12: but just to be in corporate worship is totally different.
[23:51] Speaker 1: It's different.
[23:52] Speaker 2: Honeymoon, you're That's what I was just telling the last
[23:54] Speaker 2: young lady, Like forsaking the assembly, It's like it's something
[23:58] Speaker 2: about being in the same space as people who are
[24:01] Speaker 2: on the same path as you, and it just ignites something.
[24:05] Speaker 1: Yeah, it's a real thing.
[24:07] Speaker 7: It was.
[24:11] Speaker 2: Oh, thank you so much. I'm glad we got to
[24:13] Speaker 2: tap in and talk. Yeah, Kevin wonderful day you too,
[24:18] Speaker 2: Thank you.
[24:19] Speaker 3: Bye, Oh girl. I was to say, oh my girl,
[24:30] Speaker 3: Oh my god, Crystal, it's a joyous I am.
[24:36] Speaker 1: The pleasure is all mine.
[24:38] Speaker 3: Let me tell you, you're talking about your grandmother's name.
[24:41] Speaker 3: I was named after my mother.
[24:43] Speaker 1: Up there we go.
[24:45] Speaker 3: I didn't like my name all my life, so everyone
[24:50] Speaker 3: always called me Bertie. That's my nickname.
[24:53] Speaker 1: Really, I had an odd birdie too.
[24:56] Speaker 3: Yes, my nickname calls me Bertie.
[25:03] Speaker 13: Okay, I want to say it is a pleasure, and
[25:09] Speaker 13: I am so grateful from my heart to even talk
[25:13] Speaker 13: to you and to be selected on today.
[25:18] Speaker 3: This came through prayer. I'm gonna say this because over
[25:23] Speaker 3: the weekend I constantly pray for you.
[25:27] Speaker 1: Thank you.
[25:28] Speaker 3: I'm so much older than you, and your life has
[25:32] Speaker 3: resonated so much reminded me of myself and the things
[25:38] Speaker 3: that I've gone through. I've gone through a lot of
[25:42] Speaker 3: things that you have told the sweeties, and I set
[25:48] Speaker 3: back in a many days. You don't know, but the
[25:51] Speaker 3: tears just flow because I see God doing and moving
[25:56] Speaker 3: in your life so much, and I like what I see.
[25:59] Speaker 3: And that's why I constantly I think, people wonder, why
[26:04] Speaker 3: do you always talk about Crystal. Why do you always
[26:07] Speaker 3: watch Crystal? Why are you always doing it? You are
[26:11] Speaker 3: the only celebrity aside from Devout and Kadeen I have
[26:17] Speaker 3: gone on their podcast. You are the only one that
[26:22] Speaker 3: I've invested in. Cheer, Listen, Cheer. The things that you do,
[26:30] Speaker 3: I see your heart more so than anything. I see
[26:35] Speaker 3: that you pour out your heart to people. And I
[26:39] Speaker 3: want to say congratulations for Sisters and Zatima because when
[26:44] Speaker 3: Sisters started, I was. I started watching it when it
[26:47] Speaker 3: first came on, but I slacked off because I said,
[26:51] Speaker 3: but when you came on, it was something about you
[26:55] Speaker 3: that really touched my heart. And I say, it's something
[26:59] Speaker 3: about her. I gotta watch and so I begin to
[27:02] Speaker 3: watch it. And I had watched it up until today.
[27:05] Speaker 3: It is one of my shows. Everybody knows. Do not
[27:08] Speaker 3: call me on Wednesday at nine o'clock if you do,
[27:11] Speaker 3: I will not answer. And on the teamer I watches
[27:17] Speaker 3: it faithfully, have watched it so many times. Your life
[27:21] Speaker 3: has resonated with me because I was raised in church
[27:24] Speaker 3: from birth up and too the present. Yes, so many times,
[27:29] Speaker 3: as you become a teenager, you really want to do
[27:31] Speaker 3: what you want to do, but God always will pull
[27:35] Speaker 3: me back, and no matter what me and my friends
[27:38] Speaker 3: would do, I will always be the one that got
[27:41] Speaker 3: in trouble, and I will always get in trouble. And
[27:46] Speaker 3: I'm saying, but nobody else got in trouble. Why is
[27:49] Speaker 3: it just me? Why God's hand was on my life?
[27:55] Speaker 3: They got realize it and was fighting at all I could.
[27:59] Speaker 3: As I grew older, as I became a young adult,
[28:04] Speaker 3: I just surrendered because I had gone through so much
[28:08] Speaker 3: and things weren't working out the way I wanted it to,
[28:12] Speaker 3: and so I just told him, not my will, but
[28:15] Speaker 3: your will be done in my life. Come on, Yes,
[28:18] Speaker 3: I listen to you and the reason I even prayed God?
[28:24] Speaker 3: What is it about her that keeps me watching her podcast,
[28:30] Speaker 3: listening to her so many times? Crystal, I know you
[28:35] Speaker 3: don't know, but I'm seventy one.
[28:36] Speaker 14: Years old, and everyone where Ms Marrian, I am seventy odd.
[28:49] Speaker 3: He has he has been good to me, has really
[28:53] Speaker 3: been good to me. I have watched you and your
[28:57] Speaker 3: heart exemplified the pyrhness the things that you do, and
[29:04] Speaker 3: so many times I've heard you say I've been praying
[29:08] Speaker 3: about this in my life, and I've been praying about
[29:10] Speaker 3: that and guess what, You're not the only one praying.
[29:13] Speaker 3: I prayed for you. I've been praying for you. And
[29:16] Speaker 3: when you got through and victory came, I was glorifying
[29:21] Speaker 3: God here in my home and I told my God daughter,
[29:25] Speaker 3: I'm single. I grew up as I was working. I
[29:31] Speaker 3: was working two jobs. I was working in Social Security Administration.
[29:36] Speaker 3: I did that for thirty four years, and then I
[29:39] Speaker 3: also worked here. I'm a licensed bautician. In the process
[29:44] Speaker 3: of all of that, I retired from Social Security Administration
[29:49] Speaker 3: on twenty twenty ten, and I still do have Now,
[29:53] Speaker 3: I have clients that will not let me go. They
[29:57] Speaker 3: don't want me to retire. And I told them, it's
[30:00] Speaker 3: been forty years of doing hair more. You gotta let
[30:04] Speaker 3: me retire. They said, no, you will never retire. We
[30:07] Speaker 3: will be on Hans or whatever. I'm not gonna keep
[30:11] Speaker 3: your time. But I just want to say to you,
[30:15] Speaker 3: I want to encourage you. First of all, will you
[30:19] Speaker 3: be able to have the trucker hats back in at
[30:22] Speaker 3: any time? Will you be ordering them?
[30:25] Speaker 2: Yes, Big West is listening, and we will have those
[30:28] Speaker 2: sugar to have hats from his birdie right all right?
[30:32] Speaker 1: Yesucker hats.
[30:35] Speaker 3: Reason why because my goddaughter once one so bad she said,
[30:39] Speaker 3: please give me one, And when I went online I
[30:41] Speaker 3: didn't see. I say, well, I'm just gonna have to
[30:44] Speaker 3: find out whether they'll be reordering them again, so I
[30:48] Speaker 3: just wan't be buying it from from you. I have
[30:53] Speaker 3: purchased so much from you. See, I have my like.
[30:57] Speaker 1: You got your kids. Yes we do.
[31:00] Speaker 3: I've watched you, honey, and you're keeping me young because
[31:07] Speaker 3: I'm doing I'm doing the jewelry.
[31:10] Speaker 1: I know that's right. It looks you're layering it. It
[31:12] Speaker 1: looks good.
[31:13] Speaker 3: And I even landed you even more. And the thing
[31:17] Speaker 3: I want to say to you is you have touched
[31:20] Speaker 3: so many people lives all over the world. It's not
[31:25] Speaker 3: by chance that God is using you, and the way
[31:28] Speaker 3: he's using you. I am glad that you're not like
[31:32] Speaker 3: everybody else. But you're doing God's will and doing his will.
[31:38] Speaker 3: Guess what eyes have not seen nor ears have heard.
[31:45] Speaker 3: I'm going to give you this scriptures, Berdie.
[31:49] Speaker 1: I didn't know I was on crowd today.
[31:52] Speaker 3: First Corinthians, second chapter, in the ninth verses for you.
[32:01] Speaker 3: It's not my intent to break down like this. Eyes
[32:08] Speaker 3: had not seen nor hear heard, neither have entered into
[32:13] Speaker 3: the heart of man, the things which God has prepared
[32:18] Speaker 3: for them that love him. God has a greater work
[32:22] Speaker 3: for you. He has a greater work for you to do.
[32:27] Speaker 3: He is not finished with you, Crystal. This is not
[32:30] Speaker 3: the end. The podcast is not the end. I don't
[32:36] Speaker 3: ever think that He's taking you to higher heights and
[32:41] Speaker 3: deeper depths in Him. All he wanted you to do
[32:45] Speaker 3: was surrender You're all to Him. And with you surrendering
[32:51] Speaker 3: your own you are encouraging people that knew nothing about God,
[32:58] Speaker 3: and they are now reading word. They are now going
[33:02] Speaker 3: to church, they are now hearing the word of God.
[33:07] Speaker 3: And my prayer for you, if you would about I
[33:14] Speaker 3: prayed for this and I asked God, if it's your
[33:18] Speaker 3: will for me to speak to her, allow them to
[33:23] Speaker 3: select my name. I went on about my house business,
[33:27] Speaker 3: doing housework and stuff, and when I looked at I
[33:30] Speaker 3: saw it. I begin to glorify God because of who
[33:35] Speaker 3: you are. So I say that this has been ordained
[33:41] Speaker 3: by the Father. I'm graceful for him. I wanted to
[33:47] Speaker 3: let you know I did by bring this book, and
[33:51] Speaker 3: it's because of you. I brought the book because God
[33:56] Speaker 3: has always spoken to me on obedience obedience, And when
[34:01] Speaker 3: she brought the book out and you had the podcast
[34:04] Speaker 3: and you talked and you were telling us it was
[34:07] Speaker 3: in my spirit to buy the book. But then I
[34:09] Speaker 3: kind of pulled back and I'm see I'm looking at
[34:13] Speaker 3: christ And when Christal said and you better buy the book,
[34:16] Speaker 3: I say, oh, you know, oh you know, Okay, I
[34:20] Speaker 3: got that, yes, and you better buy the boy. Well,
[34:25] Speaker 3: I have said, if you don't mind, if could I
[34:29] Speaker 3: have just a word of prayer with you, please, I'm
[34:33] Speaker 3: not gonna be long. I just want to This is
[34:36] Speaker 3: something that has been in my spirit for a long time.
[34:40] Speaker 3: I had been praying for you, and I asked, God,
[34:42] Speaker 3: why have you have been dropping in my spirit as
[34:45] Speaker 3: much as you have? And every day you're coming up
[34:48] Speaker 3: in my spirit. So my prayer has been for you.
[34:53] Speaker 3: So I'm gonna pray right now. I'm not gonna be long. Father,
[34:56] Speaker 3: and the precious name of Jesus God, me come before you, God,
[35:01] Speaker 3: I praise you, I worship, I adore you. I come
[35:05] Speaker 3: before you on the behalf of your daughter Crystal, God,
[35:09] Speaker 3: in the name of Jesus, from the crown of her
[35:11] Speaker 3: head to the souls of her feet, bless her, Oh God,
[35:14] Speaker 3: as never before, use her in ways that she will blow.
[35:19] Speaker 3: It will blow her mind. Bind the hand of the
[35:22] Speaker 3: enemy and of set his plan. Anyone that's not like you,
[35:27] Speaker 3: that does not come in the right way in her life,
[35:31] Speaker 3: Glory Hallelujah, remove them right now in the name of
[35:36] Speaker 3: Jesus God. Surround her with pray, praying people. Surround her
[35:41] Speaker 3: with the love that you have exemplified in her life.
[35:46] Speaker 3: Thank you for the team that she has, Oh God,
[35:49] Speaker 3: Bless each and never remember, Oh God, of her team.
[35:52] Speaker 3: And as she continues to speak your word, thank you
[35:56] Speaker 3: for her not being fearful of speaking your word.
[35:59] Speaker 8: Of God.
[36:00] Speaker 3: Help her, Oh God, in the name of Jesus, in
[36:03] Speaker 3: her night hour, Oh God, bless her in her home.
[36:06] Speaker 3: Oh God, Bless her surroundings. Oh God, everyone that's in
[36:10] Speaker 3: the midst of her bless them, Oh God, as she
[36:13] Speaker 3: comes forth, God, use her in a special way. Only
[36:17] Speaker 3: you can do this. We will forever give your name
[36:21] Speaker 3: the love shut shut down me to your name, O God, God,
[36:28] Speaker 3: I thank you, I praise you, I honor and adore
[36:30] Speaker 3: you in the precious name of Jesus.
[36:34] Speaker 8: Lord.
[36:34] Speaker 3: You know what's in her heart, everything that she desires.
[36:38] Speaker 3: God I'm asked you to bring forth and allow it
[36:40] Speaker 3: to take place in her life. God, she loves you,
[36:44] Speaker 3: and I thank you for the love she has and
[36:47] Speaker 3: how she's drawing others to you, and that's what she's doing.
[36:52] Speaker 12: God.
[36:52] Speaker 3: I thank you, I praise you, I honor and adore
[36:54] Speaker 3: you in the precious name of Jesus. In Jesus' name, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen.
[37:06] Speaker 3: It's been a pleasure. It's been a pleasure.
[37:10] Speaker 1: Wow.
[37:11] Speaker 2: You don't know this, but I'm in the middle of
[37:13] Speaker 2: a fast right now, and i did a podcast last
[37:18] Speaker 2: week and it was like the second day of the fast,
[37:23] Speaker 2: and you know how it is when you're fasting, it's
[37:25] Speaker 2: just like everything you feel with so much gratitude.
[37:28] Speaker 1: You feel the presence of God, and everything makes you.
[37:30] Speaker 2: Cry, you know, like just one small thing and you're
[37:34] Speaker 2: just reminded of His goodness and it's just like, yes,
[37:37] Speaker 2: you can't contain it. And to know that in this industry,
[37:42] Speaker 2: it's so many people that are praying on my downfall.
[37:45] Speaker 2: But to have someone like you, a woman that I
[37:47] Speaker 2: didn't even know, praying for me, Yes, and I know
[37:50] Speaker 2: your prayers are fervent.
[37:51] Speaker 1: Thank you so much.
[37:52] Speaker 3: Yes, God is going to bless you. And one thing
[37:57] Speaker 3: I'm going to say, everyone that is praying for your downfall,
[38:03] Speaker 3: it will return back to them. It won't happen because
[38:08] Speaker 3: being a child of God, God has a head around you. Chrystal,
[38:12] Speaker 3: you have to know that He's gonna cover you glory.
[38:16] Speaker 3: He's gonna cover you with your his blood. He's gonna
[38:20] Speaker 3: protect you. You don't realize, but during that time you
[38:26] Speaker 3: was going through anxiety. You don't even know. But because
[38:32] Speaker 3: of the family that I'm in, I was going through
[38:35] Speaker 3: the same thing, anxiety, and you was talking about talking
[38:42] Speaker 3: to a therapist.
[38:44] Speaker 1: Yeah.
[38:45] Speaker 3: So happily I have a spiritual and natural therapist. He's both.
[38:52] Speaker 3: He's a pastor, and God has blessed hem to speak
[38:58] Speaker 3: into me the things that gone through. I lost my
[39:02] Speaker 3: mother in twenty twenty two. We were like this, and
[39:06] Speaker 3: in the process of losing her, I have siblings. One
[39:10] Speaker 3: of my siblings sued me because my mother. I had
[39:15] Speaker 3: my mother's bank account and my mother was only getting
[39:19] Speaker 3: a monthly income and my sister was so hungry and
[39:23] Speaker 3: greedy for money. She sued me. But don't you know,
[39:27] Speaker 3: God told me, don't do nothing. They came to my
[39:31] Speaker 3: home looking for me to serve me. When I would
[39:37] Speaker 3: go out. I could not hardly go out sometimes because
[39:41] Speaker 3: what would happen? People will be setting out there waiting
[39:45] Speaker 3: to serve me. But God always allowed me not to
[39:49] Speaker 3: go out during that time. He says, stay home. He
[39:53] Speaker 3: always led me. But my pastor always said me. The
[39:58] Speaker 3: prophetic word came and he said, do nothing because God
[40:04] Speaker 3: got this. Do nothing. Do not retaliate God yest this.
[40:11] Speaker 3: Do you not know? It was for two years twenty
[40:14] Speaker 3: twenty two to twenty twenty four, the courts have been,
[40:19] Speaker 3: My name has been in the courts. But November the
[40:22] Speaker 3: fourteenth of twenty twenty four, the judge canceled it out.
[40:29] Speaker 3: I had not had to give out anything. The money
[40:34] Speaker 3: that was in my mother's account I gave to people
[40:37] Speaker 3: that helped my mom, and that just to bless them
[40:43] Speaker 3: and turn God blessed me. So I'm saying to you,
[40:47] Speaker 3: continue to do what you do because it resonates so much.
[40:53] Speaker 3: I could really tell you a lot about how your
[40:56] Speaker 3: life has resonated with my life. Why I do believe
[41:01] Speaker 3: God got you in my spirit all the time to
[41:05] Speaker 3: keep prayings with you.
[41:07] Speaker 1: Yes, ma'am, be not dismayed.
[41:10] Speaker 3: God is not martius whatsoever. Glory, Yes, you also reap.
[41:18] Speaker 3: So you keep on, sweetie, doing what you do, because
[41:23] Speaker 3: guess what, at the end you will win. Victory is yours.
[41:29] Speaker 3: Christ I'm not.
[41:30] Speaker 1: Gonna bless me. Do you understand me?
[41:37] Speaker 3: But so many times, so many times, I just wanted
[41:42] Speaker 3: to find a way to call you, to talk to you.
[41:45] Speaker 3: I said, that woman don't know me, and she ain't
[41:48] Speaker 3: gonna answer no phones. I said, she don't know, she
[41:52] Speaker 3: ain't answered the phone. I said a praying send God
[41:56] Speaker 3: on her way and keep it moving. So I did.
[42:00] Speaker 3: I love you, Crystal, I love what. I love you too,
[42:04] Speaker 3: and I'm telling you you're gonna win. God's not. He's not.
[42:09] Speaker 3: He's not through with you yet.
[42:12] Speaker 1: It's thirty. Thank you so much.
[42:15] Speaker 2: So you are such alike. Thank you as well. I
[42:18] Speaker 2: love you back. Have a good way.
[42:21] Speaker 1: I'm beautiful. How are you doing?
[42:25] Speaker 6: I'm doing?
[42:27] Speaker 3: I hope I don't have to go after miss Birdie.
[42:30] Speaker 6: Lord.
[42:31] Speaker 1: I know that's a tough act of ollow baby, and
[42:34] Speaker 1: it wasn't an act. So she's yeah, sure, are you?
[42:41] Speaker 1: I am wonderful? I'm full right now. Wow, Yes, I'm good.
[42:46] Speaker 1: How are you doing?
[42:47] Speaker 15: I'm doing good. I'm I'm so happy to talk to you.
[42:50] Speaker 15: I'm so excited to be here. It's so funny because
[42:54] Speaker 15: this time last year I met you when you came
[42:57] Speaker 15: to d C for the women's soccer and you guys
[43:00] Speaker 15: had the panies.
[43:01] Speaker 1: Yes, so I remember.
[43:04] Speaker 15: Yeah, it's supposed to like almost a year exactly this
[43:09] Speaker 15: time last year.
[43:09] Speaker 2: That's crazy. Yeah, because that was this time of year. Yeah, wow,
[43:12] Speaker 2: that's amazing. How are you doing.
[43:15] Speaker 3: I'm doing good.
[43:16] Speaker 15: This is my sophomore year at Howard, so I'm.
[43:20] Speaker 1: Just Howard yees saying.
[43:29] Speaker 4: Yeah.
[43:29] Speaker 15: First, before I ask my question, I just want to
[43:31] Speaker 15: say she said it all, but to reiterate, I'm so
[43:35] Speaker 15: happy to be here and to talk to you. And
[43:38] Speaker 15: your lights shine so bright, and it feels so good
[43:42] Speaker 15: to have somebody like you, for young women like me
[43:44] Speaker 15: to look up to you, and I just I appreciate
[43:47] Speaker 15: your your your light and your love and you. But question,
[43:53] Speaker 15: of course, this summer I turned twenty, so freshly twenty,
[43:59] Speaker 15: and I'm both excited and a little.
[44:04] Speaker 3: Nervous about this chapter. So I guess my question.
[44:08] Speaker 15: I'm looking down because I haven't written, but because you
[44:12] Speaker 15: would give a young woman freshly in her.
[44:15] Speaker 2: Twenties freshly in her twenties. I feel like your twenties
[44:22] Speaker 2: is when life really begins.
[44:23] Speaker 1: This is when you are making decisions on your own.
[44:26] Speaker 2: These are the years that are going to shape your life.
[44:29] Speaker 1: So be very conscious. You know a lot of times.
[44:32] Speaker 2: We take these years to just be free, but these
[44:35] Speaker 2: years really shape who you are. So I would say, one,
[44:39] Speaker 2: make sure that you have a good community, a good
[44:41] Speaker 2: set of friends that are going to help keep you
[44:43] Speaker 2: in the right direction, because it's easy to be influenced
[44:47] Speaker 2: and steered in many different ways. But I would also
[44:51] Speaker 2: say to have fun, you know, enjoy these years because
[44:55] Speaker 2: once you get out of college, that's when.
[44:56] Speaker 1: The real real worlds.
[45:00] Speaker 13: Think.
[45:00] Speaker 2: These are the years where you learn how to balance life.
[45:03] Speaker 2: You know, you learn how to manage time management. It's
[45:05] Speaker 2: very important in college, and I think you need to
[45:08] Speaker 2: make sure that you're learning everything that you need to
[45:10] Speaker 2: put in your toolbox.
[45:11] Speaker 1: For when it's time to graduate. Those are the things
[45:14] Speaker 1: I would say. And then also it's as always keep
[45:17] Speaker 1: God first. Try to find a church home if you
[45:19] Speaker 1: don't already have one in DC, because that's also important.
[45:23] Speaker 2: That was one thing that I was raising the church,
[45:26] Speaker 2: and as soon as I got to school.
[45:27] Speaker 1: That's the first thing I stopped doing was going to church.
[45:30] Speaker 1: But it wasn't. It was my sophomore year, and God said,
[45:33] Speaker 1: he yanked me real quick.
[45:35] Speaker 15: It's so funny because because of you, I started watching
[45:38] Speaker 15: Change and it, Oh my god, this sermon.
[45:45] Speaker 2: Oh this serious alterations day.
[45:49] Speaker 1: Yeah.
[45:50] Speaker 3: Crazy.
[45:50] Speaker 15: It was so good to thank you for. But yeah,
[45:55] Speaker 15: that was that was my only question. I just wanted
[45:58] Speaker 15: to say hi and think, thank you for it for
[46:02] Speaker 15: I don't know if you can see it, but this
[46:04] Speaker 15: was us this time last year.
[46:06] Speaker 2: Well oh my yes, wow, thank you so much for
[46:13] Speaker 2: even coming to the game.
[46:15] Speaker 1: I appreciate that. That means so much.
[46:18] Speaker 3: Yeah, and I wish you the best as well.
[46:23] Speaker 1: Thank you.
[46:24] Speaker 2: I wish you the best, and I hope that you
[46:26] Speaker 2: take my advice. I hope it was good advice for
[46:28] Speaker 2: you and something that you can use and take with you.
[46:30] Speaker 2: But I wish you the best. You keep shining and
[46:33] Speaker 2: best of luck in college. These are the best years.
[46:35] Speaker 1: So enjoying it. Thank you, You're welcome. Love Come on March,
[46:43] Speaker 1: she said, y'all gonna see this merch.
[46:45] Speaker 3: I know that my wait out and drop it.
[46:48] Speaker 7: Look.
[46:51] Speaker 1: I love it. Yes, thank you so much. Hi, how
[46:56] Speaker 1: are you doing.
[46:58] Speaker 8: I'm good.
[46:58] Speaker 3: I'm good.
[47:00] Speaker 7: Actually going from Baltimore.
[47:02] Speaker 1: Okay, I rely.
[47:09] Speaker 11: I moved to Atlanta two months ago.
[47:12] Speaker 1: Okay, well, welcome to the a thank you.
[47:15] Speaker 11: I come every year. I even came to grind Pritty.
[47:17] Speaker 11: I got a picture too.
[47:19] Speaker 1: Oh wow, yes, I gotta get back to this. I
[47:22] Speaker 1: was skinty then.
[47:24] Speaker 3: Yes, It's just a couple of things. Now.
[47:28] Speaker 6: I'm not going to hold you a long.
[47:30] Speaker 1: What's going on?
[47:31] Speaker 4: I like, my mom is.
[47:32] Speaker 11: She just turned seventy and I was able to give
[47:34] Speaker 11: her like this big old birthday party, like all my
[47:37] Speaker 11: family came and it was a big thing.
[47:40] Speaker 3: So I'm like, how am I going to do this?
[47:42] Speaker 4: Move into Atlanta, all this?
[47:43] Speaker 11: You know, just everything just so expensive here. So I'm like, God,
[47:47] Speaker 11: whatever you're playing is for me, Just let it be
[47:49] Speaker 11: for me. So I had to just take on that
[47:53] Speaker 11: and just move with all my life with that. But
[47:56] Speaker 11: I'm like, how do I feel now? Like and I
[47:58] Speaker 11: checked on her like mine, you are okay?
[48:00] Speaker 3: Like you okay living by yourself now?
[48:01] Speaker 11: And she's like, don I'm okay, I'm fine, but it's
[48:04] Speaker 11: like me shocking to her. But it was hard, but
[48:12] Speaker 11: you know, it's all in my waiting season. I'm okay
[48:16] Speaker 11: with accepting the new changes that I have in my life,
[48:19] Speaker 11: like moving here by myself without family and out friends,
[48:23] Speaker 11: Like I talked to my friends like all day and.
[48:25] Speaker 8: I'm like, yo, should just come and just come down
[48:27] Speaker 8: here and move.
[48:27] Speaker 3: With me, like I just need it up.
[48:32] Speaker 4: But you know, you know that's okay too.
[48:34] Speaker 11: So I'm just trying to figure out how I can't
[48:38] Speaker 11: continue to grow knowing I know God is preparing me
[48:43] Speaker 11: right now to start over. I felt like a couple
[48:47] Speaker 11: of years ago, like everything, because I felt like I
[48:49] Speaker 11: didn't appreciate what God has given me. I had my apartment,
[48:52] Speaker 11: I had my car, I had everything I wanted.
[48:55] Speaker 4: But I didn't appreciate it.
[48:58] Speaker 11: I was like, okay, what's like everything was stripped away.
[49:01] Speaker 11: I total my car, I lost my apartment, I had
[49:05] Speaker 11: to find another job, like I had to start over,
[49:08] Speaker 11: start over. So I'm like now I just feel like
[49:12] Speaker 11: I'm just waiting, Like God stripped me off of everything
[49:15] Speaker 11: and now he's allowing me to behold again and I've
[49:19] Speaker 11: accepted that.
[49:21] Speaker 1: Yeah, So I'm just I don't know, like.
[49:24] Speaker 11: I've just been having these dreams like about my family
[49:26] Speaker 11: and stuff and I'm like every time I feel like
[49:29] Speaker 11: I'm being uncertain, like I'm uncertain of things or what's
[49:32] Speaker 11: next or what's next the car, I'm like, God, just
[49:35] Speaker 11: help me out. He'll always send his angels in my dreams,
[49:37] Speaker 11: Like my family, They're always in my dream and they
[49:41] Speaker 11: always smiling and had be like it's never nothing said.
[49:44] Speaker 11: And I talked to my mom about it and she
[49:46] Speaker 11: was like, it's okay, and I said, I know, I
[49:49] Speaker 11: know it's I know it's okay, but just trying to
[49:53] Speaker 11: like move forward and be okay and be in the
[49:56] Speaker 11: rooms where I want to be.
[49:59] Speaker 1: Like when you say you want to be, yeah, I was,
[50:03] Speaker 1: what do you want to do?
[50:05] Speaker 11: And I was like Crystal, like everybody like loved doing you,
[50:08] Speaker 11: like you show so much love to everybody that was there.
[50:11] Speaker 11: You wasn't like, oh I'm not taking off, but you
[50:12] Speaker 11: took a picture, but everybody you was.
[50:14] Speaker 6: Dancing like he was you.
[50:17] Speaker 8: And then I had the.
[50:19] Speaker 11: And Zinga's event that she had like three weeks ago,
[50:23] Speaker 11: and it's the same thing. I'm like, everybody just love
[50:27] Speaker 11: on them unconditionally, and they love on everybody else. So
[50:30] Speaker 11: like surrounding yourself with people that really care for you,
[50:33] Speaker 11: and love you like I just was just sitting there like,
[50:36] Speaker 11: oh my goodness.
[50:38] Speaker 1: Yeah, it's a beautiful thing.
[50:41] Speaker 2: But I really believe that what you give is what
[50:43] Speaker 2: you get, you know. And when it comes to like
[50:46] Speaker 2: the waiting season and you feel like you're starting over,
[50:50] Speaker 2: I'm not sure if you are on the last live
[50:51] Speaker 2: that I just did.
[50:55] Speaker 1: You miss it? Okay? So there was this young lady
[50:57] Speaker 1: that she's like, Crystal, I just feel like I can't
[50:59] Speaker 1: catch a break, Like I just keep getting knocked down.
[51:01] Speaker 1: It's one thing after another.
[51:03] Speaker 2: And I said a lot of times when God is
[51:05] Speaker 2: trying to get your attention, he'll have to sit you down.
[51:09] Speaker 2: And in the sitting down, you can't get knocked down
[51:11] Speaker 2: if you're sitting down, you know.
[51:14] Speaker 1: And it was a word in that moment.
[51:17] Speaker 2: And a word that still rings true is that oftentimes
[51:20] Speaker 2: when God really needs you to hear him, because we
[51:22] Speaker 2: don't hear him when we're busy doing everything, sometimes he
[51:25] Speaker 2: has to sit us down so he can really give
[51:27] Speaker 2: us the guidance to He knows where we want to go,
[51:29] Speaker 2: he knows what we want to do, and if it's
[51:31] Speaker 2: in his will, he's going to make those things happen.
[51:34] Speaker 2: But in order for you to know where to go,
[51:36] Speaker 2: sometimes you have to be still, and I feel like
[51:38] Speaker 2: that is where you are.
[51:39] Speaker 1: And honestly, the.
[51:40] Speaker 2: Waiting season is the best season because what's on the
[51:43] Speaker 2: other side of that is you're already being prepared for
[51:46] Speaker 2: that right now in this waiting season.
[51:49] Speaker 1: Yeah, and it's so beautiful on the other side of it.
[51:51] Speaker 1: I can tell you that.
[51:53] Speaker 8: Yes, yes, you are so welcome.
[51:58] Speaker 1: Thank you. Nice to me, to you too. Thank you
[52:01] Speaker 1: so much for your support, and thanks for taking time
[52:04] Speaker 1: to talk to me today. I really appreciate it.
[52:07] Speaker 8: Yeah, I had like ten minutes.
[52:08] Speaker 4: I got off at four thirty. I said, oh, I
[52:09] Speaker 4: got an email.
[52:10] Speaker 3: Let me, how are your focus on the put my
[52:12] Speaker 3: head on. I'm gonna show time.
[52:15] Speaker 1: You did that, and I appreciate that. Thank you so much.
[52:20] Speaker 1: Have a good one by hi. Just get out of school. No,
[52:27] Speaker 1: I'm at work, and are you at work? I thought
[52:30] Speaker 1: I saw a backpacks very.
[52:31] Speaker 16: Much aggravating me right now, trying to put nobody out
[52:36] Speaker 16: because they really aggravated me.
[52:37] Speaker 1: Oh no, we're not doing it.
[52:39] Speaker 16: We're not We're not gonna do it.
[52:40] Speaker 3: We're not gonna do it because that's what.
[52:46] Speaker 1: Because that's it's you said because that's what we're gonna do.
[52:49] Speaker 17: I got a girl, nay, I mean my name is
[52:58] Speaker 17: the age the name, but you had a room the
[53:00] Speaker 17: last time, so we don't stick with names.
[53:05] Speaker 1: So now I'm good for butchering the name.
[53:08] Speaker 16: So we're gonna stick with name right now because I no,
[53:13] Speaker 16: it's it's beautiful.
[53:15] Speaker 1: What's going on there beside these people working your nerves
[53:21] Speaker 1: and I don't even get off until seven.
[53:22] Speaker 16: But it's it's cool.
[53:25] Speaker 4: They don't need me, but it's just it's cool. It's
[53:28] Speaker 4: it's good.
[53:30] Speaker 1: Okay, is there anything you wanted to ask me?
[53:34] Speaker 16: What I want to act is as your younger self
[53:38] Speaker 16: because I'm twenty four. How do you get your child's
[53:42] Speaker 16: at tremble? Because with me, my life is baking down.
[53:48] Speaker 16: My mama I don't with her. I don't know who
[53:51] Speaker 16: my dad is because who I know him is but
[53:53] Speaker 16: I don't know him either, So it's like I don't.
[53:57] Speaker 4: Know where my life is going.
[54:00] Speaker 16: If it's a time where I'm going up, I don't
[54:03] Speaker 16: want to say it but take my life away. But
[54:08] Speaker 16: it's like I don't know because it's like I want
[54:11] Speaker 16: a relation to my mom, but it's like things is hard.
[54:14] Speaker 16: So it's like I don't know where to start. Yeah,
[54:18] Speaker 16: it's like at point, at some point a time, I
[54:20] Speaker 16: do give up.
[54:21] Speaker 6: I'll be trying to like I don't know.
[54:25] Speaker 4: Well.
[54:27] Speaker 1: When it comes to childhood trauma, it can be something
[54:31] Speaker 1: that's very hard to navigate, especially when you don't have
[54:35] Speaker 1: the guidance from a parent or a guardian to help
[54:38] Speaker 1: you navigate, because a lot of that comes from from
[54:41] Speaker 1: them and the explanations of things that you need to
[54:43] Speaker 1: be able to heal. You can't get that if you
[54:46] Speaker 1: don't have that relationship with them. And I'm guessing therapy
[54:52] Speaker 1: right now is probably not an option.
[54:54] Speaker 2: But do you have anybody that you look up to,
[54:57] Speaker 2: like an aunt or a grandmother, someone that you could
[55:01] Speaker 2: like really sit down and talk to that really loves you,
[55:04] Speaker 2: that you can just even share how you're feeling.
[55:07] Speaker 1: Because when it comes to.
[55:10] Speaker 2: Having suicidal thoughts, I had those when I was a kid,
[55:14] Speaker 2: and I've been open about that. But I look back
[55:18] Speaker 2: now and I thank God every single day that I
[55:21] Speaker 2: did not do that, because you don't know what God
[55:24] Speaker 2: has ahead of you, And I look at so many
[55:27] Speaker 2: people that have gone to do amazing things.
[55:30] Speaker 1: The upbringing was not the best.
[55:33] Speaker 2: They have stories that are when people look at it like,
[55:35] Speaker 2: oh my goodness, how do they overcome that?
[55:38] Speaker 1: But it's because they were destined for greatness.
[55:40] Speaker 2: And the fact that you're even asking how do I
[55:43] Speaker 2: get over childhood trauma lets him know that there's something
[55:46] Speaker 2: great in store for you and that God is on
[55:48] Speaker 2: your heart and he's working on you. I would like
[55:52] Speaker 2: to see with JB if there's a therapist that we
[55:56] Speaker 2: can connect her with that we can pay for, because
[56:01] Speaker 2: this is serious. Can we get her information? We want
[56:07] Speaker 2: to help you, okay Nae. I want to make sure
[56:09] Speaker 2: that you have all the support that you need. That's
[56:12] Speaker 2: what this community is about. My foundation, the Christine Hayes.
[56:15] Speaker 1: The Foundation is really big on mental health, and we
[56:20] Speaker 1: don't put enough emphasis on it and enough care behind
[56:24] Speaker 1: it to know that we need to talk to people
[56:26] Speaker 1: in order to move in the order that we should
[56:28] Speaker 1: be moving in life.
[56:29] Speaker 2: And it's something that can really hold you back. And
[56:31] Speaker 2: I don't want you to get held back in any
[56:33] Speaker 2: kind of way. So however I can help you, I'm
[56:35] Speaker 2: going to do that, afraid.
[56:39] Speaker 6: Yes, y yes man?
[56:41] Speaker 4: Hi?
[56:41] Speaker 6: How are you beautiful woman?
[56:43] Speaker 1: Wonderful Miss Chris.
[56:44] Speaker 5: I'm so nervous right now, I didn't even think I
[56:46] Speaker 5: would ever get this opportunity. It's just occasions. But yeah,
[56:54] Speaker 5: I'm so happy to be here. And this is why
[56:58] Speaker 5: people are drawn to you. Yeah, what you just did
[57:01] Speaker 5: for that young lady. All I can say is, my God,
[57:06] Speaker 5: your heart, your glow, your energy, your strength, it's nothing
[57:13] Speaker 5: like it.
[57:13] Speaker 6: I've never seen nothing like it.
[57:16] Speaker 5: And I you know, I started watching Sisters, I think
[57:20] Speaker 5: season two, and when I looked at you, I said,
[57:23] Speaker 5: it's something special about this young lady. It got nothing
[57:26] Speaker 5: to do with a character that she plays, but it's
[57:29] Speaker 5: about your character of.
[57:31] Speaker 6: Who you are. Come on, and I said, my.
[57:35] Speaker 5: God, there are so many levels you have yet to
[57:39] Speaker 5: reach that God is about to catapult you.
[57:42] Speaker 6: Into your evangelism work. That's what I'm gonna call it.
[57:46] Speaker 5: This is evangelism work that you do when you reach
[57:51] Speaker 5: out to people, when your impact on people's lives is
[57:56] Speaker 5: so amazing. And this birdie took everything I wanted to
[58:00] Speaker 5: say right right out of my mouth. There's days I'm
[58:05] Speaker 5: sitting here and I'm like, why is this woman on
[58:07] Speaker 5: my mind?
[58:08] Speaker 6: She don't know me from.
[58:09] Speaker 5: A hole in the world, but yet I feel the
[58:11] Speaker 5: need to drop a prayer for her, and it maybe
[58:16] Speaker 5: days that you may be even feeling down, no wondering why,
[58:20] Speaker 5: which way is up, whatever the situation may be.
[58:23] Speaker 6: But God plants you on my heart and I have
[58:25] Speaker 6: to say a silent prayer for Crystal in there, hazelet
[58:29] Speaker 6: because your heart is so pure.
[58:31] Speaker 5: See that Jesus in me loves it, Jesus in you.
[58:35] Speaker 6: Oh my God, you have no idea what's ahead of you.
[58:41] Speaker 5: You've been protected all your life, even before you left
[58:44] Speaker 5: your mother's room.
[58:45] Speaker 6: You will protect it.
[58:47] Speaker 5: God has had you, and he's gonna continue to keep you,
[58:51] Speaker 5: and you're going to continue.
[58:52] Speaker 6: To grow and grow and grow and grow because of
[58:55] Speaker 6: your heart and because of your heart for God. You
[59:00] Speaker 6: know what.
[59:01] Speaker 5: I can go on a tangent sometime because I am
[59:03] Speaker 5: a minister in the gospel and try to be cool sometimes,
[59:08] Speaker 5: but sometimes it's hard. When God places on my heart,
[59:11] Speaker 5: I have to say it. Yes, yeah, yes, I definitely
[59:15] Speaker 5: have to say it. And I wanted to say to
[59:17] Speaker 5: you a long time too. Write that book. Don't be
[59:20] Speaker 5: afraid right that book. I DMed you a while ago
[59:26] Speaker 5: and I said, just write it.
[59:29] Speaker 1: Mm hmm.
[59:30] Speaker 5: Let the Lord use you because there's somebody that needs
[59:32] Speaker 5: to hear your story deeper than what you have said
[59:35] Speaker 5: on your platform. Write that book, don't be afraid write it. Yes,
[59:42] Speaker 5: God got you.
[59:43] Speaker 6: And there's something that we have in common, you know,
[59:46] Speaker 6: young man channel More.
[59:48] Speaker 1: Yes, that's my brother. I love you. Yeah.
[59:51] Speaker 6: Yeah. I used to sing with his father, Bishop David.
[59:55] Speaker 5: Yes, ma'am, yes, wow, yeah, I'm from Mount Running, York
[1:00:00] Speaker 5: and we used to have a group called.
[1:00:01] Speaker 6: The Mount Burning Community Choir.
[1:00:04] Speaker 3: Uh.
[1:00:04] Speaker 5: We was Yeah, I'm old, I'm old, lady, I'm sixty three.
[1:00:07] Speaker 5: And that's it startling. It started way back then.
[1:00:13] Speaker 4: And then.
[1:00:15] Speaker 5: I remember when he was in his mama's room. But yeah, uh,
[1:00:20] Speaker 5: he's amazing. God all wrapped up around that young man.
[1:00:25] Speaker 1: He has yet to see things too.
[1:00:30] Speaker 5: You know, that songwriting and that him, that all came
[1:00:32] Speaker 5: from his daddy. I know, I know, Yes, that's amazing.
[1:00:37] Speaker 5: And I just moved here to Atlanta about eight months
[1:00:40] Speaker 5: ago after I retired, and.
[1:00:43] Speaker 6: My little homie, I called him, my little homie. Brittany
[1:00:46] Speaker 6: introduced me to your church, changed church, and I yes,
[1:00:50] Speaker 6: and I've been going that man, that man, that preaching man,
[1:00:54] Speaker 6: that preaching man. I cannot, I cannot stop growing. I
[1:01:00] Speaker 6: have yet to join. It's still you know. God is
[1:01:03] Speaker 6: still working on me, but it may happen. I don't know.
[1:01:09] Speaker 6: I'm still searching.
[1:01:10] Speaker 5: I'm still trying to find a church on where I
[1:01:14] Speaker 5: can utilize the ministry that God has placed on me. Yes,
[1:01:18] Speaker 5: and I thank you, miss Crystal. I thank you for
[1:01:22] Speaker 5: being such an impact on my life as well.
[1:01:28] Speaker 1: Yeah.
[1:01:29] Speaker 5: I watch how you walk, I watch what you do
[1:01:32] Speaker 5: with so much integrity, and that glow is mind blowing.
[1:01:38] Speaker 5: When I first met you at your first KIPT Live
[1:01:41] Speaker 5: show down here in Atlanta and I walked up.
[1:01:43] Speaker 3: To you, only thing I could say to you was
[1:01:46] Speaker 3: You're just amazing.
[1:01:49] Speaker 18: Because that glows stopped me. I'm like, whoa, ain't nobody
[1:01:52] Speaker 18: got to glow like that? Lord, what is you doing
[1:01:54] Speaker 18: with this woman? Mold her and make her after your
[1:01:57] Speaker 18: divine will? And that's what he's said.
[1:02:00] Speaker 1: Yes, he is. Thank you. Thank you don't know how
[1:02:03] Speaker 1: much you are affirming in me today. Thank you.
[1:02:06] Speaker 5: Yes, Yes, and I thank you so much for just
[1:02:08] Speaker 5: taking out this time and this opportunity to speak to
[1:02:12] Speaker 5: speak with your sweeties.
[1:02:14] Speaker 1: You guys so much to me. Yes, yeah, yeah, I
[1:02:18] Speaker 1: really do.
[1:02:19] Speaker 5: Like no, definitely, yeah, definitely, support you, support your shows,
[1:02:23] Speaker 5: everything that you do and like I said before, eyes
[1:02:27] Speaker 5: have not seen, ears have not heard what God is
[1:02:30] Speaker 5: about to do and where he is about to take you.
[1:02:34] Speaker 5: He's using you as for such a time as this.
[1:02:37] Speaker 5: And thank you for being you, keep.
[1:02:39] Speaker 6: On being real.
[1:02:42] Speaker 1: Thank you, thank you so much.
[1:02:47] Speaker 6: Thank you praying for you, praying for you, praying for you.
[1:02:50] Speaker 6: And know that no.
[1:02:51] Speaker 5: Weapon formed against you shall have a prosper Those who's
[1:02:54] Speaker 5: trying to pray for your downfall.
[1:02:57] Speaker 6: It ain't gonna happen. If anything hate. This ain't nothing
[1:03:01] Speaker 6: but elevators. It's just gonna keep elevating.
[1:03:03] Speaker 1: You come one. I received that. Thank you, Yes, ma'am.
[1:03:08] Speaker 6: You have a beautiful rest of your evening. Thank you
[1:03:11] Speaker 6: so much.
[1:03:13] Speaker 2: Oh, thank you, thank you so much. Pastraina dreams come
[1:03:21] Speaker 2: on in.
[1:03:22] Speaker 1: You're not driving this, you know.
[1:03:24] Speaker 4: I'm sitting in my coat. Baby, I just my grand
[1:03:27] Speaker 4: baby being born to day.
[1:03:28] Speaker 1: Hey then I just on your face.
[1:03:34] Speaker 4: That's so crazy. You had a grand baby born, a girl,
[1:03:39] Speaker 4: a baby girl.
[1:03:40] Speaker 1: Just all congratulations.
[1:03:43] Speaker 4: They calling me for food. I say, you gotta way.
[1:03:49] Speaker 1: It's so good to see your face.
[1:03:52] Speaker 3: Listen, what are the odds of me being picked?
[1:03:57] Speaker 1: Listen, God knew because you are definitely one of my
[1:04:01] Speaker 1: biggest supporters.
[1:04:02] Speaker 3: Yeah.
[1:04:03] Speaker 19: Look, and the thing is, I want to just say this,
[1:04:09] Speaker 19: this week marks the week of me wanting to take
[1:04:15] Speaker 19: my life.
[1:04:17] Speaker 4: And what stopped me.
[1:04:20] Speaker 19: Was I looked at I was watching a podcast with
[1:04:24] Speaker 19: You and Evil, right, and the way I mean, the
[1:04:29] Speaker 19: way Eva was talking and the way she was like
[1:04:33] Speaker 19: basically saying like Crystal, like I called you, you know
[1:04:38] Speaker 19: because I needed you, and that you was like girl.
[1:04:40] Speaker 4: Way. But I was in a.
[1:04:41] Speaker 19: Closet crime before I came out here to sit with you.
[1:04:46] Speaker 4: But that morning I woke up. That morning, I woke
[1:04:49] Speaker 4: up and it.
[1:04:50] Speaker 19: Was like I just was feeling donk donk dark, and
[1:04:55] Speaker 19: I woke up.
[1:04:57] Speaker 4: And something just saying kid yourself.
[1:05:01] Speaker 19: I walked in my bathroom and I looked on my
[1:05:04] Speaker 19: counter and I had forty flex a rills, Right, So
[1:05:08] Speaker 19: I said, I'm gonna go I'm gonna go.
[1:05:10] Speaker 4: Ahead the work.
[1:05:11] Speaker 19: I said, I'm gonna go ahead the work, and I'm
[1:05:13] Speaker 19: gonna just come back home and just take the pills
[1:05:17] Speaker 19: and let my children find me in my bedroom.
[1:05:20] Speaker 17: Right.
[1:05:21] Speaker 4: So I was like listening to the podcast on the way.
[1:05:24] Speaker 19: To work, crying, crying, just just balling crying.
[1:05:29] Speaker 4: When I got to work, just crying.
[1:05:31] Speaker 19: They had some important people at the job, right, so
[1:05:35] Speaker 19: they was like, what what's the matter.
[1:05:38] Speaker 4: I was like I just can't. I can't, like, I just.
[1:05:41] Speaker 19: Can't get it. And it was like we just go
[1:05:44] Speaker 19: in the yard. I went in the yard and fell
[1:05:46] Speaker 19: to my knees and just asked God, like what is
[1:05:50] Speaker 19: going on? Because man, God wrestles, you know, Man, God
[1:05:53] Speaker 19: be in the field. And I was like, bro, like
[1:05:57] Speaker 19: what are you doing to me? Like what is it?
[1:06:00] Speaker 19: And he was like, I just need you to just
[1:06:04] Speaker 19: be still. When the like the young lady says I had,
[1:06:09] Speaker 19: I was like that girl here in my city.
[1:06:11] Speaker 4: I'm from New Orleans. I was that girl. I'm that
[1:06:14] Speaker 4: girl when I tell your God took.
[1:06:16] Speaker 19: Everything away from me job, I mean, God had to
[1:06:21] Speaker 19: humble me, and I think.
[1:06:24] Speaker 4: That's why I wanted to.
[1:06:28] Speaker 1: Like ended.
[1:06:29] Speaker 19: But when I was like basically when I started listening
[1:06:36] Speaker 19: more to y'all talk, I was like that, I mean,
[1:06:41] Speaker 19: I mean I can't like no. I was like, oh,
[1:06:44] Speaker 19: I promise you. Whatever I'm not doing, I need you
[1:06:47] Speaker 19: to show me. And it's so hard for me to
[1:06:49] Speaker 19: see because I see past you understand people that goes
[1:06:54] Speaker 19: over people head and what I did.
[1:06:58] Speaker 1: I went home.
[1:07:00] Speaker 19: I took them pills and I flushed them pills down
[1:07:03] Speaker 19: the toilet and I was like, man, I said, Lord, please,
[1:07:08] Speaker 19: I said, I promise, I'm gonna be like I lost
[1:07:10] Speaker 19: faith in God and everything, girl, like everything that I
[1:07:13] Speaker 19: had got.
[1:07:14] Speaker 4: I was like, oh, thank you God.
[1:07:15] Speaker 19: But it wasn't God, girl, I just felt like it
[1:07:17] Speaker 19: was me, like cause I was bawling.
[1:07:19] Speaker 4: I had this. I had that.
[1:07:20] Speaker 19: That's why I laugh at you. I mean, when I
[1:07:24] Speaker 19: type the thing in about the bag, I was like that,
[1:07:28] Speaker 19: that's me.
[1:07:28] Speaker 4: That's that.
[1:07:29] Speaker 19: I'm that girl like going through the But that's why
[1:07:32] Speaker 19: I mess with you about the unboxing and stuff.
[1:07:35] Speaker 3: You know.
[1:07:37] Speaker 19: One thing that you did, you encouraged me to write
[1:07:41] Speaker 19: my book. I wrote a book, and my book is
[1:07:45] Speaker 19: about My book is about relationship trauma and mental illness because,
[1:07:52] Speaker 19: like I said, I went through it was in an
[1:07:54] Speaker 19: abusive relationship that nobody knew, Nobody like I hit that
[1:08:00] Speaker 19: for eighteen years with a man that I thought loved me,
[1:08:04] Speaker 19: but all he did was control me.
[1:08:06] Speaker 4: But that was my I stayed because I didn't want
[1:08:09] Speaker 4: to be alone.
[1:08:10] Speaker 1: You know.
[1:08:11] Speaker 4: So I've been celibrating now for three years. It's hard.
[1:08:15] Speaker 19: Oh, my god, Jesus, Oh my god, Oh my god,
[1:08:19] Speaker 19: Jesus is right, Jesus.
[1:08:23] Speaker 4: I was like, what is going on?
[1:08:25] Speaker 19: But you know, like I said, I just like, man,
[1:08:31] Speaker 19: I really I really mess with I can't curse, but
[1:08:34] Speaker 19: you know, us from New Orleans, that's what we do.
[1:08:36] Speaker 1: But you know.
[1:08:40] Speaker 14: That's what you need.
[1:08:42] Speaker 1: And oh I appreciate that too.
[1:08:49] Speaker 19: And they were always talking about y'all always were Crystal
[1:08:52] Speaker 19: and no lies, Crystal always well we at because y'all
[1:08:54] Speaker 19: don't get it to the end, thank you.
[1:08:57] Speaker 4: Y'all don't get it. So guess what y'all with a
[1:09:01] Speaker 4: week before Notice, baby, we've been.
[1:09:03] Speaker 19: The tickets have been ever my crystal, b baby, I
[1:09:09] Speaker 19: love it.
[1:09:10] Speaker 1: That's right that.
[1:09:14] Speaker 19: We need you to drop the rolls because we need
[1:09:17] Speaker 19: them for the boat. Because we got we're gonna have a.
[1:09:19] Speaker 1: Thing for the boat. We need feeling.
[1:09:24] Speaker 4: Yeah, because we got all.
[1:09:27] Speaker 1: So I got you, and you know I love y'all.
[1:09:35] Speaker 1: Take you.
[1:09:36] Speaker 4: Remember you told me you was going mentor me.
[1:09:38] Speaker 1: I'm waiting, okay, it's having right now. We got started.
[1:09:43] Speaker 1: We just got started.
[1:09:45] Speaker 2: I'm right now. Yes, I'm so proudy I really am.
[1:09:50] Speaker 4: All right, And get the three books. Look out and
[1:09:53] Speaker 4: gave you three books. Go find them.
[1:09:57] Speaker 1: Okay, you did little You all right, Chris, I love
[1:10:06] Speaker 1: you too, Thank you, Bye bye bye. Hey ex Where
[1:10:16] Speaker 1: are you from.
[1:10:19] Speaker 20: I'm from Buffalo, New York, but I now live in Lula, Georgia.
[1:10:24] Speaker 2: Okay, awesome, amazing, I thought I heard an accent.
[1:10:28] Speaker 20: Yeah. I just want to tell you something. I was
[1:10:32] Speaker 20: a teacher for forty two years. I recently retired, and
[1:10:36] Speaker 20: every day I would put this on the board, and
[1:10:39] Speaker 20: every day my kids would read this.
[1:10:43] Speaker 3: It's from Maya Angelou.
[1:10:45] Speaker 20: It was like, because the kids, the kids that I taught,
[1:10:51] Speaker 20: were all of color, so let's put a manly and
[1:10:54] Speaker 20: I wanted them to accept me for who I was.
[1:10:57] Speaker 1: Yes, And so I would put this on.
[1:11:00] Speaker 20: The board and every day we'd read it together. You
[1:11:03] Speaker 20: may shoot me with your words, you may cut me
[1:11:05] Speaker 20: with your eyes, you may kill me with your hatefulness,
[1:11:08] Speaker 20: but still like air eye rise, and you are the
[1:11:12] Speaker 20: perfect example of that. I want you to know that
[1:11:16] Speaker 20: I wish so much.
[1:11:18] Speaker 4: That I could.
[1:11:20] Speaker 20: That I could show kids what you've done with your
[1:11:22] Speaker 20: life in a way I know I can't show them, sisters,
[1:11:25] Speaker 20: I know I can't do that, but that role model
[1:11:30] Speaker 20: you play you are my alter ego. When I become angry,
[1:11:34] Speaker 20: I'm Fatima. Okay, so it's just I love the hell
[1:11:41] Speaker 20: out of you.
[1:11:42] Speaker 1: Okay, Oh thank you.
[1:11:45] Speaker 20: I'm a caregiver right now for my husband and so
[1:11:49] Speaker 20: sisters and Zactima just bring me joy that I need.
[1:11:56] Speaker 1: My life so much.
[1:11:58] Speaker 3: I love to hear it.
[1:12:00] Speaker 1: We got a new sign coming out Wednesday.
[1:12:03] Speaker 20: Yes, I'm really excited about that. A friend of mine
[1:12:07] Speaker 20: told me I needed to watch it. I've been watching it.
[1:12:11] Speaker 20: I first watched Harlem, and then when that was over,
[1:12:14] Speaker 20: I was like, oh no, what am I going to
[1:12:16] Speaker 20: watch next?
[1:12:17] Speaker 1: And I found Just and it was so good.
[1:12:21] Speaker 20: I'm really I don't mean to be offensive, but I'm
[1:12:24] Speaker 20: really tired of white watching white people on TV all
[1:12:29] Speaker 20: the time. It's just become a thing for me because
[1:12:34] Speaker 20: I was you know, I was brought up Italian American
[1:12:37] Speaker 20: and my mother would always say, we are not white,
[1:12:40] Speaker 20: we are not Caucasian, we are outlive. So I feel
[1:12:44] Speaker 20: like I don't fit in anywhere, you know, And so
[1:12:48] Speaker 20: for you to be who you are and to show
[1:12:55] Speaker 20: the strength, it's strength, that's all it is. And I
[1:12:59] Speaker 20: love the strength and it helps me because in my
[1:13:03] Speaker 20: situation it gives me strength.
[1:13:05] Speaker 1: Wow, thank you so much.
[1:13:07] Speaker 4: Thank you.
[1:13:09] Speaker 20: You're welcome, thank you, thank you.
[1:13:11] Speaker 2: You are just a bright light and I appreciate you.
[1:13:13] Speaker 2: Thank you for your support. I'm glad that our shows
[1:13:17] Speaker 2: can be a little sense of relief and peace for you,
[1:13:19] Speaker 2: so that means so much.
[1:13:22] Speaker 20: Well, thank you for doing what you do outside of
[1:13:25] Speaker 20: just you know, your acting.
[1:13:27] Speaker 1: Yes, ma'am.
[1:13:28] Speaker 8: Everything that you do to help.
[1:13:30] Speaker 1: With mental health and.
[1:13:33] Speaker 20: Whatever you can do is great, especially for women, especially
[1:13:37] Speaker 20: for women of color, because you've taught me how white
[1:13:40] Speaker 20: privilege can be a damnation to them. So thank you, thank.
[1:13:46] Speaker 1: You, Yes, ma'am, thank you. I appreciate you.
[1:13:50] Speaker 4: I appreciate you too.
[1:13:52] Speaker 1: Have a wonderful day you too. Thank you so much.
[1:13:56] Speaker 1: I love you, Fatima, I love you too. Miss Mary,
[1:14:03] Speaker 1: bye bye.
[1:14:04] Speaker 18: I love you, love you.
[1:14:16] Speaker 1: Love you, love you, love you love love you.
[1:14:19] Speaker 4: Guys, Hi by.
[1:14:24] Speaker 9: Yay, Thank you so much, Grace.
[1:14:31] Speaker 2: I'm sorry we couldn't get to you guys. I really
[1:14:33] Speaker 2: appreciate you, guys tapping in.
[1:14:35] Speaker 1: I love you guys so much. Thank you for being sweeties.
[1:14:39] Speaker 1: Best reason and here we have gone well over our time.
[1:14:42] Speaker 1: But you know I will.
[1:14:43] Speaker 2: See you guys this week for our or this month
[1:14:45] Speaker 2: for our monthly Live. I cannot wait to check in
[1:14:48] Speaker 2: and see how you guys are doing and let you
[1:14:49] Speaker 2: guys know how I'm doing and keep you all updated.
[1:14:52] Speaker 1: I love you guys so much. Thank you.
[1:14:56] Speaker 8: All right?
[1:15:00] Speaker 1: No real bad, oh Chris, thank you guys so much. Wow,
[1:15:07] Speaker 1: my goodness, I did not know what I was signing
[1:15:11] Speaker 1: up for today.
[1:15:12] Speaker 2: I had no idea. I'm definitely gonna log off today.
[1:15:16] Speaker 2: Full shout out to Ms Bertie. She really really touched
[1:15:22] Speaker 2: my soul. Miss Freda Nay nay. We got you, girl.
[1:15:28] Speaker 2: Don't you worry.
[1:15:28] Speaker 1: We are gonna be in touch. We we meet you to
[1:15:30] Speaker 1: help you need and I want you to know that
[1:15:32] Speaker 1: you have family.
[1:15:33] Speaker 2: May not be blood, but we got you, all right. Guys,
[1:15:37] Speaker 2: thank you so much for tuning in to this episode. Guys,
[1:15:39] Speaker 2: we have to do this again. We have to do
[1:15:41] Speaker 2: this more often.
[1:15:42] Speaker 1: This was so much fun just tapping in with our
[1:15:46] Speaker 1: day ones. Our number ones are sweeties.
[1:15:49] Speaker 4: Wow.
[1:15:50] Speaker 1: Until next time, keep it positive, sweeties. Make sure you
[1:15:53] Speaker 1: share this episode with someone who used a little positivity.
[1:15:56] Speaker 1: I know I needed it today. And then

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