# "Something is Growing in the Tree Where We Buried Our Daughter. It Has Her Face." Creepypasta

An episode of [CreepsMcPasta Creepypasta Radio](https://invisiblenetwork.ai/podcast/1492008134), 9 Jun 2025, 51 min.

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## Transcript

[0:02] Speaker 1: We buried our little girl, Elsie, in the orchard, within
[0:05] Speaker 1: the rows of pear trees. She used to run between
[0:09] Speaker 1: to mark the spot we planted a young sapling that
[0:12] Speaker 1: still had a few years left to bear fruit. She
[0:15] Speaker 1: loved pears more than any child I'd ever met. She'd
[0:19] Speaker 1: eat them, warm and mushy from the branch like it
[0:22] Speaker 1: was the best thing she'd ever tasted. During harvest, she'd
[0:26] Speaker 1: march around to the basket half a size, pointing at
[0:29] Speaker 1: which ones were the good ones, like a tiny dictator,
[0:34] Speaker 1: ah little helper. The morning it happened, she'd been headed
[0:39] Speaker 1: outside to play, the same as always. I remember the
[0:44] Speaker 1: screen door creaked open, then shut, and I heard her
[0:48] Speaker 1: humming to herself, and then the quiet stretched too long.
[0:54] Speaker 1: By lunch time, we couldn't find her, Not in the yard,
[0:58] Speaker 1: not in the house. Marissa checked the barn. I'd checked
[1:02] Speaker 1: the orchards and yelled the name until my throat hurt.
[1:06] Speaker 1: And then I saw the shoe by the pond, sideways
[1:10] Speaker 1: in the mud. Everything after that here's a blur. But
[1:15] Speaker 1: that moment, the shoe, that's the part I still see
[1:20] Speaker 1: when I close my eyes. Marissa didn't talk for a
[1:25] Speaker 1: while at night, she'd curl up on her side of
[1:28] Speaker 1: the bed with Elsie's pajama shirt clutched to her chest.
[1:32] Speaker 1: I lay beside her every night, helpless. I'd hold her
[1:37] Speaker 1: hand or rub her back while my own chest felt
[1:39] Speaker 1: like it was caving in. Her sobs would start quietly,
[1:43] Speaker 1: like she was trying to hold them in for my sake,
[1:47] Speaker 1: and then they'd break loose, spilling out of her like
[1:50] Speaker 1: a flood, and I'd just lay there while my throat
[1:54] Speaker 1: burned with the things I couldn't say. When it was
[1:59] Speaker 1: over and she'd gone still again, I'd pressed my lips
[2:03] Speaker 1: to her forehead and whispered something dumb and small, like
[2:07] Speaker 1: it's okay, I've got you. She never answered, but she
[2:13] Speaker 1: always reached for me. One night, I brought her a
[2:17] Speaker 1: mug of camemle and sat beside her. I silently watched
[2:21] Speaker 1: as she took the mug and held it between her palms.
[2:26] Speaker 1: She loved how you peeled them for her, Marisa said,
[2:29] Speaker 1: Even when I taught her how to do it herself,
[2:32] Speaker 1: she still brought them to you. She liked the way
[2:36] Speaker 1: you sang while you cooked, I said, even when you
[2:39] Speaker 1: were off key, especially then She looked at me then
[2:44] Speaker 1: and something in her face softened. I reached over and
[2:49] Speaker 1: took the piece of her hair behind her ear. She
[2:52] Speaker 1: leaned into my hand. I miss her. She whispered me too,
[2:59] Speaker 1: I said everywhere. She nodded. We sat like that for
[3:06] Speaker 1: a long time, her fingers intertwined with mine, the tea
[3:10] Speaker 1: forgotten and going cold. On the night's end, That was
[3:15] Speaker 1: the night we started talking again. Although things were getting better,
[3:22] Speaker 1: the bills were still there, even though we were starting
[3:26] Speaker 1: to come back to ourselves. The money was going faster
[3:29] Speaker 1: than ever. We saved what we could by bearing Elsie ourselves,
[3:34] Speaker 1: but the tractor needed a belt. The west fence sagged,
[3:37] Speaker 1: and our pump trucks sat dry because fue will cost
[3:40] Speaker 1: more than what we had. But then Graftco knocked on
[3:46] Speaker 1: our door. The man they sent out was named doctor Levin.
[3:52] Speaker 1: He said they found us through a regional yield audit
[3:54] Speaker 1: and flagged our landers having low potential with high legacy viability.
[4:00] Speaker 1: That's the kind of language you only hear from people
[4:03] Speaker 1: who've never swept through the harvest. He explained. They'd fit
[4:07] Speaker 1: our orchard with experimental grafting tech, some kind of bioengineered
[4:12] Speaker 1: root stock that would result in triple yield and bring
[4:15] Speaker 1: the trees back stronger than ever. Mercer asked him if
[4:20] Speaker 1: it were safe. He said, safer than what you're doing now.
[4:26] Speaker 1: Then he told us they'd sponsor the whole thing and
[4:29] Speaker 1: cover installation and materials, and even throw a stipend for
[4:32] Speaker 1: our time. The only condition was access. They'd need to
[4:39] Speaker 1: monitor everything, growth rates, soil conditions, fruit development. It sounded
[4:46] Speaker 1: too good to be real, so we took a few
[4:49] Speaker 1: days to think about what we were signing up for.
[4:52] Speaker 1: If it failed, or if the tech damaged the trees,
[4:56] Speaker 1: stunted the orchard, or left us worse than before, we
[5:00] Speaker 1: couldn't afford to recover from that. But then the stipend
[5:04] Speaker 1: hit the account, just the advanced portion. It was enough
[5:09] Speaker 1: to buy fuel and fix the tractor, so we accepted.
[5:16] Speaker 1: The installation took a weekend. A crew came with crates
[5:19] Speaker 1: of tubing, sleek little graph notes like plugs for a machine,
[5:24] Speaker 1: and boxes labeled with long coats and the graph Co logo.
[5:28] Speaker 1: They moved quickly and were polite and a little too quiet.
[5:33] Speaker 1: Marissaf had coffee. They declined. By Monday. The orchard was different.
[5:42] Speaker 1: The soil had this strange, clean smell like antiseptic. There
[5:46] Speaker 1: were metal caps at the base of each tree, and
[5:49] Speaker 1: thin wires ran under the dirt. Elsie's tree got the
[5:53] Speaker 1: same treatment as the rest. I didn't like it, but
[5:59] Speaker 1: within days the changes started. Buds opened early, leaves spread
[6:04] Speaker 1: wide and fast. It was a miracle. The orchard looked
[6:09] Speaker 1: fuller than it had any right to, and then somehow
[6:14] Speaker 1: the fruit came way ahead of schedule. Elsie's tree bloomed
[6:20] Speaker 1: with the rest. That morning, I stared at a single
[6:24] Speaker 1: bulb hanging off one thin branch, plump green and tiny.
[6:30] Speaker 1: Marissa crouched beside it, eyebrows pinched. That's not right, she said,
[6:37] Speaker 1: it's too early. I said, way too early. What could
[6:42] Speaker 1: they have done to speed it up this much? We
[6:46] Speaker 1: kept her eye on the tiny bulb, expecting it to
[6:48] Speaker 1: fall off ull rot like immature fruit does. But it didn't.
[6:54] Speaker 1: It just kept growing. In week one, the single fruit
[7:01] Speaker 1: swelled faster than anything else in the orchard. It looked
[7:05] Speaker 1: smooth and full, like it had never struggled for sunlight
[7:08] Speaker 1: a day in its life. Marissa kept returning to it,
[7:13] Speaker 1: lingering longer each time, her brow furrowed, like she was
[7:17] Speaker 1: searching for something familiar in its skin. It's round, she said, finally,
[7:24] Speaker 1: frowning a little like baby cheeks. In week two, she
[7:31] Speaker 1: called me over before I'd even set down my coffee.
[7:35] Speaker 1: The fruit had grown bigger, and what started as a
[7:39] Speaker 1: bulb was stretching. There was a soft indent where her
[7:42] Speaker 1: mouth might form. At the very top, the skin curled
[7:46] Speaker 1: into a little twist of green that looked oddly like
[7:49] Speaker 1: a cow lick. Marissa ran her finger gently across the
[7:53] Speaker 1: curve with the fruit, down to what appeared to be
[7:56] Speaker 1: a neck that had begun to formath it, a roundness
[8:02] Speaker 1: that hinted her shoulders. There was a slope to the
[8:05] Speaker 1: body now, the faintest rise of arms pressed close to
[8:09] Speaker 1: her chest. She always had that little swirl and a temple,
[8:15] Speaker 1: Marissa said, quietly. I used to smooth it down every morning,
[8:20] Speaker 1: Remember I did. I remembered how every morning, without fail,
[8:27] Speaker 1: I'd hold Elsie still and Marissa would smooth that stubborn
[8:31] Speaker 1: swirl back in place with a wet thumb. I nodded,
[8:35] Speaker 1: eyes still on the fruit. Yeah, I said softly. You'd
[8:41] Speaker 1: smooth it, and she'd mess it up five minutes later.
[8:46] Speaker 1: But it's just a coincidence. By week three. The fruit
[8:53] Speaker 1: had a distinct face, and there was no denying it.
[8:58] Speaker 1: The rest of the shape had filled to her legs
[9:01] Speaker 1: were there now curled up beneath her in a fetal position,
[9:05] Speaker 1: the toes so delicately formed they looked like they'd twitch
[9:09] Speaker 1: any second. And the whole thing hung there, still and
[9:14] Speaker 1: eerily peaceful, like she was just asleep. Everything inside me
[9:20] Speaker 1: turned heavy. I looked at Marissa, hoping for some shared confusion,
[9:27] Speaker 1: but her eyes were fixed, unblinking as she studied the fruit,
[9:31] Speaker 1: like it might wake up if she waited long enough.
[9:36] Speaker 1: That's her, she said, I don't care if it's green.
[9:41] Speaker 1: That's our girl. She stepped closer, fingers brushing against the
[9:47] Speaker 1: chubby cheeks. I remember when she was this little. Feels
[9:52] Speaker 1: like it was just yesterday, And for a second, standing
[9:57] Speaker 1: there beside her, I believed it too. That night she
[10:05] Speaker 1: didn't come in for dinner. I found her in the dark,
[10:09] Speaker 1: sitting under the tree, cradling the fruit in both arms
[10:13] Speaker 1: like a newborn, her body curved around it protectively, swaying
[10:18] Speaker 1: just slightly, murmuring lullabies. She rocked it with the same
[10:23] Speaker 1: rhythm she used to rock Elsie when she was colocky thumb,
[10:27] Speaker 1: brushing over the curve of the cheek, like she was
[10:29] Speaker 1: soothing a real child back to sleep. From then on,
[10:35] Speaker 1: Marissa barely left the orchard. I'd find her under the
[10:39] Speaker 1: tree with a blanket draped over her lap and a
[10:42] Speaker 1: book open in her hands. She looked alive again, but
[10:47] Speaker 1: something about the fruit didn't feel right. I wanted to
[10:51] Speaker 1: tell her to slow down and that it wasn't normal,
[10:55] Speaker 1: but the words caught in my throat every time kept quiet.
[11:01] Speaker 1: I watched as she treated the fruit like Elsie had
[11:04] Speaker 1: returned to her. She'd became content and sleep without crying
[11:09] Speaker 1: herself to sleep. Sometimes she'd rest her head on my
[11:13] Speaker 1: shoulder like she used to curl into me. She'd squeeze
[11:17] Speaker 1: my hand under the covers and murmur good night before
[11:20] Speaker 1: drifting off. There are even mornings where she'd lean over
[11:24] Speaker 1: and kiss my cheek before getting up to check the fruit.
[11:28] Speaker 1: Her softness in her eyes I thought I'd never see again.
[11:33] Speaker 1: For a while, it felt like maybe the fruit wasn't
[11:36] Speaker 1: so bad. Then Grafco called to schedule a check in.
[11:43] Speaker 1: Marissa's hands shook when she hung up the phone. I
[11:46] Speaker 1: knew something was wrong when she silently walked out to
[11:49] Speaker 1: the orchard and sat under the tree like she was
[11:52] Speaker 1: standing guard. I found her pacing in the kitchen at
[11:55] Speaker 1: three a m. Whispering to herself and swinging shears. They'll
[12:00] Speaker 1: see her, she said, they'll take her. They'll say it
[12:04] Speaker 1: an anomaly, and cut her down. I stepped toward her gently,
[12:09] Speaker 1: shook the shears from her hand, and said, hey, look
[12:13] Speaker 1: at me. She didn't, Marissa, I said again, softer this time.
[12:20] Speaker 1: It's just the check in. They won't take anything. We're
[12:24] Speaker 1: not doing anything wrong. When she finally looked at me,
[12:28] Speaker 1: I saw the fear on her face. You don't know
[12:32] Speaker 1: that they'll see her, they'll cut her down. Paul I
[12:37] Speaker 1: held her face in both hands. I could feel her trembling.
[12:43] Speaker 1: We'll protect her, We'll protect each other. You don't have
[12:46] Speaker 1: to do this alone. I didn't want to lose this
[12:51] Speaker 1: happy version of her, so I let go of her
[12:54] Speaker 1: slowly and handed her back the shears. If it'll make
[12:58] Speaker 1: you feel better, I said, then I'll do it. She
[13:03] Speaker 1: blinked hard, wiped her eyes, and walked out the door
[13:07] Speaker 1: without another word. I followed and watched as she clipped
[13:11] Speaker 1: the fruit from the branch. Her hands caught it gently,
[13:15] Speaker 1: like she was carrying something precious. She cradled it close
[13:19] Speaker 1: to her chest and pulled out a faded yellow cloth
[13:22] Speaker 1: with tiny embroidered ducks. It was one of Elsie's old muslins,
[13:27] Speaker 1: and she swaddled the fruit with it. As she wrapped
[13:31] Speaker 1: it tight, she murmured, you're okay, now we've got you.
[13:37] Speaker 1: No one's going to take you away this time, I promise.
[13:43] Speaker 1: I followed her inside and watched her set it gently
[13:45] Speaker 1: on the counter, still wrapped in the muslin. Her hands hovered.
[13:52] Speaker 1: Something's wrong, she said, voice tight. There was a dark
[13:58] Speaker 1: spot blooming through the fabric. Marissa gasped and fumbled to
[14:03] Speaker 1: and wrap it. A cloth clung to the skin like
[14:06] Speaker 1: it didn't want to let go, and released with a sickening,
[14:09] Speaker 1: tearing noise. Marissa let out a sharp breath and staggered back.
[14:15] Speaker 1: It was rotting fast. The green skin had darkened and
[14:20] Speaker 1: peeled back in places to reveal something underneath that looked
[14:24] Speaker 1: like flesh, pulp and muscle twisted together, tiny teeth budding
[14:30] Speaker 1: where her mouth had been. One eye collapsed in on
[14:33] Speaker 1: itself like it had deflated. Marissa let out a hard,
[14:38] Speaker 1: sob part gag and backed into the corner. I didn't know,
[14:44] Speaker 1: she whispered. I didn't mean to hurt her. Marissa started
[14:48] Speaker 1: full body sobbing. She dropped to the floor beside the counter,
[14:53] Speaker 1: her back pressed to the cabinet, fists against her temples.
[14:58] Speaker 1: I killed her. She choke out. I killed her again.
[15:04] Speaker 1: I dropped aside her and wrapped my arms around her
[15:07] Speaker 1: while she fought me, crying and pushing and begging, no, no, please.
[15:13] Speaker 1: She was getting better, she was almost done. You were
[15:16] Speaker 1: just trying to protect her, I said, my voice shaking.
[15:21] Speaker 1: You did what any mother would do. You loved her
[15:24] Speaker 1: so much it hurts. That's not wrong, Mirsa. She clawed
[15:29] Speaker 1: that her sleeves at her throat, like the grief was
[15:33] Speaker 1: something she could tear out of her skin. Her whole
[15:36] Speaker 1: body shook. I just wanted to keep her safe, she gasped.
[15:43] Speaker 1: I held her tighter. I know I whispered. I know.
[15:50] Speaker 1: I stayed with her there until her sobs turned to silence.
[15:54] Speaker 1: Then I helped her to her feet and walked to
[15:56] Speaker 1: her bed. Once she was settled, I lifted the muslin
[16:00] Speaker 1: gently from the counter and took it outside. It felt
[16:08] Speaker 1: wrong to throw the fruit away because of how much
[16:11] Speaker 1: it looked like Elsie. It was strange, It felt like
[16:15] Speaker 1: she was back. She almost looked alive in Marissa's arms.
[16:20] Speaker 1: My hands shook as I grabbed the spade from the shed.
[16:24] Speaker 1: I walked out to Elsie's tree, knelt at the base,
[16:27] Speaker 1: and started digging. The muslin reeked enough to make me gag.
[16:32] Speaker 1: I turned my head and swallowed it down. When the
[16:36] Speaker 1: hole was deep enough, I unwrapped the cloth one last time,
[16:40] Speaker 1: just enough to see the curve of what used to
[16:43] Speaker 1: be her face, and lowered it in Slowly. I pressed
[16:48] Speaker 1: the dirt back over gently, smoothing it flat with my palm,
[16:52] Speaker 1: and sat there a long time, not ready to leave.
[16:57] Speaker 1: When I stood and brushed the soil from my knees,
[17:00] Speaker 1: I looked up. Another fruit was growing, just beginning to swell.
[17:09] Speaker 1: Marissa was still asleep when I came back in. Her
[17:12] Speaker 1: breathing was shallow and her face was swollen from crying.
[17:17] Speaker 1: She didn't stir when I sat beside her and laid
[17:20] Speaker 1: my hand on her back. I let her rest. The
[17:26] Speaker 1: next morning, Grafco arrived two reps, this time doctor Levin
[17:33] Speaker 1: and someone new in a navy jacket, clipboard in hand.
[17:37] Speaker 1: Both of them all business I told them Marissa wasn't
[17:41] Speaker 1: feeling well. They didn't ask questions. They weren't expecting anything
[17:48] Speaker 1: from Elsie's tree anyway. According to their notes, it wasn't
[17:52] Speaker 1: supposed to yield for another season. They stopped to take
[17:55] Speaker 1: growth measurements, height, trunquet, the soil balance, But the other
[18:01] Speaker 1: trees they were thrilled, called the results accelerated but stable,
[18:08] Speaker 1: used words like promising and replicable. When they left, I
[18:14] Speaker 1: brought Marissa a plate of toast and eggs and set
[18:16] Speaker 1: it on the night stand beside her. She hadn't moved much,
[18:21] Speaker 1: eyes half open but vacant, her face still blotchy and tired.
[18:27] Speaker 1: You should eat, I said, sitting on the edge of
[18:30] Speaker 1: the bed. She turned her face into the pillow. I
[18:35] Speaker 1: buried it under the tree, I whispered. Marissa led out
[18:40] Speaker 1: this half sob and something about that broke me wide open.
[18:46] Speaker 1: I reached for her, but she curled tighter, her shoulders shaking.
[18:52] Speaker 1: And there's there's another one. It's starting again, just a bud.
[18:58] Speaker 1: But there the words just came out. I shouldn't have
[19:06] Speaker 1: said anything. I knew what that tree was doing to her.
[19:10] Speaker 1: But when she pulled her face from the pillow and
[19:12] Speaker 1: looked at me, face blotching, puffy, eyes bright and that hopeful,
[19:17] Speaker 1: desperate way. It was too late to take it back.
[19:23] Speaker 1: Another one, she said, barely more than a breath. I
[19:28] Speaker 1: nodded her hand, reached out and held mine. She sat up,
[19:34] Speaker 1: slow and stiff, eyes still locked on mine. It wasn't ready,
[19:39] Speaker 1: she said, the last one. It hadn't fully become her yet.
[19:46] Speaker 1: I didn't understand at first. She squeezed my hand. It
[19:51] Speaker 1: was too young, like picking a pair before it's ripe.
[19:54] Speaker 1: Her voice cracked. It wasn't completely Elsie leaned in close,
[20:01] Speaker 1: forehead against mine. Promise me we wait next time. We
[20:06] Speaker 1: don't touch it, not until it's her, just before it happened.
[20:12] Speaker 1: That's when we'll know it's done. I hesitated. Everything in me,
[20:18] Speaker 1: wanted to tell her no, to remind her that it
[20:21] Speaker 1: wasn't really Elsie, but she looked so certain, so sure,
[20:29] Speaker 1: so I said yes. Marissa watched the new bud every
[20:35] Speaker 1: morning like a kid waiting for Christmas. She raked mulch
[20:39] Speaker 1: into the soft cradle shape directly under the branch where
[20:42] Speaker 1: the fruit hung, and tucked an old pillow into its curve.
[20:47] Speaker 1: When I stepped into view, Marissa looked up and smiled
[20:50] Speaker 1: like this was all perfectly normal. She's growing fast, she said,
[20:57] Speaker 1: faster than last time. Her voice had that same softness
[21:01] Speaker 1: she used when Elsie was sick. I watched her took
[21:05] Speaker 1: the corners of the muslin under the pillow like it
[21:07] Speaker 1: was a bassanette. She'll be walking before we know it,
[21:12] Speaker 1: she added, with this tiny, wistful laugh that didn't reach
[21:16] Speaker 1: her eyes. It gutted me weeks past. The fruit grew fuller,
[21:24] Speaker 1: like it was aging through Elsie's life stages, one feature
[21:28] Speaker 1: at a time, but the eyes stayed shut. It looked
[21:33] Speaker 1: like she was fast asleep, like she could wake at
[21:36] Speaker 1: any moment. Soon, its skin flushed warm to the touch,
[21:41] Speaker 1: and when I pressed my fingers to the stem, I
[21:45] Speaker 1: could feel a pulse. She looked at me, then gently
[21:50] Speaker 1: lifted the fruit and extended it toward me. Hold her.
[21:55] Speaker 1: She said, she wants to know who you are. She
[21:59] Speaker 1: misses you. I hesitated, Everything in me recoiled, but Marissa's
[22:08] Speaker 1: eyes were steady, soft, so I reached out. The moment
[22:17] Speaker 1: my hands touched the fruit, something in me melted. It
[22:24] Speaker 1: was warm, heavy in that way sleeping children always are,
[22:29] Speaker 1: and beneath the skin. I could swear I felt the
[22:32] Speaker 1: faintest flutter of a heartbeat. My arms curled around it instinctively.
[22:39] Speaker 1: It felt like her, the way she sagged into me
[22:42] Speaker 1: after a long day outside. It couldn't really be her,
[22:46] Speaker 1: I knew that, but in that moment, it felt like
[22:51] Speaker 1: holding her again, like she'd never left. Then Graftco came back.
[23:08] Speaker 1: We hadn't expected another visit so soon, but a single
[23:12] Speaker 1: assistant came to check the progress. Just a kid barely
[23:16] Speaker 1: older than a collar jin turn with a silver case
[23:19] Speaker 1: and a polite smile. He didn't even knock. I didn't
[23:24] Speaker 1: even know he was here until I heard a crash,
[23:27] Speaker 1: and then Marissa's voice high and breaking. They're going to
[23:31] Speaker 1: take her, Paul, they're going to see her. She was
[23:35] Speaker 1: at the window, wide eyed. You have to stop them,
[23:39] Speaker 1: she said. They'll take her. They'll cut it down like
[23:42] Speaker 1: she's nothing. You promised, Paul, you promised, I tried to
[23:47] Speaker 1: calm her voice, low and steady. I'll handle it. I
[23:52] Speaker 1: won't let them near her. Just stay here, please, Lisa.
[23:58] Speaker 1: She shook her head like she couldn't hear me, Tears
[24:00] Speaker 1: tracking down her cheeks. She's not ready, he said. We'd
[24:04] Speaker 1: wait you said we'd protect her. I mean it, I said,
[24:09] Speaker 1: already turning toward the door. I'm going. I'll take care
[24:13] Speaker 1: of it, I swear. My heart thudded harder with each step.
[24:19] Speaker 1: The assistant was already scanning through the trees and taking notes.
[24:24] Speaker 1: I forced a smile on to my face as I
[24:26] Speaker 1: approached him, hoping he couldn't see the panic behind it. Morning,
[24:32] Speaker 1: I said, keeping my tone casual. You folks sure know
[24:36] Speaker 1: how to pick your weather. He glanced up and gave
[24:39] Speaker 1: a short nod. Distracted. Yeah, sorry to drop in unannounced,
[24:45] Speaker 1: Just a routine check. Shouldn't take long. You'll want to
[24:49] Speaker 1: see the roots well in the north row it tripled
[24:52] Speaker 1: last month, he blinked at me, distracted eyes, already drifting
[24:58] Speaker 1: toward the younger block. That one's still sterile, I added, quickly,
[25:03] Speaker 1: pointing at Elsie's tree, not due to fruit for another year,
[25:07] Speaker 1: maybe two. He nodded slowly and followed me away. But
[25:13] Speaker 1: half way down the road he paused, glanced over his shoulder.
[25:19] Speaker 1: Mind if I take a quick reading over there, he asked,
[25:22] Speaker 1: already starting back toward that tree. I caught up in
[25:27] Speaker 1: two strides. It's really not necessary. Nothing viable there yet
[25:33] Speaker 1: he shook his head. Doctor Levin wants to monitor the growth.
[25:37] Speaker 1: And then he stopped dead in his tracks, staring at
[25:40] Speaker 1: the fruit hanging from Elsie's tree. It was rounded, flushed,
[25:46] Speaker 1: too lifelike to be dismissed. What the hell? He dropped
[25:53] Speaker 1: to his knees to get a closer look, pulling out
[25:55] Speaker 1: a hand held scanner from his belt. This what wasn't
[26:00] Speaker 1: in the notes. I watched as he raised the device
[26:05] Speaker 1: toward the fruit. The scanner beaped. He turned to me,
[26:11] Speaker 1: I'm going to have to report this. Panic crawled up
[26:16] Speaker 1: my throat. Wait, it's probably just the deformity. The hormones
[26:21] Speaker 1: can cause mutations, right, His eyes narrowed. This isn't a mutation,
[26:29] Speaker 1: This is something else. He looked again and reached out
[26:35] Speaker 1: like he might touch it. He had no idea what
[26:39] Speaker 1: she meant to us. I thought about Marissa, how she'd
[26:43] Speaker 1: curl around that muslin like she was holding our girl again.
[26:46] Speaker 1: How she'd cried herself to sleep when it rotted, how
[26:49] Speaker 1: her voice broke when she whispered, they'll take her. Suddenly
[26:56] Speaker 1: I couldn't see the assistant anymore. I saw a man
[27:00] Speaker 1: walking out of there with Elsie's face in a folder.
[27:05] Speaker 1: I saw Marissa break all over again, something I couldn't
[27:09] Speaker 1: handle anymore. I thought about grabbing him, just wrapping my
[27:14] Speaker 1: arm around his throat and squeezing until the life left
[27:16] Speaker 1: his eyes. The thought alone made my fingers twitch. But
[27:22] Speaker 1: before I could move, a pruning tool stuck the back
[27:26] Speaker 1: of his head with a sickening crunch. The blade slid
[27:30] Speaker 1: in just above the neck, through the soft spot where
[27:34] Speaker 1: the spine and skull met. A shudder ripped through him.
[27:39] Speaker 1: He stiffened on his knees, then sagged forward, gurgling. His
[27:44] Speaker 1: arms flailed once, and then he slumped cheek, hitting the dirt.
[27:50] Speaker 1: His scanner landed in the mulch with a muffled crunch.
[27:54] Speaker 1: Blood seeped into the soil, dark and fast. A low,
[27:58] Speaker 1: gurgling breath hissed from throat, and one leg jerked. He
[28:04] Speaker 1: wasn't dead, damn, I breathed. Marissa stepped into view behind me,
[28:12] Speaker 1: her face pale and wet with sweat. The bruning tool
[28:16] Speaker 1: hung limp in her hand. He's not, I started. I
[28:21] Speaker 1: had to, she said, quickly, her voice shaking. Paul, I
[28:26] Speaker 1: had to. He saw her, You saw him. He was
[28:29] Speaker 1: going to take her. I couldn't let him take her.
[28:34] Speaker 1: He's still alive, I said, dropping to one knee. We
[28:38] Speaker 1: need to No, Marissa snapped, we can't. He'll tell them
[28:44] Speaker 1: we'll lose her all over again. Her eyes darted to
[28:49] Speaker 1: the fruit, then back to me. I saved her, Paul,
[28:54] Speaker 1: don't you see I saved her. He's dying, Marissa. I
[29:00] Speaker 1: can't just just leave him. We have to, she snapped,
[29:06] Speaker 1: You said you'd protect her. I looked back down at
[29:11] Speaker 1: the assistant, his chest barely rising. Blood bubbled at the
[29:16] Speaker 1: corner of his mouth. His fingers twitched like he was
[29:19] Speaker 1: trying to reach for something. I clenched my fists and
[29:24] Speaker 1: squeezed my eyes shut. Every part of me screamed to
[29:28] Speaker 1: act to fix it, but I was frozen. Marissa cupted
[29:36] Speaker 1: my face with trembling hands. We're doing this for her,
[29:41] Speaker 1: for her daughter. I nodded, barely. Then we need to
[29:48] Speaker 1: finish it fast. I reached down with shaking hands and
[29:54] Speaker 1: pulled the pruning tool from where it had fallen. The
[29:57] Speaker 1: blade tore out with a wet pop. I hovered over him,
[30:01] Speaker 1: the way to the metal suddenly immense in my hand.
[30:05] Speaker 1: His eyes fluttered, her breath wheezed out of him. His
[30:10] Speaker 1: fingers twitched. I could have ended it right then I
[30:16] Speaker 1: knew I should. I gripped the handle and brought the
[30:19] Speaker 1: tip to the base of his skull and froze. My
[30:26] Speaker 1: hand shook. He was someone's kid. He didn't deserve any
[30:32] Speaker 1: of this, and here I was on my knees about
[30:36] Speaker 1: to end it because I was too much of a
[30:37] Speaker 1: coward to fix any of it. Then I looked to
[30:42] Speaker 1: the side. I saw Marissa holding the fruit, and for
[30:46] Speaker 1: a second I saw Elsie in her arms. My throat burned,
[30:53] Speaker 1: I blinked hard, tried to steady my grip. I'm sorry,
[30:59] Speaker 1: I whispered, and then I drove the blade down through
[31:02] Speaker 1: the soft spot in his skull. I looked down at
[31:06] Speaker 1: the body, blood thick in the dirt, and I felt sick.
[31:13] Speaker 1: Was this worth it? I tried to swallow the question,
[31:18] Speaker 1: but it stuck there. Marsa brought the tart from the
[31:21] Speaker 1: shed and helped roll his body into it. Neither of
[31:26] Speaker 1: us spoke. We dragged him past the rose to the
[31:29] Speaker 1: far edge, near the compost pit, where the ground was softer.
[31:34] Speaker 1: I took the shovel and started digging. The smell of
[31:39] Speaker 1: dirt and blood mixed in the air, and the hole
[31:42] Speaker 1: was deep enough. We lowered him in. I didn't look
[31:47] Speaker 1: at his face. We covered it fast, packed the dirt
[31:52] Speaker 1: back over, kicked mulch across the top. By the time
[31:56] Speaker 1: we finished, my arms were shaking. Marissa stood beside me,
[32:02] Speaker 1: her eyes glassy and far away. We have to clean
[32:06] Speaker 1: the scanner, she said, and burn the tarp. I nodded,
[32:13] Speaker 1: and make sure they never send any one again. A
[32:21] Speaker 1: week passed. Every night I lay beside Marissa, with the
[32:26] Speaker 1: weight of what I'd done disturbing my thoughts. I kept
[32:30] Speaker 1: telling myself it was for them, but I couldn't shake
[32:33] Speaker 1: the sound of the gurgle in his throat. I tried
[32:37] Speaker 1: to picture Marissa's face when she held her fruit, and
[32:40] Speaker 1: tried to hold onto that, try to believe it was
[32:44] Speaker 1: worth it. The fruit had grown bigger. It was heavier now,
[32:49] Speaker 1: thick around the middle, and long enough to touch the ground.
[32:54] Speaker 1: It curled into the mulch like it was sleeping, and
[32:57] Speaker 1: it looked older now, almost the same age as Elsie
[33:01] Speaker 1: had been before she died. We both started spending more
[33:05] Speaker 1: time under the tree. I'd catch Marissa brushing mulch away
[33:10] Speaker 1: from the fruit side, or humming softly like she used
[33:13] Speaker 1: to at bedtime. One morning, while I tied down a
[33:18] Speaker 1: saggy branch, she looked up from where she sat, one
[33:22] Speaker 1: hand resting gently on the curve of the fruit. I
[33:26] Speaker 1: think she's going to open her eyes soon, she said.
[33:30] Speaker 1: I nodded slowly, unsure of how to answer. She looks ready.
[33:38] Speaker 1: Marissa smiled, Our baby's coming back. I sat beside her
[33:46] Speaker 1: for that moment, with the smell of bark and mulch
[33:49] Speaker 1: around us and that fruit between us, it felt like
[33:53] Speaker 1: it might actually be true. And then the phone rang
[33:57] Speaker 1: from the house. It was Grafco, the same polite voice
[34:02] Speaker 1: that it scheduled the check ins before. Just following up,
[34:07] Speaker 1: he said, one of our assistants had scheduled a sight
[34:10] Speaker 1: visit in your area. Did they make contact. I met
[34:15] Speaker 1: Marissa's eyes across the kitchen, Her grip on the coffee
[34:18] Speaker 1: mug tightened. No, I said, no, one showed understood, Thank you,
[34:26] Speaker 1: We'll be in touch. The lion clicked dead. If that
[34:32] Speaker 1: wasn't enough stress. When Marissa turned the radio on, it
[34:36] Speaker 1: crackled to life with the tail end of an emergency broadcast.
[34:42] Speaker 1: Heavy winds expected across the valley floor lightning activity reported
[34:46] Speaker 1: near the ridge. Residents should secure loose property and avoid
[34:50] Speaker 1: open areas. Advisories are in effect until midnight. Repeat high
[34:55] Speaker 1: wind and lightning warnings issued through tonight. The sky had
[35:01] Speaker 1: that bruised tone to it, too dark for the morning.
[35:06] Speaker 1: She's not ready, Marisa said, quietly. If that wind knocks
[35:10] Speaker 1: it down, it won't I said, we won't let it.
[35:16] Speaker 1: We grabbed what we had, twine, steaks, and spare netting
[35:20] Speaker 1: from the tool shed. I carried out an old canopy
[35:24] Speaker 1: from the market days metal legs, rusted but still usable.
[35:30] Speaker 1: Marissa followed me, arms full of blankets and old towels.
[35:35] Speaker 1: The wind had already picked up by the time we
[35:37] Speaker 1: reached the tree. The leaves shivered overhead, that warning rustle
[35:42] Speaker 1: that comes before the break, so we worked fast. Marissa
[35:48] Speaker 1: crouched beneath the branch, coping the fruit with both hands,
[35:52] Speaker 1: like it might already be slipping away. We should anchor it,
[35:57] Speaker 1: She said, something soft just in case. Yes. I nodded
[36:02] Speaker 1: and wedged an old pillow beneath the branch, tying it
[36:05] Speaker 1: up loosely so it cradled the stem without tugging. She
[36:09] Speaker 1: wrapped the towels around it. Like insulation, tugging every edge.
[36:14] Speaker 1: Then I pulled the canopy over and hammered stakes around
[36:18] Speaker 1: the base. We stretched the mesh netting torch around the frame,
[36:22] Speaker 1: leaving room for the wind to pass, but not enough
[36:25] Speaker 1: to tear. It looks like a damned tent, I muttered,
[36:30] Speaker 1: stepping back. A flash of lightning lickd the sky in
[36:34] Speaker 1: the distance, followed by a slow roll of thunder. A
[36:37] Speaker 1: few seconds later, I counted out of habit, maybe three
[36:43] Speaker 1: or four miles off. We need to go inside, I said,
[36:48] Speaker 1: my voice firm. Marissa refused to move. She was still crouched,
[36:54] Speaker 1: one hand on the branch, the other gently cupping the
[36:57] Speaker 1: base of the fruit through the canopy. She's going to
[37:01] Speaker 1: be scared alone, she said. We can't just leave her. Marissa,
[37:07] Speaker 1: She's just a kid, Paul. She doesn't understand storms. What
[37:10] Speaker 1: if she thinks we abandoned her. Again, I knelt beside her.
[37:15] Speaker 1: The air buzzed faintly, starting in pressure and dread, curling
[37:20] Speaker 1: in the space between each gust. You've done everything you can,
[37:25] Speaker 1: I said. She knows that. But if lightning strikes, another
[37:31] Speaker 1: flash cut across the sky, this one closer. Thunder crackled overhead,
[37:37] Speaker 1: and Marissa winced. I grabbed her hand. Come on, we'll
[37:42] Speaker 1: watch from the house. We'll be right there, just like
[37:45] Speaker 1: when she spent the night camping in the garden. He
[37:48] Speaker 1: didn't leave her then either. She hesitated, Then she nodded slowly.
[37:55] Speaker 1: We ran for the house through the rising wind. Once inside,
[38:00] Speaker 1: Marissa pressed herself to the window, breath fogging the glass.
[38:05] Speaker 1: The next bolt of lightning struck somewhere beyond the east grove,
[38:09] Speaker 1: close enough at the flash painted the entire sky white.
[38:14] Speaker 1: A half second later, the thunder crackled so hard the
[38:17] Speaker 1: glass trembled in its frame. Then her sharp smell hit
[38:24] Speaker 1: electrical and burned. I looked past Marissa's shoulder and saw
[38:30] Speaker 1: sparks flaring from one of the grafcow notes at the
[38:33] Speaker 1: base of the tree. Three rose down, Paul, Marisa said,
[38:38] Speaker 1: voice sharp, Do you see that? Yere? I breathed. The
[38:45] Speaker 1: sparks caught the dry mulch. Fast flames licked up the
[38:49] Speaker 1: base of the trunk. Then another node popped, another burst.
[38:55] Speaker 1: The fire jumped from one row to the next, like
[38:58] Speaker 1: it had been waiting. Marissa slammed her hand against the window. No, no, no,
[39:05] Speaker 1: I grabbed the fire extinguisher from under the sink. Call
[39:09] Speaker 1: nine one one, I barked. Now, she didn't move, Marissa.
[39:17] Speaker 1: She tore her eyes away from the window, fumbling for
[39:20] Speaker 1: the phone. I bolted for the door, heart pounding the
[39:24] Speaker 1: air outside already thick with smoke and heat. The fire
[39:29] Speaker 1: raced faster than I expected. The wind whipped through the rose,
[39:33] Speaker 1: feeding the flames. The extinguisher hissed uselessly against the growing
[39:38] Speaker 1: wall of orange and black. I turned and saw Marissa
[39:42] Speaker 1: turning toward the tree. Phone clutched in one hand, the
[39:46] Speaker 1: shears glinting in the other. Her face was streaked with
[39:50] Speaker 1: sweat and panic. We have to get her, she shouted, Marissa. No,
[39:56] Speaker 1: I'm not leaving her. She under the canopy as flames
[40:02] Speaker 1: crept closer through the underbrush. The air was thick and angry.
[40:07] Speaker 1: I heard the pop of another node and the shattering
[40:10] Speaker 1: snap of a branch. I ran to her. She emerged,
[40:16] Speaker 1: cradling the fruit to her chest, wrapped in a blanket.
[40:20] Speaker 1: I grabbed her arm and pulled her back with everything
[40:23] Speaker 1: I had. We ran, ducking under limbs, smoke clawing at
[40:28] Speaker 1: her lungs. We returned to the porch just after another
[40:33] Speaker 1: lightning bolt split the sky. The boom of thunder hit
[40:37] Speaker 1: a second later, like the world was splitting inside. She
[40:42] Speaker 1: held on to the fruit, like when she carried Elsie
[40:45] Speaker 1: to bed after falling asleep on the couch. Its skin
[40:49] Speaker 1: glistened as if weeping, a thick, clear trail rolling down
[40:53] Speaker 1: the cheek. Is that sap, I asked. She shook her
[41:00] Speaker 1: head slowly. She's crying. She was scared. The fruit didn't
[41:09] Speaker 1: pulse anymore, but it was warm. The resemblance was more
[41:14] Speaker 1: complete than before. It looked done. Maybe she was ready,
[41:22] Speaker 1: Marissa whispered. Another crack of lightning ripped across the sky,
[41:27] Speaker 1: and thunder followed so fast if I look, it landed
[41:30] Speaker 1: on our roof. I looked at Marissa. He called to help, right,
[41:38] Speaker 1: She nodded barely. They're coming. Her attention was on the fruit.
[41:45] Speaker 1: She began to rock it gently. Sh baby, it's all right,
[41:51] Speaker 1: it's just a storm. You're safe. We've got you. She
[41:56] Speaker 1: kept whispering to it, words soft and soothing, like she
[42:00] Speaker 1: was lulling it back to sleep. You're scared now, I know,
[42:04] Speaker 1: I know, But we're here. We're not going anywhere. I
[42:11] Speaker 1: turned to the window. The fire trucks hadn't arrived yet.
[42:15] Speaker 1: Outside the orchard glowed with shifting orange light, the trees
[42:20] Speaker 1: going one by one. Our whole life unraveled, row after
[42:26] Speaker 1: row of work, memory sweat, just gone, years of early mornings,
[42:33] Speaker 1: of pruning in frost and picking in heat, of coaxing
[42:36] Speaker 1: life out of cracked earth, all of it vanishing into smoke.
[42:42] Speaker 1: The trees we planted our first spring. Then the fire
[42:47] Speaker 1: had reached Elsie's tree. The canopy we'd built mint to
[42:52] Speaker 1: shield and protect caught instantly. The netting ignited like dry paper,
[42:58] Speaker 1: flames raising up the edge. The towels and blankets Marissa
[43:03] Speaker 1: had so carefully wrapped became fuel. Lightning struck again, closer.
[43:09] Speaker 1: This time it split a branch two rows over and
[43:13] Speaker 1: sent a shock wave through the orchard. I watched the
[43:16] Speaker 1: bark blackening peal, with branches thrashing in the heat. Another
[43:22] Speaker 1: flash lit the sky, and thunder cracked like a gunshot.
[43:27] Speaker 1: The mulch around the base popped, and the wires underneath
[43:30] Speaker 1: sparked again, throwing arcs into the inferno and feeding the
[43:34] Speaker 1: fire until it roared like a living thing. Marissa shrieked.
[43:43] Speaker 1: I turned and Sawa doubled over the counter arms wrapped
[43:47] Speaker 1: protectively around the fruit, rocking it. No, no, please, no,
[43:53] Speaker 1: she whimpered, not again, not again. With fruit skin had
[44:00] Speaker 1: the jaw split open, wet and sudden, A thick line
[44:04] Speaker 1: tore sideways through the cheek, the way overripe fruit bursts
[44:09] Speaker 1: under its own weight. Inside were muscles and tendons. Pink
[44:14] Speaker 1: curled around the edges of the wound, like fresh gum, twitching.
[44:19] Speaker 1: It glistened with something slick. Ressa's hands scrambled to press
[44:24] Speaker 1: the pieces back together. No, baby, stay, stay with me, please,
[44:30] Speaker 1: she whispered, pressing her palms against the softening flesh like
[44:33] Speaker 1: she could hold it in place by force. Her fingers
[44:37] Speaker 1: smeared black and red residue across the muslin. Don't go,
[44:42] Speaker 1: she begged. You're almost there, you're almost done. Please don't
[44:46] Speaker 1: leave me. Then it started to cave. The jaw turned
[44:53] Speaker 1: dark and blackened fully. The flesh sagged and collapsed into itself,
[44:58] Speaker 1: caving inward, like folding back into the pit it came from.
[45:03] Speaker 1: Marissa tried to catch the pieces as they fell, cupping
[45:06] Speaker 1: her hands beneath them, but they slid through fingers in wet,
[45:11] Speaker 1: shapeless slumps. Each chunk landed on the counter with a thick,
[45:16] Speaker 1: soft supplat She shrieked again and grabbed at what was left,
[45:21] Speaker 1: trying to reassemble it. I can fix it, I can
[45:26] Speaker 1: fix it. Just give her back. A vein unspooled from
[45:31] Speaker 1: the center and shriveled before I could finish. What was
[45:35] Speaker 1: left with scraps of soft, black tissue, slick with residue.
[45:40] Speaker 1: In the center lay a single seed. Marissa reached for
[45:46] Speaker 1: it with shaking fingers, hands coated in the pulp of
[45:50] Speaker 1: what used to be elsie. She cut the seed. Her
[45:54] Speaker 1: mouth moved, but no sound came out, at first, just
[45:59] Speaker 1: to quiver. Then her lips parted. No, no, no, this
[46:07] Speaker 1: isn't what was supposed to happen. I waited, we waited.
[46:11] Speaker 1: She was supposed to be ready. She was almost here.
[46:16] Speaker 1: She backed into the wall and slid down, curling around
[46:19] Speaker 1: the seed, muttering fragments, apologies, lullabies. Her eyes were wild,
[46:27] Speaker 1: darting toward the window. The storm, the fire. It scared her,
[46:33] Speaker 1: she whispered, She got scared, and she left. Blue and
[46:43] Speaker 1: red light flashed against the walls, strobing across the kitchen
[46:46] Speaker 1: as sirens filled the air. The fire trucks pulled into
[46:50] Speaker 1: the drive, wheels kicking up gravel and smoke. Boots hit
[46:55] Speaker 1: the ground. Running shouts rang out. Water lines hissed as
[46:59] Speaker 1: they unspooled. I stepped away from the window, chest heavy,
[47:04] Speaker 1: the sound of the orchard crackling like coal in a furnace.
[47:08] Speaker 1: I looked at the seed still cradled in Marissa's hands,
[47:13] Speaker 1: and felt something sickening in my stomach. Marissa rocked on
[47:18] Speaker 1: her heels, clutching the seed tight against the chest. Her
[47:23] Speaker 1: eyes were glassy, unfocused, fixed on nothing. Then she looked
[47:29] Speaker 1: up at me, sudden and sharp. We need to replant it,
[47:35] Speaker 1: she said. We can't let it in like this. We
[47:38] Speaker 1: need to give her another chance. My throat tightened. I
[47:43] Speaker 1: glanced at the seed, then at the glow of the fire. Marissa,
[47:50] Speaker 1: I said, carefully, we have to wait. The storm isn't done,
[47:54] Speaker 1: not yet. She shook her head like she hadn't heard me.
[48:00] Speaker 1: We can't wait too long. She's still out there. I
[48:04] Speaker 1: can feel it. We can't leave her alone for too long.
[48:07] Speaker 1: She gets scared. It took hours to fight the fire.
[48:15] Speaker 1: The orchard was a patchwork of scorched trunks and blackened earth.
[48:19] Speaker 1: By the time the smoke cleared. What hadn't burned down
[48:23] Speaker 1: was drowned. We lost nearly everything, the pears, the apples,
[48:28] Speaker 1: the entire Eastern block. Years of pruning, grafting, and coaxing
[48:34] Speaker 1: life from bark and soil all gone. When the trugs
[48:38] Speaker 1: finally rolled out and the sky had cleared, I walked
[48:42] Speaker 1: back inside. Marissa had fallen asleep on the kitchen floor,
[48:47] Speaker 1: the seed still clutched to her chest. I stood over
[48:53] Speaker 1: her for a long time. Then I reached down and
[48:57] Speaker 1: gently pried the seed from her fingers. She stirred, but
[49:02] Speaker 1: didn't wake. I carried it to the bathroom, closed the door,
[49:09] Speaker 1: sat on the edge of the top and stared at
[49:11] Speaker 1: it resting in my palm. It looked harmless, just a
[49:18] Speaker 1: simple seed. But I couldn't do it again. Maurissa would
[49:24] Speaker 1: heal eventually, so I flushed it. I watched as the
[49:31] Speaker 1: water swirled and it disappeared. Then I sat there in
[49:37] Speaker 1: the quiet, not sure if I just killed what was
[49:41] Speaker 1: left my wife, or finally let my daughter rest. Then
[49:47] Speaker 1: it all hit me. My shoulders caved forward. I bent
[49:51] Speaker 1: elbows to knees, face in my hands, and I cried big,
[49:58] Speaker 1: ugly sobs. Shook the floor and scraped out something I
[50:02] Speaker 1: hadn't touched since the day she died. My chest seized
[50:07] Speaker 1: with each breath, and I wept until my stomach cramped,
[50:11] Speaker 1: until snot and spit smeared down my chin. Months of
[50:16] Speaker 1: keeping it together cracked open in a single brutal moment

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