# Ep. 220 | Round 2 w/ Kirk Spradley | Blackwater Contractor and Paramilitary Officer

An episode of [Former Action Guys Podcast](https://invisiblenetwork.ai/podcast/1475060182), 16 Oct 2024, 1 h 38 min.

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Kirk Spradley is a former Force Recon Marine that has also served as a Blackwater Contractor and as a paramilitary officer in clandestine operations. His clandestine operations include buying the stinger missile launcher used in the shoot-down of FLIPPER 75. Check out his book War Junkie: A Cautionary Tale. Support the show https://www.patreon.com/formeractionguys https://www.jcramergrpahics.com https://www.ANGLICOshop.com Kirk's links https://www.kgspradleyauthor.com/ https://www.reconsniperfoundation.org/ 00:00:00 Intro | Blackwater Team Organization 00:07:29 Driving Blackwater Vehicles 00:17:14 Meeting Erik Prince 00:24:25 Military Industrial Complex 00:32:10 I Quit | It's Not For Everyone 00:37:38 Paramilitary Officer 00:42:40 Diplomatic Cover for Espionage Operations 00:47:03 Buying a Stinger Missile | Flipper 75 00:56:01 QRF on Undercover Missions 01:05:29 From Bar Bouncer to Paramilitary Officer 01:12:21 Maintaining a Cover Identity 01:19:16 The Hangover

## Transcript

[0:00] Speaker 1: Kick it off. Kirk Spradley had you back on here.
[0:02] Speaker 1: I really appreciate it. Man, got your book War Junkie.
[0:06] Speaker 1: Thank you for sending me that after the last episode
[0:09] Speaker 1: we did. I think people should go check it out.
[0:11] Speaker 1: It's really interesting. It starts out with kind of where
[0:15] Speaker 1: we ended, I think, where you talk about your friend
[0:18] Speaker 1: Bama that got killed while you were with Blackwater over
[0:21] Speaker 1: in Ramadi. That's right, So let's talk about I want
[0:25] Speaker 1: to ask some more about Blackwater itself and then some
[0:29] Speaker 1: of your stuff in Ramadi. Like at Blackwater, you were
[0:32] Speaker 1: a driver, How were teams comprised, What were the different
[0:36] Speaker 1: like because there were I imagine there were different teams
[0:38] Speaker 1: like helicopter teams, like raid teams, maybe snipers. There were snipers,
[0:42] Speaker 1: I know that. So what were like some different roles
[0:44] Speaker 1: for Blackwater contractors and how did you guys employ them?
[0:49] Speaker 2: Sure, in Blackwater, for all intents and purposes started in four.
[0:56] Speaker 2: Now there was a training section back in the nineties
[1:00] Speaker 2: and they had some guys do some work in Afghanistan.
[1:04] Speaker 2: And I want to say two and stuff like that.
[1:07] Speaker 2: But Blackwater as we know it, as you know it
[1:10] Speaker 2: kind of really start well, let's call it three but
[1:14] Speaker 2: it really got kicking in four. The majority of the
[1:17] Speaker 2: programs were the State Department Diplomatic Security Service, which was
[1:22] Speaker 2: what I was trying to do as a federal agent
[1:25] Speaker 2: after I got out of the Marines. And generally speaking,
[1:29] Speaker 2: you have about and it varies, but let's just say
[1:32] Speaker 2: for easy math, that you have four to five vehicle motorcade.
[1:38] Speaker 2: You have a principal or a protectee, and he's usually
[1:45] Speaker 2: he's a State Department, a US State Department person, he's
[1:49] Speaker 2: AS fifteen or higher, and he's the ambassador's representative in
[1:55] Speaker 2: that area, like a regional MC office or rio rio.
[2:00] Speaker 2: So let's say, and if you look at this picture
[2:03] Speaker 2: over here, I don't know if if you can see
[2:05] Speaker 2: it very well, but that's about a twelve man team.
[2:08] Speaker 2: It was pretty standard for a State Department gig. Now
[2:14] Speaker 2: in four, what you had was you had a driver
[2:17] Speaker 2: for each vehicle, you had an agent in charge, you
[2:21] Speaker 2: had a shift leader, and then you know, the protectee,
[2:26] Speaker 2: and then everybody kind of had a job. Now they
[2:28] Speaker 2: had to adjust that because that came from the Diplomatic
[2:32] Speaker 2: Security Service that was normally in a high thread area
[2:36] Speaker 2: but not a war zone, and they kind of adopted
[2:38] Speaker 2: it from the Secret Service, the US Secret Services Presidential
[2:45] Speaker 2: Protective Detail, so it had to be adjusted. And what
[2:48] Speaker 2: we adjusted is we had a machine gunner and my
[2:51] Speaker 2: first job was the machine gunner on what they call
[2:54] Speaker 2: the Diamond. Because of the threat, we needed someone with
[2:59] Speaker 2: a belt fed weapon and during an attack, I would
[3:02] Speaker 2: move up as close to the threat as I could
[3:06] Speaker 2: and just start, you know, man laying down, suppress a fire.
[3:09] Speaker 2: And the members of the Diamond, which is you know,
[3:12] Speaker 2: four people with me the machine gunner in the back,
[3:16] Speaker 2: and a shift leader and a agent in charge. There's
[3:19] Speaker 2: really six people, but it looks like a diamond as
[3:22] Speaker 2: it's walking and they get him off the X. They
[3:27] Speaker 2: it was just kind of an unwritten rule, like hey, Kirk,
[3:30] Speaker 2: you know, man, you're the machine gunner. You understand what
[3:33] Speaker 2: that means. And it's like, yeah, man, I have to
[3:35] Speaker 2: be the one guy fucking shooting and everybody else gets
[3:39] Speaker 2: off the X man, and it's just I mean, that's
[3:42] Speaker 2: that was the job. But I wanted to do it. Absolutely.
[3:45] Speaker 2: I was picked for it, but I also wanted to
[3:47] Speaker 2: do it. So that was unique. Now, about six months
[3:52] Speaker 2: after that, they started what they call the DDM, Designated
[3:55] Speaker 2: Defensive marksmen. We weren't allowed to have snipers, but we
[3:59] Speaker 2: had snipers, just had to call them defensive marksmen. But
[4:02] Speaker 2: it was the same thing. No one had helicopter support.
[4:06] Speaker 2: We had a couple of Little Birds MD five thirties,
[4:10] Speaker 2: which I flew for the Kurds by the way, But
[4:14] Speaker 2: we had those, but they were assigned to the ambassador
[4:17] Speaker 2: or they were signed to the CPA. I forgot what
[4:21] Speaker 2: his title was, but Paul Bremmer, he was the head
[4:24] Speaker 2: of the Coalition Provincial Authority. But because they were privately
[4:28] Speaker 2: owned by Blackwater Eric Prince, they were kind of a
[4:33] Speaker 2: QRF for everyone else. It was kind of an unwritten
[4:36] Speaker 2: rule like, hey, we're Blackwater. If we really need air support,
[4:40] Speaker 2: we can call the Little Birds and then they'll talk
[4:44] Speaker 2: to the detailed leader, which was Frank Gallagher of former
[4:50] Speaker 2: recon Marine as well. He was the he was the
[4:53] Speaker 2: team leader there, but he would always allow the aircraft
[4:56] Speaker 2: to be tasked out because they had so much support
[5:00] Speaker 2: for Bremmer, so that was kind of that was kind
[5:03] Speaker 2: of the way. The team was about four or five vehicles.
[5:07] Speaker 2: One was the limousine or the limo and then of
[5:11] Speaker 2: course we had to have a cat truck counter assault team,
[5:14] Speaker 2: and we always called it the hate truck because it
[5:16] Speaker 2: was all the guys with guns and stuff in the back,
[5:20] Speaker 2: but officially it would be called a cat truck, a
[5:23] Speaker 2: counter assault team truck. And that's the last vehicle in
[5:27] Speaker 2: the in the motorcade. So you have a lead car,
[5:31] Speaker 2: you know, you have an advanced car, a lead, a limo,
[5:35] Speaker 2: a follow, and then the cat truck. You could have
[5:37] Speaker 2: four or five vehicles. And then each person has a
[5:41] Speaker 2: duty in that business. They consider the driver to be
[5:46] Speaker 2: the most prestigious position because you can you can always
[5:50] Speaker 2: find work somewhere as a security driver. It's a lot
[5:53] Speaker 2: of responsibility and it's it's an expensive vehicle and everyone's
[5:57] Speaker 2: life is in your hand. Now. I didn't really want
[5:59] Speaker 2: to be a driver, man. I loved being the machine gunner.
[6:04] Speaker 2: But the first driving job I had was driving the
[6:07] Speaker 2: cat truck, the hate truck, and man I was like,
[6:09] Speaker 2: oh yeah, brother, this is this is you know, this
[6:12] Speaker 2: is the ticket dude, I mean, I mean guns, brustol.
[6:15] Speaker 2: We had a p KM and the Backman, it was
[6:17] Speaker 2: just crazy. It was it was as close as you
[6:20] Speaker 2: could get to driving a tank without you know, driving
[6:22] Speaker 2: a tank. So I loved it. The thing about, like
[6:26] Speaker 2: I said, in that business, if you want to if
[6:29] Speaker 2: you want to have a good career, you have to
[6:31] Speaker 2: be a good driver. Now, if you're a good medic
[6:34] Speaker 2: or you know, if you're a good guy, you're you're
[6:35] Speaker 2: going to find work. But the most prestigious job was
[6:40] Speaker 2: was to be a good driver. And so when I
[6:42] Speaker 2: went to uh Ramadi, I dare say my reputation preceded me,
[6:47] Speaker 2: and so they immediately gave me the limo driver in Ramadi,
[6:51] Speaker 2: which was the most prestigious job on that team.
[6:55] Speaker 1: Was it an actual limo or is it you just
[6:57] Speaker 1: call it that?
[6:57] Speaker 2: No, that's just what you call any anywhere that the
[7:02] Speaker 2: the boss is in and is referred to as the limo.
[7:04] Speaker 2: It can be an armored suburban. It could be an
[7:07] Speaker 2: armored land cruiser. I just happened to have a sedan
[7:10] Speaker 2: in Ramadi. It was a Mercedes benz uh A six
[7:15] Speaker 2: hundred series. I think it was weighed about nine thousand pounds.
[7:19] Speaker 2: It was a level seven armored vehicle. You know, as
[7:22] Speaker 2: I ran off the road man trying to catch up
[7:24] Speaker 2: to the uh to the lead car we were going
[7:28] Speaker 2: down to well, we were going to Bagdad via Falujah,
[7:32] Speaker 2: and we were taking these back roads and we couldn't
[7:34] Speaker 2: do training, so you just had to go out and
[7:37] Speaker 2: do it on the on the on the fly. And
[7:40] Speaker 2: I'm trying to catch this because I don't know where
[7:42] Speaker 2: the hell I am. And I got the boss in
[7:43] Speaker 2: the back, and I got this DEV Group guy with me,
[7:46] Speaker 2: and and he was no. He wasn't. I don't want
[7:50] Speaker 2: to I don't want to speak ill of that community.
[7:53] Speaker 2: He specifically just was no, no help. I'm not saying
[7:58] Speaker 2: DEV Group is a bad group of he just he
[8:01] Speaker 2: was one of those guys. Man. I was like, hey, man,
[8:03] Speaker 2: I could really use your fucking help. It was just like, well,
[8:06] Speaker 2: you should know where you're going. No, man, I've been
[8:08] Speaker 2: here a week. I don't know where I'm going, but
[8:10] Speaker 2: you've been here for three months, so you can help me.
[8:12] Speaker 2: But anyway, I ran off the road, man, I ran
[8:15] Speaker 2: off the road. I took a turn too fast, and
[8:18] Speaker 2: you know, nine thousand pounds doesn't turn on a dime,
[8:21] Speaker 2: and the shocks went up into the thunderwheels. I was like,
[8:25] Speaker 2: well that's oh yeah. I was like, oh that's bad.
[8:27] Speaker 2: And I'm correcting to try to get back on the
[8:29] Speaker 2: road and again, nine thousand pounds. Man. I slid to
[8:33] Speaker 2: the other side of the road and there's these kids
[8:36] Speaker 2: and like, I'm in a dust storm basically that I created.
[8:40] Speaker 2: And I'm sliding back to the other side of the
[8:42] Speaker 2: road and I see these kids in their eyes of
[8:43] Speaker 2: this because I'm about to run them over, and they
[8:45] Speaker 2: jump out. I mean it looked like somebody, I don't know,
[8:47] Speaker 2: doukes a hazard or a movie or something. I get
[8:50] Speaker 2: it back on the road and man, this thing is
[8:53] Speaker 2: all jacked up. Man, there's just no way. But you know,
[8:56] Speaker 2: what are you gonna do? Man, you can't just stop
[8:58] Speaker 2: at the you can't. You can't go to the Triple
[9:00] Speaker 2: A in Falluja. So man, I drove it and it was,
[9:03] Speaker 2: you know, just I could hear it, hear the shocks
[9:05] Speaker 2: and the tires rubbing, and the steering wheel was like
[9:08] Speaker 2: this to keep it straight. I was like, man, this
[9:10] Speaker 2: is just bad. And uh. We wound up going down
[9:13] Speaker 2: to Bagdad after we did everything and drop it off
[9:17] Speaker 2: and they were like, you know, you came from where
[9:19] Speaker 2: with this thing, and I was like, yeah, we came
[9:21] Speaker 2: from Ramadi. They're like, dude, you're fucking nuts. Man, this
[9:24] Speaker 2: thing is all fucked up. But they always tell you, man,
[9:29] Speaker 2: you know, your your first line of defense is the
[9:32] Speaker 2: vehicle and drive drive drive. That's what they always tell
[9:35] Speaker 2: you whenever something goes bad. Drive drive drive. That was
[9:38] Speaker 2: kind of the standard.
[9:40] Speaker 1: Yeah, that's crazy. I was going to ask how hard
[9:42] Speaker 1: they were to drive, and I imagine the different vehicles
[9:46] Speaker 1: had different you know, like a high suburban is going
[9:49] Speaker 1: to be weird because it's got that high center of gravity,
[9:52] Speaker 1: right with all that weight. You know, for those that
[9:54] Speaker 1: don't know, like you're talking about that level seven armor,
[9:57] Speaker 1: that's thick ass doors, glass, everything. How I mean, even
[10:02] Speaker 1: with that armor though, that's not very protective against IEDs, right, Like,
[10:06] Speaker 1: there's not very much undercarriage protection and it's kind of
[10:09] Speaker 1: too low to let the blast blow out like you
[10:11] Speaker 1: have with the m wraps.
[10:13] Speaker 2: That's exactly right, and that's why our defense was not
[10:18] Speaker 2: looking like a motorcade. The State Department wanted us to
[10:21] Speaker 2: look like, you know, because they were the customer and
[10:23] Speaker 2: they're like, hey, this is how we do business, and
[10:25] Speaker 2: we would shake our heads like yes sir. Then they'd
[10:27] Speaker 2: leave because nobody wants to hang out in Ramadia or wherever,
[10:31] Speaker 2: you know, anywhere in Iraq, they go back to DC,
[10:35] Speaker 2: so we would just go back to doing things the
[10:36] Speaker 2: way we should. With about a five to in a city,
[10:40] Speaker 2: about a five car interval between each vehicle out on
[10:44] Speaker 2: the roads ten ten plus man, you really want to
[10:46] Speaker 2: spread out. And we drove extremely fast, so they couldn't
[10:51] Speaker 2: really time us. The most dangerous thing we could do,
[10:56] Speaker 2: generally speaking, was to come up on a US Milk
[10:58] Speaker 2: convoy because they're doing about forty five miles an hour,
[11:02] Speaker 2: and once you kind of unmask, you know, like you
[11:06] Speaker 2: can kind of blend in with traffic to an extent
[11:10] Speaker 2: until you come up on a convoy if you're with
[11:12] Speaker 2: the State Department. Because you're not. It's not like the
[11:15] Speaker 2: OGA stuff where you're wearing local dress. You're wearing you're
[11:19] Speaker 2: obviously an American. You know, some guys wore helmets, you know,
[11:23] Speaker 2: stuff like that for Varietys or whatever. Contact. But so
[11:27] Speaker 2: you come up on this convoy. In fact, we were
[11:29] Speaker 2: going down to Fluijah one day and again I was
[11:32] Speaker 2: the limo driver. I didn't have the boss with me
[11:35] Speaker 2: this time, and so I'm the number three vehicle and
[11:39] Speaker 2: we come up to the rear of the of the
[11:42] Speaker 2: convoy and you always you do. What's you know, You
[11:46] Speaker 2: put on your flashers and you put the the VS
[11:50] Speaker 2: seventeen panel in the American flag in the front of
[11:52] Speaker 2: the car to let them know, hey, you're an American.
[11:55] Speaker 2: And hopefully it's a guy who's you know, been around,
[11:57] Speaker 2: and he'll he'll wave you forward and he'll he'll allow
[12:01] Speaker 2: one car at a time to pass because they don't
[12:03] Speaker 2: really know that you're American. I mean they you know,
[12:06] Speaker 2: you know what I mean, I get it. I understand
[12:08] Speaker 2: their uh, every everyone, you know, everyone's trying to kill
[12:11] Speaker 2: those guys, so they're letting us up one at a time. Well,
[12:15] Speaker 2: the rear gunner allowed me to pass when it was
[12:18] Speaker 2: my turn, and for whatever reason, he decided he didn't
[12:21] Speaker 2: want me to pass, and man, he just starts shooting
[12:23] Speaker 2: at my car and all the rounds go underneath the
[12:26] Speaker 2: car and I was like, you know what the fuck? Man?
[12:28] Speaker 2: So I get you know, the uh the Devin Group guy.
[12:31] Speaker 2: He gets on the radio like, hey, man, we're being
[12:33] Speaker 2: shot at by the army. So we pull off on
[12:35] Speaker 2: the side of the road, you know, up you know,
[12:37] Speaker 2: outside of Fallujah. Man, you know who does this? You know,
[12:39] Speaker 2: I'm pulling off on the side of the road, and uh,
[12:43] Speaker 2: our team leader would talk to their convoy commander. I
[12:47] Speaker 2: believe he was a East seven, a sergeant first class,
[12:50] Speaker 2: and he was like, hey, what the fuck, man, you
[12:52] Speaker 2: just cleared us to pass. Now your guy just shot
[12:56] Speaker 2: up our car. You know, three hundred thousand dollars car, man,
[12:58] Speaker 2: that's our limo. And he goes, man, I'm really sorry.
[13:03] Speaker 2: He's eighteen years old, he's been here two weeks. He's
[13:06] Speaker 2: right out of infantry school. You know, hey, man, what
[13:10] Speaker 2: were you doing when you were eighteen? You know that
[13:11] Speaker 2: type of thing. And so I always try to give
[13:14] Speaker 2: those guys sympathy and kind of giving them their due.
[13:19] Speaker 2: You know, man, everybody had a tough job over there,
[13:22] Speaker 2: for sure. Nobody had a cooler job than the other person,
[13:26] Speaker 2: and everybody was under stress. And at the end of
[13:28] Speaker 2: the day, man, I didn't get killed, so I kind
[13:30] Speaker 2: of blew it off. But it was just shit like
[13:33] Speaker 2: that was kind of the dangerou stuff for us.
[13:36] Speaker 1: Part of the game. Yeah, yeah, I mean for those
[13:38] Speaker 1: that don't know, yeah, they used to. There was like
[13:40] Speaker 1: all kinds of protocols for passing a convoy. I know,
[13:43] Speaker 1: for civilians they would have I know, for a little
[13:45] Speaker 1: while they had like red and green flags, you know,
[13:48] Speaker 1: they had the signs on the rear vehicle like do
[13:51] Speaker 1: not pass, and then they would sometimes shoot pen flares
[13:56] Speaker 1: at them if they were getting too close. And the
[13:58] Speaker 1: threat is you know, the threat is those car bombs,
[14:01] Speaker 1: and that really was a threat. I mean we even
[14:03] Speaker 1: had that in Afghanistan. I remember a British vehicle got
[14:07] Speaker 1: blown up and killed five of their soldiers not too
[14:10] Speaker 1: far from where we were at and sang it and
[14:12] Speaker 1: I was just like, man, that would be and after
[14:14] Speaker 1: you hear, like especially if you're there and you hear
[14:17] Speaker 1: about an incident like that happening, and then you're in
[14:20] Speaker 1: a convoy and immediately you start thinking about that all
[14:23] Speaker 1: the time because you're like fun, because there's not much
[14:25] Speaker 1: you can do when a car pulls up on you
[14:27] Speaker 1: and decides to blow up. I mean, that's just yeah,
[14:30] Speaker 1: it's a that's a tough that's a tough gig. And definitely,
[14:33] Speaker 1: you know, eighteen year old kid just got there, like
[14:35] Speaker 1: of course the snakes can happen. Yeah, man, you know
[14:39] Speaker 1: when something like happens to the vehicles, I imagine you
[14:42] Speaker 1: guys had mechanics or whatever in country that would work
[14:45] Speaker 1: on them or how did that? I know before on
[14:46] Speaker 1: the I think on the last interview you said that
[14:49] Speaker 1: if a vehicle got destroyed, it may not always get replaced,
[14:53] Speaker 1: or it may not get replaced for months because you
[14:55] Speaker 1: got to wait for a new one to come into country.
[14:57] Speaker 1: So how did that work?
[14:59] Speaker 2: Yeah, basically you had the official and then the unofficial.
[15:04] Speaker 2: Officially you went through KBR in Baghdad. So if you
[15:08] Speaker 2: could get your vehicle down there, or if you could
[15:11] Speaker 2: put it on a a flatbed convoy going down or
[15:15] Speaker 2: something like that, you would just I think you tell
[15:18] Speaker 2: the team leader and maybe you send an email to
[15:20] Speaker 2: somebody and if your if your vehicle is all jacked up,
[15:24] Speaker 2: it would go out on the next convoy or whatever.
[15:27] Speaker 2: They'd put it on the back of a flatbed. That's
[15:29] Speaker 2: the official way to do it. The unofficial way was, uh,
[15:34] Speaker 2: you know, we're blackwater. We could get booze and nobody
[15:37] Speaker 2: else could get booze. So man, you would just go
[15:40] Speaker 2: make friends with like the guys at motor Tee or
[15:44] Speaker 2: guys that, you know whatever contract company, be like, hey Bob,
[15:47] Speaker 2: how's it going? Man? Hey cool man? Aymen, I see
[15:51] Speaker 2: you got some you know welding stuff or whatever. Yeah, man,
[15:54] Speaker 2: hey man, what can I do for you? Man? I've
[15:56] Speaker 2: never shot a machine gun. I'd love to. Well, man, fuck,
[15:59] Speaker 2: how about Saturday we take you out to the range. Man,
[16:01] Speaker 2: you shoot them? You want to shoot a grenade lunchery?
[16:03] Speaker 2: Oh fuck, you know that type of thing, or maybe
[16:05] Speaker 2: they'll want booze? Hey man, what do you drink? Well?
[16:07] Speaker 2: I like Jack Daniels, Well, shit, man, I got a
[16:09] Speaker 2: case man about to break you off a couple of bottles. Man,
[16:13] Speaker 2: And you know, well, what can I do for you? Man?
[16:16] Speaker 2: I would love if you weld some big spike things
[16:19] Speaker 2: on the front of the bumper or you know whatever.
[16:23] Speaker 2: So so you had the official and then the unofficial
[16:27] Speaker 2: way of getting stuff done. Man.
[16:29] Speaker 1: When I was in Iraq and nine, we had this
[16:31] Speaker 1: British security contractor that would bring in his vehicle every
[16:35] Speaker 1: once in a while, and he'd always bring in a
[16:37] Speaker 1: flat of like Starbucks coffee drinks and be like, hey, hey,
[16:42] Speaker 1: can I get an oil change? And like we would
[16:44] Speaker 1: do nothing crazy, but like, you know, a couple of
[16:47] Speaker 1: little things. We're always like yeah, man, like we probably
[16:49] Speaker 1: would have done it even without that, because we're like
[16:52] Speaker 1: we're all fascinated. We're motor t guys on fucking TQ.
[16:55] Speaker 1: You know, we're like, well, you're out there doing it,
[16:58] Speaker 1: you know, like that's crazy, look at this badass truck.
[17:03] Speaker 1: But yeah, that was definitely an unofficial way of doing it.
[17:05] Speaker 1: I mean there was nothing any anything track. But yeah,
[17:09] Speaker 1: that's funny, man. Yeah I had I don't know if
[17:13] Speaker 1: I asked you this. I'm sorry, I don't know if
[17:15] Speaker 1: I asked you this last time, but did you Blackwater
[17:18] Speaker 1: made watches for guys. Did you get one of those
[17:20] Speaker 1: that has like the beacon in it?
[17:23] Speaker 2: No? Uh, I'm not totally familiar with that. They they
[17:27] Speaker 2: were really put on the map because of what they
[17:30] Speaker 2: call the Battle of the Najos in four. Yeah, yeah,
[17:34] Speaker 2: in four, and they were given all the guys that
[17:37] Speaker 2: were on that team were given custom rifles. I want
[17:41] Speaker 2: to say with the Blackwater logo, but but no, I
[17:46] Speaker 2: never I never got the Blackwater watch it. Yeah that's right. Yeah, yeah,
[17:52] Speaker 2: I don't know how to say it. No, I never
[17:54] Speaker 2: got one.
[17:56] Speaker 1: Yeah, that would have been sick to go. I think
[17:57] Speaker 1: they said I saw I think I saw an interview
[17:59] Speaker 1: with Princess said they made like one hundred and fifty
[18:02] Speaker 1: of them, so not too many people got them, but yeah,
[18:04] Speaker 1: I always thought that would be pretty cool something like that.
[18:06] Speaker 1: It has like for those I don't know what I'm
[18:07] Speaker 1: talking about, it has like a kind of like you
[18:10] Speaker 1: have with a if you're a backcountry like hiker or
[18:12] Speaker 1: something like that. A lot of people carry like a
[18:15] Speaker 1: garment beacon. So if they like break their leg you
[18:18] Speaker 1: don't have any cell phone service, you just activate the
[18:20] Speaker 1: beacon and they'll send an SOS signal out over the
[18:25] Speaker 1: whatever the band is that you guys use as pilots
[18:27] Speaker 1: that open air band and they'll basically get someone to
[18:32] Speaker 1: come help rescue you. And so they had these watches
[18:34] Speaker 1: made that had a beacon in it they could be activated.
[18:38] Speaker 2: Yeah, he's a smart guy. Man, He's he's got a
[18:41] Speaker 2: he's got a phone out now that he's trying to sell.
[18:45] Speaker 2: I don't I don't know the details, but I think
[18:47] Speaker 2: it's uh, it doesn't spy on you, and that type
[18:50] Speaker 2: of thing is kind of what he's trying to push.
[18:54] Speaker 2: You know, this a personal phone that you can use
[18:57] Speaker 2: on the whatever cellular networks. But he makes it. Eric
[19:01] Speaker 2: Prince makes it.
[19:02] Speaker 1: Did you ever meet him?
[19:04] Speaker 2: Oh yeah, yes, several times. When I graduated the second
[19:10] Speaker 2: training class that they had that was they called it
[19:13] Speaker 2: Blackwater Academy. It was kind of a catch all training
[19:16] Speaker 2: course that would supposedly qualify you for every program that
[19:21] Speaker 2: they were looking at. So you were he was trying
[19:23] Speaker 2: to have this plug and play an infantry. What he
[19:27] Speaker 2: wanted was an infantry battalion of guys that he could
[19:30] Speaker 2: plug and play around the world. And so he standardized
[19:34] Speaker 2: training and everything, driving everything. And I went to the
[19:38] Speaker 2: second class. So he came around and shook everybody's hand
[19:44] Speaker 2: that graduated. And if you got time for a quick story,
[19:48] Speaker 2: just and I may have told this last time, I
[19:51] Speaker 2: can't remember, but a real very personable. I mean, he's
[19:55] Speaker 2: a former Seal Team guy, you know, so he's been around.
[20:00] Speaker 2: He likes being around manly men, but he comes from
[20:04] Speaker 2: money and he doesn't he doesn't get along with those people,
[20:07] Speaker 2: is kind of what I gather. Well, he's a lead
[20:12] Speaker 2: from the front kind of guy. And I can't remember
[20:15] Speaker 2: who it was, but we came back. We were on uh.
[20:18] Speaker 2: I was on the Mambas. That was my first job.
[20:20] Speaker 2: It's a it's a big armored South African vehicle and
[20:23] Speaker 2: we would drive up and down route Irish take people
[20:25] Speaker 2: to the airport before we got helicopter support. But but
[20:30] Speaker 2: you know, you pick up supplies, food, water, AMMO and people.
[20:34] Speaker 2: And we were coming back and you know, we had
[20:38] Speaker 2: we lived in a uh he was renting a house
[20:40] Speaker 2: for us, a couple of houses in the green zone,
[20:43] Speaker 2: and we had local security guards and stuff, but a
[20:46] Speaker 2: relatively secure compound. But anyway, we had a bunch of
[20:49] Speaker 2: MR boxes stacked up. Well, you know, man, you come
[20:52] Speaker 2: back from a run on Route Irish, man, you're and
[20:55] Speaker 2: you don't get blown up or killed. Man, You're hey,
[20:57] Speaker 2: that's that's a that's a win. Right, So everybody's all motivated,
[21:00] Speaker 2: you know, coming in and there's this dude in there,
[21:03] Speaker 2: man kind of like stacking boxes, trying to clean up
[21:05] Speaker 2: the place, trying to help out. And he bends over
[21:07] Speaker 2: to grab a box m R E's and I forgot
[21:10] Speaker 2: who did it? Man, uh, I'll think of it before
[21:13] Speaker 2: the end of the episode. Just a kind of a loud,
[21:17] Speaker 2: brazen dude. Man. He double he double fists this guy's ass.
[21:21] Speaker 2: He just grabs this guy's ass. He's like, you got
[21:24] Speaker 2: a great ass, you know what you been feeding cock?
[21:27] Speaker 2: And the guy stands up and turns around and he's like, hey,
[21:30] Speaker 2: I'm Eric. It was Eric prince Man, the owner of
[21:33] Speaker 2: the company Billionaire Man. They're stacking Ri's and this guy
[21:38] Speaker 2: double double fists his ass cheeks. Man. So that was
[21:41] Speaker 2: that was That's pretty funny to see.
[21:44] Speaker 1: He's got a he's got a people like either love
[21:49] Speaker 1: him or hate him kind of kind of thing out there,
[21:51] Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like, does he even live
[21:54] Speaker 1: in the US anymore?
[21:56] Speaker 2: He's over in the UAE, I think, right right next
[21:59] Speaker 2: door to US.
[22:00] Speaker 1: I know, when the whole I know, when the piracy
[22:03] Speaker 1: thing was going on off of off the coast of Africa,
[22:06] Speaker 1: he was talking about building a small navy to help
[22:10] Speaker 1: protect you know, the shipping lanes and stuff like that.
[22:13] Speaker 1: They're there, and he he like gets involved with these
[22:16] Speaker 1: like I mean, he's all about contracting, right, He's all
[22:20] Speaker 1: about building like these little armies for different things and stuff.
[22:24] Speaker 1: And obviously some people are cool with that and some
[22:27] Speaker 1: people aren't. You know, I guess it depends on if
[22:29] Speaker 1: it's supporting their cause or not, if they like him
[22:31] Speaker 1: or not.
[22:32] Speaker 2: But yeah, he's very much about efficiency because he sees
[22:37] Speaker 2: so much inefficiency in government, and you know, man, I
[22:42] Speaker 2: could talk about this for hours. You know, a lot
[22:45] Speaker 2: of times these companies that are efficient get bad reps.
[22:49] Speaker 2: I think it's counterintelligence from people who are making money.
[22:54] Speaker 2: Like for example, Executive Outcomes went into uh Sierra Leone
[23:00] Speaker 2: to say in that I can't remember if it was
[23:01] Speaker 2: the sixties, seventies or the eighties, but they went in
[23:04] Speaker 2: there with about I want to say, an eight hundred
[23:07] Speaker 2: to twelve hundred man force and they defeated this rebel
[23:11] Speaker 2: army within thirty days with twelve hundred men or less. Now,
[23:16] Speaker 2: that same situation had been a stalemate for a decade
[23:21] Speaker 2: with like five thousand government troops. So now somebody I'm
[23:27] Speaker 2: sure was making money and you know, the bureaucracy and this,
[23:31] Speaker 2: that and the other, but they wanted to keep the
[23:34] Speaker 2: five thousand troops there. And I don't know the whole story,
[23:37] Speaker 2: but Executive Outcomes was like, hey, look, if you want
[23:40] Speaker 2: to end the civil war, we can do it. We
[23:42] Speaker 2: can do it with you know, twelve hundred guys. So
[23:45] Speaker 2: the five thousand guys couldn't do it, the twelve hundred
[23:47] Speaker 2: guys could do it. They went in within thirty days
[23:50] Speaker 2: and they solved the problem and that's efficiency. The problem
[23:53] Speaker 2: is once you start dealing with some of these people
[23:56] Speaker 2: high on the food chain who run governments or who
[23:59] Speaker 2: are high high up the food chain in a government,
[24:02] Speaker 2: they're getting money from that job. Like you don't want
[24:06] Speaker 2: to solve a problem because now you've eliminated your job
[24:09] Speaker 2: if you will. Yeah. So I think that's where a
[24:12] Speaker 2: lot of the hatred of Eric Prince comes from. He
[24:15] Speaker 2: could probably replace a lot of those bureaucracies, you know,
[24:21] Speaker 2: just using common sense, you know.
[24:23] Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean I guess, as an example, like you
[24:26] Speaker 1: mentioned before, if a vehicle got broke, you have to
[24:29] Speaker 1: contact KBR, get it, convoyd over, have them work, you know,
[24:33] Speaker 1: probably fill out a bunch of paperwork, wait on them
[24:35] Speaker 1: to get the parts and stuff. Whereas or you could
[24:39] Speaker 1: bring in a flat of coffee or a couple handles
[24:42] Speaker 1: of jack and be like, hey, can you take care
[24:44] Speaker 1: of this, and it gets taken care of, you know,
[24:46] Speaker 1: like without all the bureaucratic red tape. I mean, I
[24:49] Speaker 1: don't think anybody is unaware of the military industrial complex
[24:55] Speaker 1: that we saw in Iraq and Afghanistan, you know, I
[24:58] Speaker 1: mean when you show up to like a base and
[25:01] Speaker 1: they have a burger king and a fucking pizza hut.
[25:04] Speaker 1: It's like, what are what?
[25:05] Speaker 2: How are we?
[25:06] Speaker 1: What are we doing here? Like where we're so established,
[25:08] Speaker 1: we have fast food joints, you know, like multiple coffee shops.
[25:12] Speaker 1: I remember, where did you go to Afghanistan at all?
[25:15] Speaker 2: I did? Yeah, So if you.
[25:17] Speaker 1: Were on on Bastian, they had a place I remember
[25:21] Speaker 1: going over there one time. They had a place on
[25:23] Speaker 1: it called the Blue I think it was like a
[25:25] Speaker 1: steakhouse on the fucking base and they had like dance
[25:28] Speaker 1: nights and shit like this. I'm like, what the hell
[25:31] Speaker 1: I mean. I wasn't on Bashian. I was only visiting.
[25:33] Speaker 1: I would only be passing through. But I saw that,
[25:35] Speaker 1: and I'm like, what the hell is this? Are we
[25:38] Speaker 1: fighting a war here or like? And I get it,
[25:40] Speaker 1: you want to like improve TRUP morale and shit, But
[25:43] Speaker 1: I think a good way to improve TRUP morale is
[25:45] Speaker 1: to not be in a country for twenty fucking years.
[25:47] Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like get in and get out,
[25:49] Speaker 1: Like having all that, having all that kind of stuff
[25:53] Speaker 1: set up is I don't know, man, And I think
[25:56] Speaker 1: it probably honestly, I think people that only were on
[25:59] Speaker 1: like a big like bashing and stuff. They probably questioned,
[26:02] Speaker 1: like what am I doing here? Like I get up,
[26:04] Speaker 1: I go do my office job, I go get coffee
[26:06] Speaker 1: at the coffee shop, I go to the PX, and
[26:08] Speaker 1: I could buy a TV, and like, you know, I
[26:12] Speaker 1: don't know. It's so yeah, there's definitely a lot of
[26:14] Speaker 1: people that stand to lose money if these wars are
[26:17] Speaker 1: like fought quickly and efficiently. It's oh, yeah, it's such
[26:20] Speaker 1: a crazy business.
[26:22] Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, absolutely right.
[26:24] Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know, man, it's so I don't know,
[26:26] Speaker 1: and I don't know what we can do about it
[26:28] Speaker 1: because so many people in high positions of government make
[26:31] Speaker 1: money off these things that I don't know. It's just
[26:35] Speaker 1: such a wild to me. It's so wild. I remember
[26:37] Speaker 1: being because when I was when I my first appoyment
[26:40] Speaker 1: was to Iraq and I was a mechanic at the time,
[26:43] Speaker 1: so I was on t q alta Cottam air base
[26:47] Speaker 1: the whole time. Yeah, and that was relatively good living
[26:50] Speaker 1: because we had a chowho maybe had a shitty little
[26:52] Speaker 1: PX that was like really small and it had like
[26:55] Speaker 1: three month old magazines and like you know, stuff like that.
[26:59] Speaker 1: But like the guys that were out in the cities
[27:01] Speaker 1: and fighting and stuff like we had a we were
[27:03] Speaker 1: living in luxury, and even I was sitting here like, man,
[27:07] Speaker 1: this fucking sucks, Like this isn't what I signed up for.
[27:10] Speaker 1: I remember. I remember one time one of the guys
[27:13] Speaker 1: that was with us, we had half our unit at
[27:16] Speaker 1: maintenance battalion. When you deploy, half the unit came from
[27:20] Speaker 1: the reserve side. They'd activate a bunch of reservist mechanics
[27:23] Speaker 1: and then attach them to your unit. And I remember
[27:26] Speaker 1: one of the guys complaining because the Wi Fi wasn't
[27:28] Speaker 1: working in his can or something like it was either
[27:31] Speaker 1: the WiFi or the air conditioning. And I'm like, bro,
[27:34] Speaker 1: where in Iraq? Are you fucking serious? Like there's dudes
[27:36] Speaker 1: out there fighting and you're bitching about your WiFi? Now,
[27:40] Speaker 1: Like what are we doing here? Yeah, it's pretty wild, man.
[27:45] Speaker 2: We had a you know, we had when I went
[27:48] Speaker 2: over to the special Programs. You know, we had something everywhere,
[27:51] Speaker 2: but there was this one particular place in Baghdad and
[27:56] Speaker 2: uh we had like I think we had like two
[27:59] Speaker 2: doest chefs or something. Mean. They treated us nice. Man.
[28:02] Speaker 2: There's no doubt I'm never gonna speak ill about the guys,
[28:06] Speaker 2: but I remember there was a guy he was kind
[28:08] Speaker 2: of he was a team guy. I think he did
[28:11] Speaker 2: like six years. He got out because the contract boom
[28:14] Speaker 2: was happening, and you know, man, he had been there
[28:17] Speaker 2: about a year off and on, and I think we
[28:20] Speaker 2: were out of like chocolate covered strawberries in the you know,
[28:25] Speaker 2: the deef of the chowhul, the little buffy, the fruit
[28:28] Speaker 2: buffet thing whatever. Yeah, and man, he just went high
[28:31] Speaker 2: into the right bro. I mean it was like six
[28:33] Speaker 2: thirty in the morning. Man, He's just coming out of
[28:35] Speaker 2: the gym or whatever, and by god, he was his
[28:38] Speaker 2: only purpose in life was to get of these chocolate
[28:41] Speaker 2: covered strawberries. And we were out and like, dude, I'm
[28:45] Speaker 2: telling you, man, he had a freaking conniption right there.
[28:48] Speaker 2: And we're all looking at him, and at first we're like,
[28:51] Speaker 2: you know, yeah, man, what the fuck? Man, we should
[28:53] Speaker 2: have chocolate covered strawberries. Why are we out? And then
[28:55] Speaker 2: it's like, dude, we're in the middle of Iraq and
[28:58] Speaker 2: we're bitching about chocolate covered strawberry. We need to maybe,
[29:01] Speaker 2: you know, kind of reassess.
[29:02] Speaker 1: That I've been on both sides. I've been, like I said,
[29:06] Speaker 1: I was a TQ which had a dfact. You know
[29:08] Speaker 1: and and for those that don't know, those are like
[29:11] Speaker 1: established chow halls with TCNs, these third country nationals that
[29:15] Speaker 1: come in I think mostly Indian dudes that worked there
[29:18] Speaker 1: as cooks. And you have you have steak night every week,
[29:22] Speaker 1: Steak and lobster night every week. They had Mongolian barbecue
[29:25] Speaker 1: night every week. You had like, uh, baskin Robbins ice cream,
[29:29] Speaker 1: like the Pralines ice cream was the one I always
[29:31] Speaker 1: got if I got any, and like that kind of living.
[29:36] Speaker 1: And then I did an appoyment to Sanging as an
[29:38] Speaker 1: Afghan advisor, and we were living in these like dirt
[29:43] Speaker 1: huts basically, and we would get one scoop of fucking
[29:46] Speaker 1: food out of like the trey rats, you know what
[29:49] Speaker 1: I'm saying, where they boiled and it's basically a big
[29:51] Speaker 1: a smri. I remember starving and saning. But but I
[29:56] Speaker 1: honestly that deployment was so much better than the one
[30:00] Speaker 1: where I had all the luxuries, because the one where
[30:03] Speaker 1: I had all the luxuries, I was kind of like,
[30:04] Speaker 1: what the fuck are we doing? Like I don't feel
[30:07] Speaker 1: like I'm in the war. I don't feel like I'm
[30:09] Speaker 1: you know, I'm like what am I what is my
[30:12] Speaker 1: role here, you know, And as a mechanic it's hard
[30:15] Speaker 1: sometimes too. You are definitely having an effect because you're
[30:19] Speaker 1: keeping trucks running. We were upgrading m raps, we were
[30:22] Speaker 1: putting new turrets, and we were doing stuff like that.
[30:24] Speaker 1: So it was definitely a positive impact. But it's like
[30:27] Speaker 1: I'm not out there in it and seeing the in
[30:30] Speaker 1: state of the work and what's going on and kind
[30:32] Speaker 1: of feeling the effects of the war, whereas as an
[30:34] Speaker 1: Afghan advisor and saying it, and it was like, I'm directly
[30:37] Speaker 1: involved with these guys. We're going out on missions together,
[30:40] Speaker 1: We're getting shot at together, you know, we're we're living
[30:43] Speaker 1: miserably together. And but I see the mission and I
[30:47] Speaker 1: feel like I'm doing my job, and you know, I
[30:49] Speaker 1: don't know. It was just two different sides of the
[30:52] Speaker 1: coin there. And I really liked living the spartan living,
[30:56] Speaker 1: you know. I had the prison gym set up with
[30:58] Speaker 1: like chains and shit. Yeah, I don't know, it's just
[31:02] Speaker 1: a different It's two different worlds, man.
[31:04] Speaker 2: I don't know.
[31:05] Speaker 1: And I'm sure a lot of people out there have
[31:06] Speaker 1: had that same kind of experience that did multiple deployments,
[31:09] Speaker 1: But I don't know. The military industrial complex thing. I get.
[31:13] Speaker 1: I see why we need some of it, you know,
[31:16] Speaker 1: because especially when you're talking about equipment and stuff like that,
[31:19] Speaker 1: because you're constantly wanting innovation and new equipment and better equipment.
[31:23] Speaker 1: Sometimes I think we overinnovate, you know, and I think
[31:26] Speaker 1: we make stuff that's too technologically dependent, you know, like
[31:31] Speaker 1: it's stuff can easily be broken, can easily become no
[31:35] Speaker 1: longer usable, and it's highly expensive gear. But I also
[31:41] Speaker 1: know what it's like again, like being insane and not
[31:43] Speaker 1: having some stuff where it's like, man, I really wish
[31:45] Speaker 1: we had better food, you know, I wish I wasn't
[31:48] Speaker 1: eating two MRIs a day or whatever it was, because
[31:50] Speaker 1: this is there's only twenty four meals in those boxes.
[31:53] Speaker 1: So this is getting old real fast.
[31:54] Speaker 2: But oh yeah, man, yeah.
[31:56] Speaker 1: It's crazy dude. When you were with you know, you
[32:01] Speaker 1: were with Blackwater in what were what were like did
[32:06] Speaker 1: you guys eat at the defects and stuff and like
[32:08] Speaker 1: Ramadi or was there a defect like what what were
[32:10] Speaker 1: your living conditions.
[32:11] Speaker 2: There as a contractor Yeah? When I went to UH
[32:16] Speaker 2: when I first got to the the teamhouse in Baghdad,
[32:20] Speaker 2: we had a local cook and we just ate what
[32:24] Speaker 2: they gave us, you know, because you were in transit
[32:27] Speaker 2: status there, so it was like, hey, man, you only
[32:30] Speaker 2: get two meals a day, but you know you're gonna
[32:32] Speaker 2: go to a team somewhere. When I got to al Hilla,
[32:35] Speaker 2: it was we had our own. There was a defect
[32:40] Speaker 2: down there for the embassy, so you know, again you're
[32:43] Speaker 2: kind of working for the embassy. And then when I
[32:45] Speaker 2: got to Ramadi, we were kind of, uh, we were
[32:48] Speaker 2: kind of guests of the Marines. We were considered the
[32:52] Speaker 2: State department, but we didn't have like a big, huge compound.
[32:56] Speaker 2: We were just kind of because Ramadi, man, it was like, uh,
[33:00] Speaker 2: you know, real estate was at a premium and nobody
[33:03] Speaker 2: wanted to go there. Honestly, only the Marines, you know,
[33:06] Speaker 2: would go to a place like fucking Ramadi. So we
[33:09] Speaker 2: were guests of the Marines and we ate at the
[33:12] Speaker 2: defect in Ramadi.
[33:14] Speaker 1: It's crazy, even in a place like that, they can
[33:16] Speaker 1: have a defect going. Yeah, imagine being one of those
[33:20] Speaker 1: TCNs that gets sent and you're like where am I at.
[33:22] Speaker 1: I'm in Ramadi and like shit's happening all the time
[33:24] Speaker 1: and there's nothing. You're just there to fucking make food,
[33:28] Speaker 1: Like what a what a shock that would be?
[33:31] Speaker 2: Oh yeah, man, yep. I told a story in the
[33:34] Speaker 2: book about a guy. He was a It was in Ramadi.
[33:38] Speaker 2: He was a technical guy. I'm not sure what. I
[33:43] Speaker 2: can't remember exactly, but he was supposed to go around
[33:45] Speaker 2: and set up these cameras and they were going to
[33:48] Speaker 2: help us monitor you know, kind of like an outer
[33:51] Speaker 2: layer of security. But it was Ramadi, man, so he
[33:54] Speaker 2: had to wear body armor and all this type of stuff,
[33:56] Speaker 2: you know, and he's not really sure what's going on.
[34:00] Speaker 2: He just sees me and this guy named Pat uh
[34:03] Speaker 2: uh Pat Bablick going out with him. Interesting guy, Man,
[34:07] Speaker 2: A lot of funny stories about Pat. Anyway, we're out there, man,
[34:11] Speaker 2: and you know, man, it's Ramadi man. But we've been here,
[34:14] Speaker 2: you know, several years at this point, man, and it's
[34:17] Speaker 2: weird what the brain gets used to. And man, there
[34:20] Speaker 2: was a massive explosion, man, I mean it looked nuclear. Bro.
[34:23] Speaker 2: I think somebody drove into a gas station and cooked
[34:26] Speaker 2: off an I d and man, it probably killed twenty people. Man,
[34:29] Speaker 2: I mean it was it was just crazy shit. You
[34:31] Speaker 2: see there and me and Pat looked at it, you know, Man,
[34:34] Speaker 2: that's that's pretty crazy huh. And then we went back
[34:36] Speaker 2: to telling stories, you know, because we're just kind of
[34:38] Speaker 2: taking this guy around so he can do his his
[34:40] Speaker 2: set up these cameras. We're sitting there and I'm listening
[34:43] Speaker 2: to one of Pat's stories. Man, man, he had the
[34:47] Speaker 2: funniest stories. Anyway, here comes the tech right, He's running
[34:50] Speaker 2: towards this man mock speed, and it's it had been
[34:54] Speaker 2: several seconds since the explosion, so our brains have not
[34:59] Speaker 2: come to the conclusion that he's running because the explosion,
[35:03] Speaker 2: because the explosion is done. You don't get in our mind,
[35:05] Speaker 2: you know, like, oh, let's focus on something else. Tell us,
[35:08] Speaker 2: let's tell stories. So we're freaking out that this guy's
[35:11] Speaker 2: freaking out. We're like, man, what you know, what's going on? Right?
[35:13] Speaker 2: He runs over and he's like, what the hell was that?
[35:16] Speaker 2: And I, honestly I didn't know what he was talking about.
[35:18] Speaker 2: I was like, you know, what the hell was what?
[35:19] Speaker 2: And then Pat's like, hey, Kirk, I think he's talking
[35:21] Speaker 2: about the explosion. And I was like, oh, well, welcome
[35:24] Speaker 2: to Ramadi and he quit. He quit right there. He's like, fuck,
[35:26] Speaker 2: I'm done, broke, I'm fuck this shit. Really, and he
[35:29] Speaker 2: was like I ain't. Oh yeah, He's like, I ain't
[35:31] Speaker 2: fucking getting out fuck this. I was like, okay, well,
[35:34] Speaker 2: hey man, I get it. Man, Uh all right, well
[35:37] Speaker 2: I guess we're done for the day. You know. He
[35:39] Speaker 2: literally quit. Man, But you know, man, and I'm not
[35:43] Speaker 2: shitting on those guys. Man, that's not really what a
[35:46] Speaker 2: lot of people signed up for. Now. Me and you
[35:48] Speaker 2: would be like, man, that's crazy. Some people like, man,
[35:51] Speaker 2: fuck this. You know, it is what it is, man.
[35:54] Speaker 2: You know.
[35:55] Speaker 1: Yeah, it's crazy how when you're in a place like
[35:59] Speaker 1: that you get so accustomed to like, oh man, then
[36:02] Speaker 1: it's like anyways, like not my problem, Like that's I'm
[36:05] Speaker 1: not involved, So someone's gonna deal with that. I remember
[36:08] Speaker 1: we were when I was in sanging, me and this
[36:10] Speaker 1: uh me and my buddy John Eisley were sitting there
[36:14] Speaker 1: and I think it was John that I was sitting with,
[36:16] Speaker 1: and a they they made like a like a mini
[36:21] Speaker 1: car bomb on like a moped basically and put it
[36:24] Speaker 1: in the bazaar and saying it which was right out
[36:26] Speaker 1: not too far from our camp, and we just hear
[36:29] Speaker 1: the boom and I'm like, oh shit, like that's that
[36:33] Speaker 1: was ied. But then like I think I was playing
[36:36] Speaker 1: Xbox or something. Then it was like, all right, well
[36:37] Speaker 1: back to the game, you know, cause like I'm not involved,
[36:40] Speaker 1: you know, there's not that's not my it's no. I
[36:44] Speaker 1: totally get it. Man. If you show up and you're like,
[36:47] Speaker 1: you know, cause some of these contract jobs are kind
[36:49] Speaker 1: of vague in their description. Oh yeah, you know, and
[36:52] Speaker 1: if you don't know anything, like a lot of military
[36:54] Speaker 1: guys get it. You get out, you read the description
[36:56] Speaker 1: and you see the pay and you're like, hmm, that's
[36:58] Speaker 1: high pay. This must be a really shit the area.
[37:01] Speaker 1: Whereas a dude off the street that may just be,
[37:04] Speaker 1: like you said, a technology specialists, like we had guys
[37:06] Speaker 1: that work the bats and hides the uh the ID stuff,
[37:10] Speaker 1: and you know, if they don't know anything about they've
[37:13] Speaker 1: never been in the military, and they're like, yeah, I'll
[37:15] Speaker 1: do this contract and they get sent over. I mean,
[37:17] Speaker 1: they know they're going to a war zone, but it's
[37:18] Speaker 1: hard to imagine. Like you're you're probably told along the
[37:23] Speaker 1: way like, oh, you're pretty safe, you're gonna be on
[37:25] Speaker 1: base the whole time, and da da da da dah.
[37:27] Speaker 1: So something like that occurs, you're like, oh, what the
[37:30] Speaker 1: hell is this? This is not worth it.
[37:32] Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, man, man, oh good.
[37:36] Speaker 1: When you So, when you finished contracting, you moved on
[37:40] Speaker 1: to what do you call it? I mean I wouldn't
[37:42] Speaker 1: say it's special mission unit, but what what kind of organization?
[37:46] Speaker 1: How would you describe it?
[37:48] Speaker 2: Yeah, it's it's a lot of people have said, uh,
[37:52] Speaker 2: special mission unit because it's military terminology, and it's and
[37:56] Speaker 2: that's the easiest way to explain it. It was called
[38:00] Speaker 2: the special programs and you were always co located with
[38:06] Speaker 2: one of the military special mission units. Well almost exclusively.
[38:11] Speaker 2: It depended on where you go. But yeah, that's where
[38:14] Speaker 2: I've moved on to after Ramadi.
[38:17] Speaker 1: Now, a lot of those guys, I guess the way
[38:19] Speaker 1: it works is to meet like some of the was
[38:23] Speaker 1: it Title nine or one of those title like restrictions,
[38:26] Speaker 1: they would kind of you know, like ominous Dominus, you
[38:31] Speaker 1: Tier one operator, you are now part of this group
[38:34] Speaker 1: so that you can go legally do whatever it is
[38:36] Speaker 1: that we are going to go have you do. And
[38:37] Speaker 1: that kind of how it works when you work with
[38:39] Speaker 1: those guys.
[38:40] Speaker 2: That's exactly right. We all got we got diplomatic passports
[38:45] Speaker 2: which were real, and then we got a bunch of
[38:47] Speaker 2: different fake id's I don't know if I sent you
[38:51] Speaker 2: the one the Captain Phil McCracken when I was in
[38:54] Speaker 2: h somewhere in Afghanistan. But it's an Ice AFF badge
[38:58] Speaker 2: and it's it's a legitimate ADS. But when you look
[39:01] Speaker 2: at the bottom, it says Captain Phil McCracken and uh,
[39:05] Speaker 2: and that was literally my ID wherever I went, Man,
[39:08] Speaker 2: I was Captain Phil McCracken on that on that particular deployment.
[39:14] Speaker 2: But you would have an actual diplomatic passport to kind
[39:18] Speaker 2: of get you through a lot of trouble. Are a
[39:22] Speaker 2: lot of problems. It didn't solve every problem, but it
[39:24] Speaker 2: solved a lot. And then you had the official fake IDs,
[39:30] Speaker 2: you know that because you didn't want with Ice Aff,
[39:34] Speaker 2: with any coalition. Man, you don't. You're doing shit that
[39:40] Speaker 2: you don't want everybody to know about, even your partnered countries,
[39:44] Speaker 2: because not all of them need to know what what
[39:46] Speaker 2: you're doing. So you had to assume that people were
[39:49] Speaker 2: collecting on you, you know, and and you had ship you know,
[39:53] Speaker 2: depending on how far it went, but you had things
[39:56] Speaker 2: like cover stories and uh, cover for action, cover status.
[40:00] Speaker 2: I think it was the phrase, but that's just people
[40:04] Speaker 2: you kind of interact with. But then there were people
[40:07] Speaker 2: that you were working with, and they may come from
[40:11] Speaker 2: like the sas, the British and the Australian Sas. I
[40:15] Speaker 2: worked with them, the cans Off guys. The uh, there's
[40:20] Speaker 2: a guy he has the I believe he has the
[40:22] Speaker 2: world record for the longest sniper kill. He was in Yeah,
[40:26] Speaker 2: he was in can I think he was in Kandahar
[40:28] Speaker 2: with us in two thousand and five or six. And uh,
[40:33] Speaker 2: And I didn't know that the Canadians had a Tier
[40:35] Speaker 2: one unit. Man and man, these guys were just super
[40:38] Speaker 2: squared away and they were always doing crazy shit and
[40:41] Speaker 2: they were very good to us because at this particular
[40:45] Speaker 2: time we were, on the one hand, it's good to
[40:50] Speaker 2: be below the radar, and we were pretty pretty far
[40:53] Speaker 2: below the radar. Unfortunately, we were too far in this
[40:57] Speaker 2: particular case, and the US military Aviation wouldn't support us.
[41:03] Speaker 2: They're like, we don't know who you are, and it's like, well,
[41:06] Speaker 2: I can't really tell you who we are, and we're
[41:07] Speaker 2: like we're not. We're not giving you helicopters. But they
[41:10] Speaker 2: would support the Canadians Tier one unit. So we worked
[41:13] Speaker 2: a drug deal with them. They would give us four
[41:15] Speaker 2: seats on every schnook that came in to support them,
[41:20] Speaker 2: they would give us four seats, so we could kind
[41:23] Speaker 2: of plan logistically speaking. You know, hey, man, birds coming
[41:28] Speaker 2: in on Tuesday, Do we have anybody that needs to
[41:31] Speaker 2: go over to calf or something like that, because you know,
[41:35] Speaker 2: when you're talking about the the bids, My buddy Don
[41:39] Speaker 2: headshot Don Bradley. He got blown up a week before
[41:42] Speaker 2: I got to Kanada ar and it was they were
[41:45] Speaker 2: doing an admin move because we didn't have enough helicopters
[41:49] Speaker 2: and they wouldn't support us. And he got t boned
[41:52] Speaker 2: by a car bomb. It detonated, it blew him over
[41:55] Speaker 2: on his side. Now they all lived, but that was
[41:58] Speaker 2: just another example of what can have happened. Man, if
[42:01] Speaker 2: people find out who you are.
[42:02] Speaker 1: Man, you know, yeah, and I think so. I think
[42:04] Speaker 1: the Canadian one is JTF two.
[42:06] Speaker 2: If that's if I.
[42:08] Speaker 1: Had one of their guys on, I'll have to look
[42:10] Speaker 1: and see I had one of the JTF guys on,
[42:14] Speaker 1: not the one he was also a sniper. Uh, Jeff
[42:18] Speaker 1: Dallas d'pati epis, I probably said his last thing wrong.
[42:22] Speaker 1: Sorry Jeff, if you if you hear this so bad?
[42:28] Speaker 1: Who knows but that's so interesting, like walking around with
[42:32] Speaker 1: all these I mean, if you get caught and you're
[42:34] Speaker 1: rolling around with multiple IDs, that's that's obviously not good news,
[42:39] Speaker 1: right do you have you know, when you're working in
[42:42] Speaker 1: that kind of I guess when you're working like that,
[42:46] Speaker 1: how far does diplomatic community carry for you, because you
[42:50] Speaker 1: can easily be charged with like espionage and you know,
[42:53] Speaker 1: taking to some dark hole and fucking thrown in there.
[42:56] Speaker 2: You know. Yeah, absolutely, we did have one guy get
[43:02] Speaker 2: rolled up and he did I think nine months in
[43:05] Speaker 2: a Pakistani prison. Yeah, I Man, I can't remember his
[43:10] Speaker 2: name now I can see his face, but he got
[43:15] Speaker 2: he got rolled up in somewhere in Pakistan, and you know,
[43:19] Speaker 2: he tried to do the you know, hey, man, diplomatic passport.
[43:22] Speaker 2: I worked for the embassy. And the story I heard
[43:26] Speaker 2: and I can't confirm this or haven't confirmed this, but
[43:28] Speaker 2: the story I heard was because I actually went to
[43:33] Speaker 2: Seer school after this, but I think they talked about
[43:36] Speaker 2: it in Serier school. But he stuck to his cover
[43:41] Speaker 2: story and everything. Man, he had the diplomatic passport and
[43:45] Speaker 2: he was like, hey, I'm I work with computers. I'm
[43:47] Speaker 2: an advisor to the US embassy, and I think they
[43:50] Speaker 2: were going to let him, let him roll. And the
[43:53] Speaker 2: story I heard was that they did a Google search
[43:56] Speaker 2: on his name and came up like on his Facebook
[44:00] Speaker 2: profile and his girlfriend was like, you know, hey, my
[44:04] Speaker 2: boyfriend's at Green Beret and he works for the CIA
[44:07] Speaker 2: and he's gonna kill those motherfuckers or something like that.
[44:09] Speaker 2: So like, oh, really, you're a fucking computer guy. So
[44:12] Speaker 2: he did nine months in prison in Pakistan and eventually
[44:17] Speaker 2: they negotiated him out. And there's been other in that
[44:21] Speaker 2: was the I'll say that because it's open source there,
[44:24] Speaker 2: there's been other stuff that's happened.
[44:28] Speaker 1: Knowing knowing that that kind of thing happens. When you
[44:32] Speaker 1: see a news story about an American that's like supposedly
[44:35] Speaker 1: a contractor or a tourist that gets captured in another
[44:38] Speaker 1: country that's being held, are you does it make you
[44:40] Speaker 1: question why they were actually there?
[44:43] Speaker 2: Absolutely? Are you?
[44:44] Speaker 1: Like, Yeah, I don't know if this dude actually is
[44:46] Speaker 1: a tourist there or I don't know if he is
[44:48] Speaker 1: or whatever.
[44:49] Speaker 2: Yeah, it's and I'm not saying everybody's you know, lying
[44:55] Speaker 2: or what. I'm just saying it. It does make me
[44:57] Speaker 2: question it, man, Absolutely, makes me question it.
[45:00] Speaker 1: That's so crazy. I mean, working in an environment like
[45:03] Speaker 1: that and with a group like that probably makes you
[45:06] Speaker 1: question a lot of things that you're told, you know,
[45:08] Speaker 1: by by official sources. I mean even me being in
[45:11] Speaker 1: the military, having having had access to like secret stuff,
[45:15] Speaker 1: and and just not even not even access to secret stuff,
[45:19] Speaker 1: but like being on operations and seeing operation being it
[45:23] Speaker 1: talked about on the news and then getting it wrong
[45:25] Speaker 1: and being like that's not what happened or that's not
[45:27] Speaker 1: how it went, Like what are they talking about?
[45:29] Speaker 2: You know?
[45:30] Speaker 1: Knowing like I don't, I don't know. It's so weird,
[45:34] Speaker 1: Like that's one thing I do kind of miss. It's
[45:37] Speaker 1: kind of being where you're like you have to peak
[45:39] Speaker 1: behind the curtain, you kind of know what's happening, you
[45:43] Speaker 1: kind of know. I don't know. It's a it's a weird.
[45:48] Speaker 1: It's a weird way to think about stuff after you've
[45:50] Speaker 1: and I'm not saying like there's all kinds of espionage
[45:53] Speaker 1: and all this, like you know everything is everything is
[45:56] Speaker 1: I mean there is, right there, there's quite a bit,
[46:01] Speaker 1: but not everything is a conspiracy or not everything that
[46:03] Speaker 1: conspiracy theorists believe is true, and stuff like that a
[46:06] Speaker 1: lot of it, Yeah, because we overclassify stuff in the military.
[46:11] Speaker 1: A lot of stuff that's just completely ridiculous gets some
[46:15] Speaker 1: legs underneath it because nobody will come out and deny
[46:17] Speaker 1: it because of whatever.
[46:19] Speaker 2: You know.
[46:20] Speaker 1: I don't know. I always thought like a lot of
[46:21] Speaker 1: the stuff that's classified is just like, why is this classified?
[46:24] Speaker 1: Why can't we tell people about this, or why even
[46:27] Speaker 1: down the road, like five years later, why can't this
[46:29] Speaker 1: be discussed like the American taxpayers are paying for this
[46:32] Speaker 1: or whatever. I mean, obviously, uh, obviously, like sources and
[46:38] Speaker 1: methods and stuff like that are secret for a reason.
[46:42] Speaker 1: But I don't know. Some of this stuff is just
[46:45] Speaker 1: kind of ridiculous. But yeah, I could see how working
[46:47] Speaker 1: in an environment like you were where it probably makes
[46:50] Speaker 1: you question a lot of stuff.
[46:51] Speaker 2: You're like hmmm, oh yeah, man, hmmm.
[46:54] Speaker 1: And again you don't even know, like you can't even
[46:56] Speaker 1: be like, oh yeah, I'm sure that guy was a
[46:58] Speaker 1: tourist or I'm sure that was the official story is correct.
[47:01] Speaker 2: You know, everything is compartmentalized for one thing, so even
[47:09] Speaker 2: if you do know the truth, you only know the
[47:12] Speaker 2: truth about one particular, very small event. I played a
[47:19] Speaker 2: very small part in recovering a Stinger missile in two
[47:23] Speaker 2: thousand and I think it was six or seven, and
[47:27] Speaker 2: we were just told to go by dismissile. That's what
[47:30] Speaker 2: we're told to do. And we weren't watching the news
[47:33] Speaker 2: just because of the place where we were. But like
[47:39] Speaker 2: I said, I played a very small part in it,
[47:41] Speaker 2: but I was involved, me and two other guys, and
[47:46] Speaker 2: I was like, fucking cool, man, we just bought a
[47:48] Speaker 2: Stinger missile. Man, that's fucking crazy. Well years later I
[47:52] Speaker 2: found out that was almost I can't say one hundred percent,
[47:58] Speaker 2: but we probably bought the Stinger that shot down Flipper
[48:01] Speaker 2: seventy five. And like I said, I didn't know this.
[48:05] Speaker 2: The military covered it up, but they're admitting it now.
[48:09] Speaker 2: Flipper seventy five was a Chinook that was shot down
[48:12] Speaker 2: by an American Stinger missile and it's the first confirmed
[48:16] Speaker 2: to shoot down of an American aircraft by an American missile.
[48:20] Speaker 2: They traced the missile back to the Afghan Ward and
[48:22] Speaker 2: like I want to say, nineteen eighty two is the
[48:25] Speaker 2: lot number. So everyone killed on this aircraft were killed
[48:29] Speaker 2: by a Stinger missile that was provided to the Afghans
[48:33] Speaker 2: by the Americans and that was the first time it happened.
[48:36] Speaker 2: It wasn't the last. The second time, I can't remember
[48:41] Speaker 2: the call signed, but it was a age of the
[48:47] Speaker 2: latest generation Stinger and instead of exploding near it, which
[48:51] Speaker 2: is it's kind of like a shotgun blast is the
[48:54] Speaker 2: idea behind missiles. Well, the latest generation Stinger was actually good.
[49:00] Speaker 2: It went right into the engine and the engine ate
[49:03] Speaker 2: it because the engines are made out of titanium. So
[49:06] Speaker 2: actually that was a good thing. And the second Shinook
[49:10] Speaker 2: was able to make it back on one engine, so
[49:13] Speaker 2: no one died. But that was the second confirmed shootdown
[49:18] Speaker 2: of an American aircraft by an American missile. And I
[49:21] Speaker 2: have I have my own theories about Turbine three three,
[49:26] Speaker 2: which is red Wings and I'm not saying I know
[49:28] Speaker 2: this to be a fact, but it may have been.
[49:31] Speaker 2: I wonder if it was a Stinger missile that shot
[49:34] Speaker 2: them down in not an SA seven. And that's a
[49:36] Speaker 2: whole other conversation.
[49:38] Speaker 1: But well, some people even say that it was an RPG.
[49:42] Speaker 1: You know, there's a lot of debate out there again
[49:44] Speaker 1: amongst us non non ts SCI holders and right into
[49:50] Speaker 1: that kind of thing. Someone knows obviously, but there's a
[49:54] Speaker 1: lot of like people that think that it was a
[49:57] Speaker 1: lucky shot of an RPG. I've heard people say I
[50:00] Speaker 1: had ed Derek On who wrote Victory Point, which is
[50:06] Speaker 1: kind of like the full the rest of the story
[50:09] Speaker 1: behind Loan Survivor, and he covers that extensively as well.
[50:14] Speaker 1: He's got a couple books about all of that. And yeah,
[50:18] Speaker 1: Operation Red Wings and everything. And I think he also
[50:22] Speaker 1: said that a lot of people know that it was
[50:25] Speaker 1: not I could be wrong. We talk about it in
[50:28] Speaker 1: our interview. People have to go back and look. But
[50:30] Speaker 1: s A seven was also brought.
[50:32] Speaker 2: Yeah, what's the he did talk about that.
[50:35] Speaker 1: What's the Flipper flight? What was that one? What was
[50:37] Speaker 1: the call signed? I don't even remember that?
[50:40] Speaker 2: Yeah, and no, and nobody does. And they they they
[50:43] Speaker 2: covered it up for many years, Flipper seven five. And
[50:47] Speaker 2: it's at the point now where you can google it
[50:49] Speaker 2: or web search it and you can find out the details.
[50:53] Speaker 2: But the Pentagon covered that up for many years. And
[50:55] Speaker 2: so when we got the missile, and like I said,
[50:57] Speaker 2: I can't say for sure it's but I was I
[51:00] Speaker 2: was told, hey, man, this is the one that got
[51:01] Speaker 2: that Shinook. I didn't even know if Shanook had been
[51:03] Speaker 2: shot down. Like I said, everyone is very compartmentalized over
[51:07] Speaker 2: on that side. They just kind of give you a
[51:09] Speaker 2: mission and you go do it. But but what year
[51:13] Speaker 2: was a shot down? Six? I believe it was. Yeah,
[51:16] Speaker 2: I think it was six, two thousand and six.
[51:18] Speaker 1: I have to look that up. I've never even heard
[51:20] Speaker 1: of that.
[51:20] Speaker 2: Yeah, flippery, Yeah, and no one does. But it's it
[51:24] Speaker 2: was covered up and then the Pentagon admitted to it.
[51:28] Speaker 2: You can find it, but they're not advertising it, if
[51:31] Speaker 2: that makes sense. So, like like we were saying, you know,
[51:34] Speaker 2: not everything is a conspiracy, but aren't advertising And you know,
[51:38] Speaker 2: there there's a lot of stuff out there.
[51:42] Speaker 1: Now when you say you bought you bought that missile,
[51:45] Speaker 1: do you mean the spent like the the act was
[51:49] Speaker 1: shot or just the law.
[51:50] Speaker 2: Okay, Now, so a man pad has a launcher and
[51:55] Speaker 2: a battery and then you put a missile inside of
[51:58] Speaker 2: it that that's that's the stinger miss or that's any
[52:02] Speaker 2: say seven or whatever. That's how it works. And there
[52:07] Speaker 2: was a lot of disinformation which was easily disproven years
[52:12] Speaker 2: later in the Syrian Civil War, but at the time
[52:15] Speaker 2: there was a lot of disinformation being spread to the
[52:19] Speaker 2: military that don't worry about the stingers because the battery
[52:23] Speaker 2: life is only ten years. Well, that's not true. And
[52:28] Speaker 2: you can get on a number of video sites. I
[52:32] Speaker 2: don't know if they're still on YouTube, but I used
[52:34] Speaker 2: to watch the ones of the Syrian Civil War where
[52:37] Speaker 2: they would take a motorcycle battery and connect it to
[52:41] Speaker 2: the SA seven whose battery had you know, the life was,
[52:46] Speaker 2: you know, like I said, five years, ten years, whatever
[52:49] Speaker 2: the battery shelf life is. It was beyond that. But
[52:52] Speaker 2: they would hook these motorcycle batteries to it and give
[52:55] Speaker 2: it just because it's just looking for electrical current to
[52:58] Speaker 2: spend the nitrogen in a seeker, So it doesn't matter
[53:02] Speaker 2: if it's a year old or ten years old or
[53:05] Speaker 2: you know, I think thirty years old at that particular time,
[53:08] Speaker 2: two thousand and six, nineteen eighty two, do the math whatever,
[53:11] Speaker 2: twenty five years. But there was a lot of disinformation
[53:15] Speaker 2: out there like, oh, don't worry about stingers because the
[53:18] Speaker 2: battery was someone't work. Well, that was that was false.
[53:22] Speaker 1: That's crazy. Yeah, I've never even that's one I've never
[53:25] Speaker 1: even heard about. I'll have to look into that. I'm
[53:27] Speaker 1: sure we'll get some comments and with people that have
[53:29] Speaker 1: some details that have been researching, But that's who was
[53:33] Speaker 1: on that flight? Do you know was it a was
[53:34] Speaker 1: it just a regular fly? Was it special operations.
[53:36] Speaker 2: Flight or that? I'm not sure. I think there was.
[53:41] Speaker 2: I think there was a I think there were some
[53:44] Speaker 2: Brits and a military working dog team on board, and
[53:49] Speaker 2: I think it was My first guess is some guys
[53:52] Speaker 2: in the eighty second, but I could be wrong. I'm
[53:56] Speaker 2: not sure if they were going on a raid or
[53:57] Speaker 2: if it was like a what do you call a
[54:00] Speaker 2: like a ring route or something, because chinooks were used
[54:03] Speaker 2: for everything in Afghanistan because they're the only ones that
[54:06] Speaker 2: had the power to get over the mountains.
[54:08] Speaker 1: Yeah, what do we call those? Not transit flights, but
[54:12] Speaker 1: like you said, like a ring route, it's basically for
[54:14] Speaker 1: those that don't know, that's like, hey, you know flipper
[54:17] Speaker 1: seven five, if that's the call sign, you're gonna be
[54:19] Speaker 1: flying from Canda Hard to Bastion to freaking Sooning and
[54:24] Speaker 1: you're basically just hitting all these bases and taking people
[54:27] Speaker 1: from one place to another. And that's what they do.
[54:29] Speaker 1: There's like a schedule, there's like a regular, regular schedule
[54:32] Speaker 1: for that so that people that need to move around
[54:34] Speaker 1: the country to do certain things, can move to different places. Yeah,
[54:38] Speaker 1: that's that's crazy. Yeah, man, that's that's intriguing. I'm definitely
[54:42] Speaker 1: have to look. What's it like to be involved in
[54:44] Speaker 1: something like that where you've purchased like that's some like
[54:48] Speaker 1: movie shit, right, like where you're out undercover buying Stinger
[54:51] Speaker 1: missile parts.
[54:52] Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, and we didn't know what. Again, they're very compartmentalized.
[54:58] Speaker 2: They were just like, hey, man, go you know, this
[55:00] Speaker 2: is your mission today type of thing. We didn't know
[55:03] Speaker 2: about this being shot down, and we didn't get this information.
[55:08] Speaker 2: I can't remember when we found out or when we
[55:11] Speaker 2: heard through the grape vine. But so you don't really
[55:14] Speaker 2: you don't always know what you're doing when you're doing it.
[55:18] Speaker 2: And that's just the way that that game is played.
[55:21] Speaker 2: You know, you try to get as much information as
[55:23] Speaker 2: you can. But I think it was such a high
[55:26] Speaker 2: priority because the military was worried that people would find
[55:30] Speaker 2: out that they lost an American aircraft to an American missile.
[55:33] Speaker 2: I think that was kind of the because I remember
[55:36] Speaker 2: that day, man, just everything stopped and they're like, hey, man,
[55:38] Speaker 2: come come to the team room. Get everybody in here.
[55:41] Speaker 2: We got to brief some ship and uh, and we
[55:44] Speaker 2: were close to the Iranian border, so I thought it
[55:46] Speaker 2: was more aligned with the Iranians, but but it wasn't,
[55:51] Speaker 2: or or it might have been. I don't know, but
[55:53] Speaker 2: but they were just like, hey, man, you got to
[55:55] Speaker 2: make this shit happen today. This, this is the highest
[55:58] Speaker 2: priority today. And as yeah, Roger, Dad, you know, you.
[56:02] Speaker 1: Know when you say that you go into some of
[56:03] Speaker 1: these missions and you don't you don't really have all
[56:06] Speaker 1: the info. Do you feel like you're do you ever
[56:09] Speaker 1: feel like you're put being put on like a maybe
[56:12] Speaker 1: a suicide mission, Like you feel safe? Obviously there's a
[56:16] Speaker 1: known level of danger all the time when you're doing
[56:18] Speaker 1: these kind of operations, but do you feel like that
[56:22] Speaker 1: the safeties that could be put in place are in
[56:24] Speaker 1: place when you're going out and doing these Are you
[56:26] Speaker 1: just hoping that you know someone out there is looking
[56:29] Speaker 1: out for you kind of deal?
[56:30] Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean that's a great question. On some level, man,
[56:37] Speaker 2: You do you do kind of wonder what I will
[56:41] Speaker 2: tell you, Uh, I can't talk about the selection process
[56:45] Speaker 2: or anything, but you do you do go through a
[56:47] Speaker 2: selection process and you have to be vetted. Someone on
[56:51] Speaker 2: the program has to say they have to vouch for
[56:56] Speaker 2: you in such a way that that you're worthy of
[57:00] Speaker 2: being taken a chance on. And then you go through
[57:03] Speaker 2: the selection process and it's not always physical. It's not
[57:07] Speaker 2: always like you know, like road marches or whatever. There's
[57:11] Speaker 2: a lot of shooting, but there's a lot of psychological
[57:14] Speaker 2: a lot of psychological stuff, a lot of scenarios and questions.
[57:19] Speaker 2: But but they tell you early on because it's all
[57:22] Speaker 2: the Tier one guys that run the selection and it
[57:25] Speaker 2: used to be and it still is a Tier one mission.
[57:29] Speaker 2: During g WATT, they didn't have enough guys that could
[57:31] Speaker 2: do the mission, so they had to say, we need
[57:34] Speaker 2: to create our own unit. They can do just that mission,
[57:38] Speaker 2: and then we do the raids, you know, the raids
[57:40] Speaker 2: and the hostage rescues and stuff. But they kind of
[57:43] Speaker 2: tell you early on, man, They're like, look, this is
[57:46] Speaker 2: the highest threat. It's also the highest paid, but it's
[57:49] Speaker 2: the highest threat mission you can get into on this
[57:54] Speaker 2: side of the fence. And some guys walked away from
[57:58] Speaker 2: it after a trip, you know, some and I never
[58:01] Speaker 2: faulted those guys, but they kind of tell you up front.
[58:04] Speaker 2: They're like, hey, man, air support, and you know, like
[58:08] Speaker 2: when it went to Candahart, Man, we didn't have any
[58:10] Speaker 2: air support. We were driving out through the mountains in
[58:12] Speaker 2: the middle of the night, man, and if we would
[58:14] Speaker 2: have got caught, man, it would have been you're done.
[58:17] Speaker 2: But they kind of tell you up front and you
[58:20] Speaker 2: just have to kind of ask yourself is this what
[58:23] Speaker 2: I want to do? But they're pretty up front about it, man,
[58:26] Speaker 2: They're like, hey, man, you were absolutely fucking hanging it
[58:29] Speaker 2: out there, man, and we did it. If you don't
[58:31] Speaker 2: want to be here, and not everybody stayed, even if
[58:35] Speaker 2: they made the selection process, not everybody stayed.
[58:38] Speaker 1: Yeah. You know you talk about like rolling through Candahart
[58:41] Speaker 1: at night or wherever, rolling through anywhere in Afghanistan. I
[58:44] Speaker 1: mean you can get stopped by a Taliban checkpoint or
[58:47] Speaker 1: something that kind of situation. Is it just fight your
[58:49] Speaker 1: way out of it? And I mean are you able
[58:52] Speaker 1: to contact a QRF or anything or is it just hey, dude,
[58:55] Speaker 1: you're on your own, man, Ben Man.
[58:57] Speaker 2: Yeah, we were on our own, and I guess I
[59:00] Speaker 2: shouldn't say where, but but we were on our own.
[59:03] Speaker 2: And then in certain places if if if you could
[59:10] Speaker 2: and if it like if you were in a safe house,
[59:12] Speaker 2: you know, you're not gonna have a QRF. But if
[59:15] Speaker 2: you're on a base somewhere and you can, you can
[59:17] Speaker 2: build a local QRF. There were places where we had
[59:22] Speaker 2: vended local nationals as our QRF, and you're like, you know, man,
[59:26] Speaker 2: I hope they want our money more than the Taliban money, man,
[59:29] Speaker 2: because there's only two of us. So there was only
[59:31] Speaker 2: four of us, you know, but a lot of times, man,
[59:35] Speaker 2: like when you rolled out, man, you had a vehicle
[59:37] Speaker 2: that was capable of damn near doing surgery on somebody.
[59:43] Speaker 2: I mean, you had medgear, you had water, you had, man,
[59:46] Speaker 2: you had so much fucking ammo. Man, holy shit, you
[59:49] Speaker 2: could really you wouldn't want to try it, but you
[59:51] Speaker 2: could hold off a small army man for sure. You
[59:55] Speaker 2: hope it never got to that, because that's with that's
[59:59] Speaker 2: if everything working right, What if you're injured, What if
[1:00:02] Speaker 2: you're shot. I wasn't there when it happened, but we
[1:00:06] Speaker 2: had a guy they blew through a checkpoint. It just
[1:00:13] Speaker 2: happened to be a legitimate checkpoint, but they weren't wearing
[1:00:17] Speaker 2: uniforms and it was it was a it was a
[1:00:20] Speaker 2: perfect storm, but they blasted through it, man, and they
[1:00:25] Speaker 2: just got the ship shot out of them. Well, one
[1:00:28] Speaker 2: rounds went through the vehicle because again it's armored, but
[1:00:31] Speaker 2: it's not armored forever if you're shooting at it with
[1:00:33] Speaker 2: machine guns. And he had a round go through his uh,
[1:00:37] Speaker 2: through his leg, and eventually the vehicle went down. Right,
[1:00:40] Speaker 2: and you're just you know, one or two guys in
[1:00:43] Speaker 2: a car. I mean, how how I mean you could
[1:00:45] Speaker 2: be the best dude in the world. Man, your two
[1:00:47] Speaker 2: guys facing ten twenty guys. I mean, it's the odds
[1:00:51] Speaker 2: are not in your favor. So the vehicle went down,
[1:00:54] Speaker 2: and they were trying to E and e and they
[1:00:56] Speaker 2: grabbed the saw and the grenade launcher and it's starting
[1:00:59] Speaker 2: to get and they get behind this like little burm. Well,
[1:01:03] Speaker 2: it's two guys, man and an interpreter, and he puts
[1:01:07] Speaker 2: on a no he sees that he's shot and he's bleeding,
[1:01:12] Speaker 2: and he tells the other guy like, hey man, I'm shot. Well,
[1:01:15] Speaker 2: the guy tells he's losing consciousness. So the guy tells
[1:01:19] Speaker 2: the interpreter, hey man, put a fucking tourniquet on the
[1:01:22] Speaker 2: guy and fucking I'll hold off this group. They didn't
[1:01:26] Speaker 2: know who it was. Well, eventually they got more or
[1:01:29] Speaker 2: less overrun by these guys and it was just like fuck, man,
[1:01:33] Speaker 2: we're done. Here we go. And then they realized it
[1:01:36] Speaker 2: was a green on blue situation and they de escalated.
[1:01:41] Speaker 2: The guy bled to death because the interpreter was scared
[1:01:44] Speaker 2: and didn't know how to use the tourniquet, and he
[1:01:46] Speaker 2: didn't put the tourniquet on like he had been instructed.
[1:01:48] Speaker 2: So here's an example of I mean, you're you're just
[1:01:51] Speaker 2: out there on your own. Man. I'll say his name
[1:01:54] Speaker 2: is Greg Wright, and I'm sure you can find his
[1:01:58] Speaker 2: name online or something. But man, it was just it
[1:02:00] Speaker 2: was just a perfect storm. And it was just one
[1:02:03] Speaker 2: of those things man, that you know nobody's coming for
[1:02:05] Speaker 2: you and you really have to. Not everybody's comfortable with that.
[1:02:11] Speaker 2: And I'm not saying I'm not better than anybody or
[1:02:13] Speaker 2: anything like that, but I had been on the big
[1:02:15] Speaker 2: teams in the State Department, and I felt like I
[1:02:18] Speaker 2: was a sitting duck. I would much rather sneak around, man,
[1:02:21] Speaker 2: and just try to go where someone least expects me
[1:02:24] Speaker 2: to go. Yeah, so it worked for me, but it
[1:02:28] Speaker 2: didn't work for everybody. You know.
[1:02:30] Speaker 1: When I mean, obviously the missions are extremely dangerous in
[1:02:36] Speaker 1: a situation like that, when someone gets killed, I mean,
[1:02:40] Speaker 1: do we ever hear about that? Or is that like
[1:02:43] Speaker 1: name on the wall, star on the wall at the
[1:02:45] Speaker 1: CIA or something, you know, like that's one of those
[1:02:47] Speaker 1: things you just don't I mean does their family even
[1:02:50] Speaker 1: find out what happened to them? A lot of times.
[1:02:54] Speaker 2: Usually not.
[1:02:57] Speaker 1: Just a very like generic like hey, killed during an
[1:03:00] Speaker 1: operation kind of details.
[1:03:03] Speaker 2: Yeah, because today is like the digital age, it's hard
[1:03:08] Speaker 2: to uh, it's hard to keep secrets now. Yeah, when
[1:03:14] Speaker 2: when Scott Roberson was killed in the coast, that was man,
[1:03:19] Speaker 2: it made you know, international news. That was the deadliest
[1:03:22] Speaker 2: day in the intelligence community in history. I think they
[1:03:25] Speaker 2: lost nine people in one suicide bomb.
[1:03:30] Speaker 1: And was that when they were bringing in what they
[1:03:32] Speaker 1: thought was an asset and they were trying to get
[1:03:34] Speaker 1: info on Ben Lawden's location.
[1:03:37] Speaker 2: That was it? Yep Belawi? Yeah, and and he had
[1:03:42] Speaker 2: been overruled. He was with me in Ramond he actually
[1:03:46] Speaker 2: I don't know if I told him. I put it
[1:03:48] Speaker 2: in the book. I was I was a bouncer. I
[1:03:52] Speaker 2: couldn't I couldn't get a job anywhere. And uh, the
[1:03:56] Speaker 2: bartender comes up to me one day and he's like, hey, man,
[1:03:58] Speaker 2: that guy there's by drugs. Man, you got to throw
[1:04:01] Speaker 2: him the fuck out of here. We'll lose our license.
[1:04:03] Speaker 2: He was a pretty jacked up dude, and I didn't
[1:04:06] Speaker 2: want to fight this guy. So I go over to
[1:04:07] Speaker 2: him and I put my hand on him. I'm like, hey, brother,
[1:04:09] Speaker 2: time to call it a night, you know. And if
[1:04:11] Speaker 2: he would have done anything squarely, I was going to
[1:04:13] Speaker 2: choke him out right. Well, he goes out. I never
[1:04:15] Speaker 2: saw him again. I'm like, you know, hey, man, I
[1:04:17] Speaker 2: was you know, whooped him again? Josie A couple of
[1:04:20] Speaker 2: years later in the team room in Ramadi. It's the
[1:04:22] Speaker 2: fucking guy, right, I'm like, hey, man, where do I
[1:04:24] Speaker 2: know you from? He's like, you threw me out of
[1:04:26] Speaker 2: a bar in fucking Atlanta. I'm like, what the fuck.
[1:04:29] Speaker 2: He was an undercovered narcotics agent, so he was in
[1:04:31] Speaker 2: there buying buying drugs as part of his cover and
[1:04:35] Speaker 2: he just happened to get seen or whatever. Well that
[1:04:37] Speaker 2: was Scott Roberson and he was the team leader in
[1:04:40] Speaker 2: Coast and UH and a lot of experience. Man, guy
[1:04:44] Speaker 2: had a lot of experience. All those guys did. And
[1:04:47] Speaker 2: this was the case of someone chasing that next rung
[1:04:54] Speaker 2: on the ladder and uh, you know, SP's written in blood, man,
[1:04:58] Speaker 2: And everybody had sperience and everybody said no, but they
[1:05:02] Speaker 2: were they were overruled by the commander. You know. The
[1:05:06] Speaker 2: commander was like, hey, you're a bunch of fucking contractors,
[1:05:09] Speaker 2: you work for me or whatever. And they all got killed,
[1:05:11] Speaker 2: you know, because of that decision.
[1:05:13] Speaker 1: So yeah, because the decision was they were trying to
[1:05:16] Speaker 1: they didn't want to offend them, right, so they weren't
[1:05:18] Speaker 1: doing like full searches of them or their vehicles. And
[1:05:20] Speaker 1: that one time they just brought in an explosive and
[1:05:22] Speaker 1: blew them up right there at the gate or something
[1:05:24] Speaker 1: like that.
[1:05:25] Speaker 2: Fu inside the compound. Man.
[1:05:27] Speaker 1: Yeah, that's crazy, dude. It's so crazy to think you
[1:05:30] Speaker 1: went from being a bouncer to doing all this crazy.
[1:05:35] Speaker 1: Did you ever imagine that's the that's the you know,
[1:05:38] Speaker 1: the path your life would take.
[1:05:40] Speaker 2: Oh, no fucking way. I mean yes, And no, I was.
[1:05:44] Speaker 2: I was so mad that I was a bouncer because
[1:05:46] Speaker 2: it was like after the first year, you know, I
[1:05:49] Speaker 2: got a lot of stuff out of my system. But
[1:05:50] Speaker 2: after the first year, it's like, Okay, I need to
[1:05:53] Speaker 2: be in my career. I'm a four street com marine.
[1:05:55] Speaker 2: I got a college education, I got a pilot's license,
[1:05:57] Speaker 2: I speak pretty decent Spanish. Why am I not where
[1:06:01] Speaker 2: I'm supposed to be? You know? So I was pretty
[1:06:04] Speaker 2: pissed off. But when I finally got out of the business,
[1:06:08] Speaker 2: it was like, holy shit, look look what I'm doing now, man.
[1:06:10] Speaker 2: I mean six months ago, I was breaking up fights
[1:06:12] Speaker 2: for ten dollars an hour, and now I'm carrying a
[1:06:15] Speaker 2: machine gun.
[1:06:15] Speaker 1: So careful what you asked for?
[1:06:18] Speaker 2: Also, you know, careful what you asked for? Man. A
[1:06:20] Speaker 2: cautionary tale.
[1:06:21] Speaker 1: Yeah, for sure.
[1:06:24] Speaker 2: You know.
[1:06:26] Speaker 1: I think a lot of guys that get out of
[1:06:28] Speaker 1: the military, to go back to what you were talking about,
[1:06:30] Speaker 1: being a bouncer and stuff, there's a lot of guys
[1:06:32] Speaker 1: that get out of the military and expect that with
[1:06:35] Speaker 1: their with their whatever technical experience that they gained while
[1:06:39] Speaker 1: they're in the military, whatever prestige that comes from being
[1:06:43] Speaker 1: a veteran, and the discipline that comes with that, that
[1:06:46] Speaker 1: they're going to have a probably a pretty easy time
[1:06:49] Speaker 1: finding the job that they want to do when they
[1:06:51] Speaker 1: get out. And that's not always the case. What how
[1:06:54] Speaker 1: do you how do you keep from going down a
[1:06:57] Speaker 1: dark road because you it took you a long time
[1:07:00] Speaker 1: to get to get to do what you wanted to do, right.
[1:07:03] Speaker 2: Yeah, oh yeah, man, Yeah, that's you know. I definitely
[1:07:09] Speaker 2: went down dark roads man, many many, many times. I
[1:07:13] Speaker 2: was one paycheck away from being homeless. Many times. I
[1:07:17] Speaker 2: remember I got off I didn't have a car. At
[1:07:19] Speaker 2: one point, I got off the I got off the train,
[1:07:23] Speaker 2: it's called the Marta train. It was too late at
[1:07:26] Speaker 2: night for the buses to run, so I had to
[1:07:28] Speaker 2: walk back to my apartment. And I remember seeing these
[1:07:32] Speaker 2: homeless guys underneath the overpass the bridge, and I was like, man,
[1:07:38] Speaker 2: with all of my credentials and all of my training,
[1:07:42] Speaker 2: I'm one paycheck away from being one of those guys. Man.
[1:07:45] Speaker 2: And you're just like, you know, what, what did I
[1:07:46] Speaker 2: do wrong? Man? Who did I piss off? You know?
[1:07:49] Speaker 2: You just yeah, Man, you can really get into some
[1:07:51] Speaker 2: dark thoughts.
[1:07:53] Speaker 1: Yeah, you start blaming yourself, like what is it me?
[1:07:56] Speaker 1: You know? Am I am I a problem? Like why
[1:07:58] Speaker 1: can't it even when you get credential, you know, because
[1:08:01] Speaker 1: you were in chellege, right, you got a degree and
[1:08:02] Speaker 1: everything like and it's still I mean I'll tell people
[1:08:07] Speaker 1: for real, like I've looked for jobs before and just
[1:08:10] Speaker 1: don't ever get a response, and it's like, dude, yeah,
[1:08:13] Speaker 1: what the fuck am I doing wrong? You know? And
[1:08:15] Speaker 1: you start questioning like is it is? Am I a
[1:08:18] Speaker 1: piece of shit? You know what? How am I coming off? Like?
[1:08:20] Speaker 1: I'm not even getting a callback on forty resumes getting submitted,
[1:08:25] Speaker 1: I don't even get a callback you know?
[1:08:26] Speaker 2: Yeah? Well I know, man, yeah, absolutely, uh no, man,
[1:08:32] Speaker 2: it's it's it's the civilian life was the toughest thing
[1:08:36] Speaker 2: in my life. Man. Absolutely, Man, it's it's and I'm
[1:08:40] Speaker 2: not downplaying people's military service or anything, but it's like, dude,
[1:08:45] Speaker 2: if you want to get your nuts crushed, man, try
[1:08:48] Speaker 2: civilian life. Man. It's just fucking you get your ass kicked, man,
[1:08:52] Speaker 2: ten times a day, you know. I mean, it's it's yeah,
[1:08:57] Speaker 2: it's tough, man.
[1:08:58] Speaker 1: I think it's a hard pill to swallow some people too,
[1:09:00] Speaker 1: because it's like most of the time, you can get
[1:09:03] Speaker 1: a job, but it's not gonna be a job that
[1:09:06] Speaker 1: you want to do. Like you went and you were
[1:09:08] Speaker 1: a bouncer for a long time. I doubt you wanted
[1:09:11] Speaker 1: to be a fucking thirty year old bouncer or something
[1:09:13] Speaker 1: like that. You know what I'm saying, like that's usually
[1:09:16] Speaker 1: like a college kid or someone you know that's doing
[1:09:18] Speaker 1: a gig like that or someone.
[1:09:20] Speaker 2: Oh yeah, and what it's like.
[1:09:23] Speaker 1: Yeah, when you look back, you're like, I get why
[1:09:27] Speaker 1: some guys get super depressed or become homeless or whatever,
[1:09:29] Speaker 1: because they're like, you know, in the military, you had
[1:09:32] Speaker 1: like this cool job you were maybe if you were
[1:09:35] Speaker 1: good at your job, you were well respected and people
[1:09:37] Speaker 1: wanted your opinion, and you know, you had a mission
[1:09:40] Speaker 1: and everybody was working towards that mission. And then you
[1:09:43] Speaker 1: get out and that's all gone, along with all the
[1:09:46] Speaker 1: support structure. You know, I'm an Afghanistan. I don't worry
[1:09:50] Speaker 1: about where the food's coming from. It's coming someone's bringing
[1:09:52] Speaker 1: us food. You know what I'm saying, Like, it's gonna
[1:09:54] Speaker 1: be there. The paycheck is gonna get is gonna get deposited.
[1:09:58] Speaker 1: You know, those are things you just don't even can
[1:10:00] Speaker 1: or because it's that's part of the whole gig. And
[1:10:02] Speaker 1: then you get out and all of that is gone,
[1:10:05] Speaker 1: and now it's like what the fuck?
[1:10:07] Speaker 2: Man? Man, Absolutely, you're exactly right. I mean, you're you're
[1:10:12] Speaker 2: one hundred percent right, you know, Yeah, you can see
[1:10:16] Speaker 2: why it affects guys.
[1:10:17] Speaker 1: Yeah, it's I just thought it's it's so interesting how
[1:10:21] Speaker 1: you went from, like I said, being a bouncer to
[1:10:24] Speaker 1: like working out buying Stinger missiles at Fort Plane. Oh
[1:10:28] Speaker 1: you know, like that's just such a crazy, like what
[1:10:31] Speaker 1: a trip, right, And it's you. I guess it's a
[1:10:34] Speaker 1: reinforces that you never know what the next door is
[1:10:38] Speaker 1: going to open. You know, the next door that you open,
[1:10:39] Speaker 1: what's going to come with that? And and maybe everything you
[1:10:43] Speaker 1: wanted it might not be, But you got to be
[1:10:44] Speaker 1: kind of flexible to to work in something like that.
[1:10:47] Speaker 1: So I don't know, is there anything else that you
[1:10:50] Speaker 1: could talk about from your time working on these special missions?
[1:10:54] Speaker 2: Man? I just I just really loved it. Yeah yeah,
[1:10:57] Speaker 2: I mean, if I get you know, if you had
[1:10:59] Speaker 2: specific questions or something. Man, I had a great time.
[1:11:03] Speaker 2: I loved it. I was very proud of what I
[1:11:06] Speaker 2: got to do because you got to see firsthand the
[1:11:11] Speaker 2: efforts of your the fruit of your labors, if you will.
[1:11:15] Speaker 2: But man, you get used and again, man, you get
[1:11:19] Speaker 2: used to this autonomy and responsibility and like we you know,
[1:11:27] Speaker 2: we didn't have support, like you know, maybe there's no
[1:11:30] Speaker 2: qr F, but man, we had our own satellite, bro.
[1:11:32] Speaker 2: Nobody has her own set. We had our own satellite.
[1:11:35] Speaker 2: We had our own I can't say the name of it,
[1:11:38] Speaker 2: but we had our own transportation airplanes from stateside over
[1:11:43] Speaker 2: and it was all business class, bro. I mean it was.
[1:11:46] Speaker 2: They took care of you. Man, you knew you were
[1:11:49] Speaker 2: at the top of the food chain. That was about
[1:11:50] Speaker 2: as good as it was every gonna get unless you
[1:11:53] Speaker 2: won the lottery, and even then, I mean it was
[1:11:56] Speaker 2: it was just great. I loved it. I loved the people.
[1:12:00] Speaker 2: Holy shit, man, I just I just had a greareat time.
[1:12:03] Speaker 2: It was. It was absolutely what I wanted to do,
[1:12:06] Speaker 2: what I'd always wanted to do. I did it for
[1:12:08] Speaker 2: twelve years. Like I said, not every day was you know,
[1:12:12] Speaker 2: like a gunfight or something. But man, I got to
[1:12:14] Speaker 2: do some awesome stuff, met incredible people, learned a lot.
[1:12:20] Speaker 1: And what's the downtime, Like, you know, you say, you're
[1:12:24] Speaker 1: not in a gunfight every day. Obviously obviously you're getting
[1:12:27] Speaker 1: paid well, you're getting treated well, and because of that,
[1:12:30] Speaker 1: they're going to use you when they need you. Sure,
[1:12:32] Speaker 1: what is it like? Is it like you know, we
[1:12:35] Speaker 1: got used to in the Global War on Terror, these
[1:12:37] Speaker 1: rotations of deployments like seven month outs come back or
[1:12:40] Speaker 1: rangers go out for like three months and come back
[1:12:42] Speaker 1: and then go back out again. Do you guys have
[1:12:45] Speaker 1: like a deployment schedule or is it just like, hey Bobby,
[1:12:48] Speaker 1: this thing came up you, we gotta take you.
[1:12:51] Speaker 2: Yeah, it's each person. So you had you had the
[1:12:56] Speaker 2: either the federal employee or the active military. Then you
[1:13:00] Speaker 2: had what's called a direct contractor, which meant you worked
[1:13:06] Speaker 2: you were contracted directly for that organization and they controlled
[1:13:11] Speaker 2: your schedule. Or you could be an industrial contractor, which
[1:13:15] Speaker 2: is what I did, and you get to pick your schedule,
[1:13:18] Speaker 2: but you're the first one to go if there's budget issues.
[1:13:23] Speaker 2: I always usually did sixty sixties because I liked to
[1:13:27] Speaker 2: plan for that, and that was kind of the standard
[1:13:29] Speaker 2: deployment because the optempo was so high you couldn't go
[1:13:33] Speaker 2: over I think it was ninety days. They would cut
[1:13:36] Speaker 2: you off at ninety days. Now, if it was like,
[1:13:41] Speaker 2: you know, the end of the world or yeah, the
[1:13:43] Speaker 2: end of the world or something, they could extend you
[1:13:45] Speaker 2: to one hundred days. But I never I didn't know
[1:13:48] Speaker 2: anyone who was extended beyond ninety days. I would normally
[1:13:53] Speaker 2: do sixty days. Now I did a twenty nine day trip.
[1:13:57] Speaker 2: I've done forty five day trips. But usually they liked
[1:14:02] Speaker 2: sixty sixty and I loved sixty sixty. Man. That was
[1:14:05] Speaker 2: that was a good mix.
[1:14:08] Speaker 1: With a weird schedule like that, where you disappear for
[1:14:10] Speaker 1: two months at a time, come back for a couple
[1:14:12] Speaker 1: of months, and then leave again. Is it even possible
[1:14:15] Speaker 1: to have a family in that kind of thing, you know?
[1:14:17] Speaker 1: I mean, how many guys actually have families? And what
[1:14:21] Speaker 1: do you tell them that you're doing. I mean, I
[1:14:22] Speaker 1: imagine you can't tell them anything at all. There's probably
[1:14:26] Speaker 1: I don't know, like, how does that work?
[1:14:29] Speaker 2: Yeah, everybody's situation is different, man, But generally speaking, man,
[1:14:37] Speaker 2: there was a lot of divorce. There was a lot
[1:14:39] Speaker 2: of alcoholism, there was a lot of there's drug use,
[1:14:43] Speaker 2: a lot of PTSD, a lot of Superman, a lot
[1:14:46] Speaker 2: of fucking suits. I couldn't believe how many people committed suicide. Man,
[1:14:51] Speaker 2: It is good, man, it's just fucking sobering. With regard
[1:14:55] Speaker 2: to my first wife, you know, not a smart move
[1:15:00] Speaker 2: on my part. I met her in the bar business.
[1:15:03] Speaker 2: I was a bouncer and she was a stripper, you know,
[1:15:05] Speaker 2: and you know marine stereotype. I mean it into the eyes,
[1:15:09] Speaker 2: don't Yeah, very marine of me, just trying to make chesty,
[1:15:12] Speaker 2: pull her proud. You know. Obviously I couldn't trust her
[1:15:17] Speaker 2: with too much information. But over time she kind of
[1:15:21] Speaker 2: figured out that I probably wasn't, you know, painting houses
[1:15:25] Speaker 2: or some shit like that. You know. Now she had
[1:15:28] Speaker 2: a pill problem and she spent a lot of the money,
[1:15:30] Speaker 2: which is another story, but that was not you know,
[1:15:36] Speaker 2: that was my situation, and I thought it was unique,
[1:15:39] Speaker 2: but it wasn't. Mean. You talk to the other guys
[1:15:41] Speaker 2: on the team, and you know, man, the wives had
[1:15:44] Speaker 2: depression or alcoholism, or the guy had alcoholism. The kids
[1:15:48] Speaker 2: you're getting in trouble. I can't remember the exact numbers,
[1:15:53] Speaker 2: but you're one of about I think there was about
[1:15:56] Speaker 2: one hundred, one hundred and twenty of us in the
[1:15:59] Speaker 2: world at one time that were assigned to the special programs.
[1:16:05] Speaker 2: So it was this very very unique skill set group
[1:16:10] Speaker 2: of people that could do these jobs. And man, the
[1:16:14] Speaker 2: phone was always ringing. The phone was always ringing, and
[1:16:19] Speaker 2: I don't know what it is, man, I'm off to
[1:16:21] Speaker 2: a flame or whatever. But you just they kind of
[1:16:24] Speaker 2: get the hooks and you you know, they look for
[1:16:26] Speaker 2: this certain type of person that's mission oriented and they
[1:16:30] Speaker 2: can definitely abuse you. And and I'm not a victim,
[1:16:33] Speaker 2: you know or anything like that, but but they would definitely, uh,
[1:16:37] Speaker 2: they would get their money's worth out of you. Man.
[1:16:40] Speaker 2: For sure, I can understand.
[1:16:43] Speaker 1: I can understand how like it's hard on families, wives, kids,
[1:16:47] Speaker 1: because one they have no idea what you're doing for real,
[1:16:51] Speaker 1: you know. And two it's so chaotic. It's not like
[1:16:55] Speaker 1: even in the military. It's tough on the families, but
[1:16:57] Speaker 1: in the military, they at least can relate to each other.
[1:17:01] Speaker 1: Like if I'm deploying, my kid is in school with
[1:17:04] Speaker 1: other kids whose dads are deployed. You know, the spouses
[1:17:07] Speaker 1: have other spouses that they can talk to, relate to.
[1:17:10] Speaker 1: They kind of there's that support system. I imagine that's
[1:17:13] Speaker 1: not really there for Yeah.
[1:17:16] Speaker 2: It doesn't exist, man. And if they don't have a
[1:17:18] Speaker 2: fam you know, if they don't have family. My wife, now, man,
[1:17:22] Speaker 2: I mean if I were if I had married her
[1:17:24] Speaker 2: the first time around, I'd probably still be doing that
[1:17:27] Speaker 2: job or you know, if I could pass the fucking
[1:17:32] Speaker 2: PT test and everything. But but she's solid and she
[1:17:37] Speaker 2: has you know, like her parents and you know, like
[1:17:40] Speaker 2: she's got a solid family, So you have to have that.
[1:17:44] Speaker 2: The spouse has to have the solid backing, and the
[1:17:49] Speaker 2: the operator has to have that as well. I was
[1:17:54] Speaker 2: never in the you know, my goal was to go
[1:17:55] Speaker 2: to the unit, and I should have pulled the trigger
[1:17:58] Speaker 2: when I was younger. But but in any case, as
[1:18:01] Speaker 2: I understand it, one of the one of the portions
[1:18:05] Speaker 2: of the Delta selection early on in their process is
[1:18:09] Speaker 2: they look to make sure that you have a stable
[1:18:12] Speaker 2: family life because the demands of the job. You know
[1:18:16] Speaker 2: that that's kind of like the weak point if you
[1:18:20] Speaker 2: if you don't have that, then it's going to come
[1:18:22] Speaker 2: unraveled somewhere down the line. Yeah.
[1:18:25] Speaker 1: So I remember talking to the one of the marsk
[1:18:31] Speaker 1: Fires guys about going over there as a jaytach and
[1:18:35] Speaker 1: they almost want to They're almost trying to talk you
[1:18:37] Speaker 1: out of doing it. They're like, hey, man, you need
[1:18:41] Speaker 1: to understand you're going to be gone two hundred plus
[1:18:43] Speaker 1: days a year. You know, like are you ready for that?
[1:18:47] Speaker 1: You're married? Is your family ready for that?
[1:18:49] Speaker 2: You know?
[1:18:49] Speaker 1: And it's almost like when you're talking to them, you're like,
[1:18:51] Speaker 1: are you a recruiter? Or are you like giving me
[1:18:55] Speaker 1: a warning? Like what is this? You know, it's kind
[1:18:56] Speaker 1: of a but I get it because that's the last thing.
[1:19:00] Speaker 1: You can't be out on a mission and worrying about
[1:19:02] Speaker 1: something going on back home, you know. And it's like,
[1:19:05] Speaker 1: because you're now, you become a liability. And when you're
[1:19:08] Speaker 1: talking about high stakes missions, like you're talking about liabilities
[1:19:13] Speaker 1: just can't be accepted. So I guess that leads in
[1:19:15] Speaker 1: on my next question. You know, you talk about guys
[1:19:17] Speaker 1: or alcoholics or on drugs and stuff, how are they
[1:19:21] Speaker 1: not weeded out? Like how is that not identified? Like hey,
[1:19:24] Speaker 1: Bobby drinks a lot? Like how is he still here?
[1:19:26] Speaker 2: You know?
[1:19:26] Speaker 1: Like do they just not see it or they kind
[1:19:30] Speaker 1: of keep a blind eye to it? Because this guy's
[1:19:32] Speaker 1: a good dude on the mission, so you know, as
[1:19:34] Speaker 1: long as he can keep it together overseas and we
[1:19:36] Speaker 1: don't care what you're doing when you're back here for
[1:19:38] Speaker 1: sixty days.
[1:19:39] Speaker 2: Yeah, it really depends a lot of guys. Some guys
[1:19:46] Speaker 2: hide it overseas, some guys don't. I saw a guy
[1:19:51] Speaker 2: man I knew the I knew he had probably been
[1:19:56] Speaker 2: in a lot of shit, and he just said that
[1:20:00] Speaker 2: look about him man, and he had that demeanor and
[1:20:03] Speaker 2: I could tell this guy I probably needed some help,
[1:20:05] Speaker 2: but I was new to the team and I didn't
[1:20:07] Speaker 2: want to say anything. Man, he was a raging alcoholic
[1:20:12] Speaker 2: and and he would he would pass out and sleep
[1:20:15] Speaker 2: until noon, and he would he would miss There were
[1:20:20] Speaker 2: some sometimes you got to do some admin moves. You
[1:20:23] Speaker 2: know that it's not always you know, dress up like
[1:20:25] Speaker 2: a local and go sneak around and take pictures or whatever.
[1:20:29] Speaker 2: And he missed a couple of men. And and he
[1:20:31] Speaker 2: was a good guy, I think, And I think if
[1:20:33] Speaker 2: there was like a real serious gunfight, man, you would
[1:20:36] Speaker 2: want this guy around. But Man, eventually, man, you burn
[1:20:39] Speaker 2: your bridge and they're just like, hey, bro, man, you're
[1:20:43] Speaker 2: a solid guy. Man, we're gonna get you some help.
[1:20:45] Speaker 2: But you are no longer on the team. You're you're
[1:20:49] Speaker 2: you know, we packed up all your stuff while you're asleep.
[1:20:53] Speaker 2: You know, we gotta we got to send you home
[1:20:56] Speaker 2: to today. Man, we're gonna we're gonna put you on
[1:20:59] Speaker 2: a plane. You're not a bad guy. And and look,
[1:21:02] Speaker 2: you're gonna call this number when you get back, or
[1:21:04] Speaker 2: someone's going to meet you at the airport. And you're
[1:21:07] Speaker 2: gonna do thirty days and whatever, you know, program of
[1:21:11] Speaker 2: a what do you call it a resident? Yeah, yeah,
[1:21:16] Speaker 2: an in resident type of d d uh aa type stuff,
[1:21:21] Speaker 2: you know. And we're we're you know, they don't just
[1:21:23] Speaker 2: sell them down the river in most cases. But man,
[1:21:27] Speaker 2: you can never come back to the to the team.
[1:21:29] Speaker 2: Uh And. And Man, that's the guy that gave me
[1:21:33] Speaker 2: my call sign, James Flynn. Man. Love the guy, man,
[1:21:37] Speaker 2: But but he had some injuries and some other issues
[1:21:43] Speaker 2: that built up over time, and eventually they're like, man,
[1:21:47] Speaker 2: you're just you're onto too many meds and stuff and
[1:21:51] Speaker 2: and your injuries. We got a fucking man, you gotta
[1:21:56] Speaker 2: you gotta call it good man. And and he killed hisself,
[1:21:59] Speaker 2: you know, because he could he couldn't be on the
[1:22:02] Speaker 2: team anymore. Like I said, Man, there was a shocking
[1:22:05] Speaker 2: amount of the suicides.
[1:22:07] Speaker 1: But do you think that's do you think that's a
[1:22:10] Speaker 1: lot of it is the is the I'm never gonna
[1:22:16] Speaker 1: do anything this, you know, crazy like this was this
[1:22:20] Speaker 1: was the peak. This was my peak. Like anything after
[1:22:23] Speaker 1: this is going to be mundane for me.
[1:22:26] Speaker 2: I think so, Man, Yeah, I think so. I had
[1:22:29] Speaker 2: a buddy uh And and his his name is out
[1:22:31] Speaker 2: there his his name has been on a couple of podcasts,
[1:22:35] Speaker 2: Drew Dwyer. He was marine man. He was he was
[1:22:39] Speaker 2: my team leader in Afghanistan in one place. Man, solid man.
[1:22:44] Speaker 2: And he retired, you know, and he was like, man,
[1:22:47] Speaker 2: I'm done, and and I found out. Uh, he actually
[1:22:50] Speaker 2: went out to Hollywood. He got he was uh and
[1:22:53] Speaker 2: I can't remember the movies he was in, but he
[1:22:56] Speaker 2: was a technical advisor and he was well paid and
[1:22:59] Speaker 2: he was well treated. He has his retirement and everything,
[1:23:02] Speaker 2: and uh, I mean he had it man, he was
[1:23:05] Speaker 2: he had you know, he had made it. He was
[1:23:07] Speaker 2: dating one of the I can't remember what team, but man,
[1:23:10] Speaker 2: the smoking hot, fucking cheerleader. Man. It was like, holy shit,
[1:23:13] Speaker 2: did you see who it's called out? A saint. It's like, man,
[1:23:18] Speaker 2: do you see who's Saints dating. I'm like no, man,
[1:23:20] Speaker 2: I'm like, holy I mean the smoking hot chick. Man.
[1:23:23] Speaker 2: So he had money, he had retirement, he had he
[1:23:25] Speaker 2: had an ultimate job in Hollywood. Man. Everyone was looking
[1:23:29] Speaker 2: for the guy man and just one day, man, he's
[1:23:31] Speaker 2: just like, you know, man, this this sitting, this isn't
[1:23:34] Speaker 2: what I wanted. He killed hisself, you know, despite having
[1:23:38] Speaker 2: all that, So you just never know.
[1:23:41] Speaker 1: Yeah, and you see it's crazy because you on the
[1:23:44] Speaker 1: outside looking in, you're going, You're going, man, he's got everything,
[1:23:48] Speaker 1: you know, He's got everything i'd ever want. A good job,
[1:23:51] Speaker 1: you know, cool girlfriend, fucking making money, probably got a
[1:23:54] Speaker 1: cool house, cool cars, you know, And that's why most
[1:23:57] Speaker 1: dudes are like, that's what I want. But I think
[1:23:59] Speaker 1: it's like you hear, especially here from celebrities and stuff.
[1:24:03] Speaker 1: It's like, you know, at the end of the day,
[1:24:04] Speaker 1: you're just a regular person and all those things are nice,
[1:24:08] Speaker 1: but they don't fulfill you, you know, and if it's
[1:24:10] Speaker 1: like something's not fulfilling you, yeah, I don't know, man,
[1:24:14] Speaker 1: that's it's a crazy world. I don't know. I don't
[1:24:18] Speaker 1: think we're ever gonna figure out how to stop suicides.
[1:24:21] Speaker 1: I think it's just I think it's an unfortunate side
[1:24:26] Speaker 1: effect of life, right, I mean, you're gonna go out
[1:24:29] Speaker 1: one way or another. And I think some people just
[1:24:31] Speaker 1: have that, Like like I said before, you know, this
[1:24:35] Speaker 1: is it for me, this is my peak. I think
[1:24:38] Speaker 1: one issue is that a lot of people think that
[1:24:40] Speaker 1: they've peaked before they actually could have. You know what
[1:24:43] Speaker 1: I'm saying, right, they sell themselves short. You know, like
[1:24:46] Speaker 1: you could have easily gone down a dark road as
[1:24:49] Speaker 1: a bouncer looking back on, man, I was a force
[1:24:52] Speaker 1: recon marine and fucking doing cool stuff. And now I'm
[1:24:56] Speaker 1: kicking dudes out that have drank too much. You know,
[1:24:58] Speaker 1: I'm trying not to get puked on by this drunk check,
[1:25:01] Speaker 1: you know, and like I can see how that would
[1:25:04] Speaker 1: lead down a very depressing road that could lead to
[1:25:07] Speaker 1: something like that. But you kept up the mindset that
[1:25:10] Speaker 1: there's something else out there for.
[1:25:12] Speaker 2: Me, right, yeah, I mean and trust me, man, everything
[1:25:17] Speaker 2: you're saying about the darkness, it was there. Man. I had,
[1:25:20] Speaker 2: you know, depression like you would not believe. Now, this
[1:25:23] Speaker 2: was pre g WAT, so I didn't really have that
[1:25:27] Speaker 2: big community to kind of not that. Not that it's
[1:25:30] Speaker 2: easier being in g WATT. I'm just I felt totally alone, man,
[1:25:34] Speaker 2: and depression, absolutely fully full on depression and everything. Man,
[1:25:40] Speaker 2: it was. It was very dark. I honestly don't know
[1:25:44] Speaker 2: how I got through it. Man. I just put one
[1:25:46] Speaker 2: foot in front of the other. I tried to build
[1:25:49] Speaker 2: up my flight time. I got involved in bodybuilding, you know,
[1:25:53] Speaker 2: so i'd have a hobby. I competed in bodybuilding. Just
[1:25:57] Speaker 2: just things to take your mind off your scenario, your
[1:26:00] Speaker 2: situation was the best way that that I got through
[1:26:03] Speaker 2: those years. But absolutely, man, it was very very very dark,
[1:26:08] Speaker 2: very dark time man. For sure.
[1:26:11] Speaker 1: I think believing in yourself, man, knowing that you know,
[1:26:14] Speaker 1: if I keep grinding away, good things are going to happen.
[1:26:17] Speaker 1: You know, I don't know. It's it's a tough world
[1:26:21] Speaker 1: out there. And I got one last question and we'll
[1:26:23] Speaker 1: wrap it up. You know, when you leave a unit,
[1:26:27] Speaker 1: like like you were talking about, especially if you're there
[1:26:30] Speaker 1: for an extended period of time, five years, ten years, whatever, Yeah,
[1:26:34] Speaker 1: how do you go find another job? What do you
[1:26:36] Speaker 1: put on your resume for that?
[1:26:37] Speaker 2: You know?
[1:26:37] Speaker 1: How are you referred to? Like are you are you
[1:26:42] Speaker 1: destining yourself into being just a security guy for the
[1:26:45] Speaker 1: rest of your life or being some kind of contractor
[1:26:47] Speaker 1: for the rest of your life if you do that
[1:26:48] Speaker 1: kind of job or I mean obviously you said you
[1:26:52] Speaker 1: knew a guy that went on and was a technical
[1:26:53] Speaker 1: advisor and all that stuff for the so there's there's
[1:26:56] Speaker 1: something out there. But yeah, how do you go away
[1:26:59] Speaker 1: from that and move on to a different job?
[1:27:01] Speaker 2: You know? Yeah, no, you and that and that's that's
[1:27:05] Speaker 2: that's the question everyone asked themselves ten times a day.
[1:27:10] Speaker 2: What what did it for me? I knew I had
[1:27:13] Speaker 2: to get out not now, I physically would not be
[1:27:16] Speaker 2: able to pass the selection course over and over or
[1:27:21] Speaker 2: the standard that we did. At some point, I would
[1:27:26] Speaker 2: just get too old, you know, because it's it's very
[1:27:28] Speaker 2: high standards. And so I knew, or I would get killed,
[1:27:34] Speaker 2: I mean honestly, man, or get injured, you know. So
[1:27:36] Speaker 2: so I knew I had to find something else. But
[1:27:39] Speaker 2: what did it for me was, you know, you always
[1:27:43] Speaker 2: want to do a good job and be that solid guy.
[1:27:46] Speaker 2: But but I remember one time I was I was
[1:27:47] Speaker 2: home and I got a phone call and they said, uh,
[1:27:52] Speaker 2: they said, hey, hey, Tadpole. Has you know we'd go
[1:27:54] Speaker 2: by call signs usually Mom's Tadpole. They said, hey, Tadpole,
[1:27:57] Speaker 2: ha's going Hey man, your name came up for a
[1:28:04] Speaker 2: team leader position in a particular location that we haven't
[1:28:09] Speaker 2: been in in a long time. And I was like, fuck,
[1:28:12] Speaker 2: that sounds badass, man, Hell yeah, I mean me, yeah, okay,
[1:28:17] Speaker 2: And they're like, we're going to open up mog Ishu
[1:28:21] Speaker 2: again and we would like for you to be the
[1:28:23] Speaker 2: team leader of the guys going into Mogadishu and you're
[1:28:27] Speaker 2: going to be running operations in Mogadishu. And man, it
[1:28:31] Speaker 2: hit me, man, because you know, I watched I watched
[1:28:34] Speaker 2: Black Hawk Down, you know, on TV on CNN. That
[1:28:39] Speaker 2: was like this big, tremendous you know, I knew what
[1:28:42] Speaker 2: at least I knew what they went through, at least
[1:28:45] Speaker 2: you know, watching it on TV and the movie, you know,
[1:28:48] Speaker 2: of course, of all the crazy shit, and just all
[1:28:51] Speaker 2: the guys that I've talked to they've been there, And
[1:28:54] Speaker 2: I'm like, man, how far down this road have I gone?
[1:28:58] Speaker 2: When I'm the guy that people think of that it
[1:29:01] Speaker 2: should be the team leader of the first team to
[1:29:04] Speaker 2: go back into mogad issues since you know, nineteen ninety four,
[1:29:08] Speaker 2: you know, the last time they were there. And so I, man,
[1:29:10] Speaker 2: I really had to look myself in the mirror and
[1:29:12] Speaker 2: be like, fuck, man, If I don't quit now, man,
[1:29:15] Speaker 2: I'll never you know. So, so I in the back
[1:29:19] Speaker 2: of my mind, I was like, I've got to figure
[1:29:21] Speaker 2: out a way to get it. I can't be because
[1:29:25] Speaker 2: if you, I think, if you can go too far,
[1:29:27] Speaker 2: you know what I mean? And perhaps perhaps I went
[1:29:31] Speaker 2: too far again. If I'm the name that comes up
[1:29:34] Speaker 2: to lead the team going into mogod issue. Man, I've
[1:29:36] Speaker 2: probably gone too far. I found out about, you know,
[1:29:40] Speaker 2: flying helicopters for the military, and I knew I could
[1:29:43] Speaker 2: do that later in life. And I knew that I
[1:29:46] Speaker 2: could still support, you know, these units and stuff like that.
[1:29:51] Speaker 2: I could still be around the people that I had
[1:29:54] Speaker 2: so much in common with, that that I loved so much,
[1:29:58] Speaker 2: But my name would not be coming up to be
[1:30:00] Speaker 2: a team leader going to Mogadi shoot, you know what
[1:30:02] Speaker 2: I mean? So I could I could have my cake
[1:30:05] Speaker 2: and eat it too, if you will. And not everybody
[1:30:08] Speaker 2: finds that answer. Man, everyone's looking for that answer, and
[1:30:12] Speaker 2: know what, not everybody finds it. I was very fortunate
[1:30:15] Speaker 2: I found the answer to that question. But man, not
[1:30:18] Speaker 2: everybody does.
[1:30:19] Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I feel like, you know, for me, the
[1:30:23] Speaker 1: podcast is really good because I'm I'm not in the
[1:30:26] Speaker 1: military obviously, but I get to talk military stuff with
[1:30:31] Speaker 1: people all the time. You know, a lot of guys
[1:30:34] Speaker 1: get out and they're running a PFT or running a range,
[1:30:39] Speaker 1: you know, shooting machine guns or you know, in my case,
[1:30:42] Speaker 1: doing close air support blowing stuff up one day, and
[1:30:46] Speaker 1: then a week later they're sitting on their couch back
[1:30:49] Speaker 1: in their hometown, like time stopped and started again, and
[1:30:53] Speaker 1: they're back to where they were, and they're like, what
[1:30:55] Speaker 1: the fuck am I doing? You know, and it's I
[1:30:59] Speaker 1: don't know, it's from me. That's been my kind of outlet,
[1:31:02] Speaker 1: is to kind of maintain a pulse on what's going
[1:31:04] Speaker 1: on and talk to people and kind of you know,
[1:31:07] Speaker 1: because it's I think that's what a lot of guys
[1:31:10] Speaker 1: miss is that camaraderie and that just that not even
[1:31:14] Speaker 1: like the conversation is good because you understand, like we
[1:31:19] Speaker 1: can talk and we know what. We've never served together,
[1:31:21] Speaker 1: but we have done probably a lot of the same training.
[1:31:24] Speaker 1: We both went to Marine Corps boot camp right there.
[1:31:27] Speaker 1: I can relate to somebody about that, you know. Yeah,
[1:31:30] Speaker 1: And I think that's what the like VFW and the
[1:31:34] Speaker 1: American Legion and stuff kind of used to serve that purpose. Yeah,
[1:31:38] Speaker 1: it's kind of falling off now. That's more of a
[1:31:41] Speaker 1: World War two, Korean War, Vietnam veteran kind of or
[1:31:44] Speaker 1: it seems like organizations. You know, I'm a I'm a
[1:31:47] Speaker 1: member of the American Legion here in San Diego, and
[1:31:50] Speaker 1: I'm like the youngest dude for sure, and you know,
[1:31:54] Speaker 1: and I'm like, for sure the others guy, and it's
[1:31:57] Speaker 1: I don't know. I think people have to find something
[1:31:59] Speaker 1: where where if they're missing the military, they got to
[1:32:04] Speaker 1: find something that's military adjacent, you know, or at least
[1:32:08] Speaker 1: or at least join a group or get into something
[1:32:10] Speaker 1: where they can have those conversations and joke around and understand.
[1:32:15] Speaker 1: I think. I like going on Reddit and reading like
[1:32:17] Speaker 1: there's a USMC subreddit and stuff like that, and it's
[1:32:20] Speaker 1: funny reading some of the stuff that's going on nowadays.
[1:32:22] Speaker 1: It's depressing reading some of the stuff that's going on nowadays,
[1:32:25] Speaker 1: but at least I understand what they're talking about, you
[1:32:27] Speaker 1: know what I'm saying.
[1:32:28] Speaker 2: You know.
[1:32:31] Speaker 1: It's just like, uh, I don't know. I was always
[1:32:34] Speaker 1: a military guy, you know, even when I was a
[1:32:36] Speaker 1: little kid. My dad was in the Army. So that's
[1:32:39] Speaker 1: all I ever wanted to do. And that's kind of
[1:32:41] Speaker 1: someone leaving It was really hard because it's just I
[1:32:46] Speaker 1: don't know, it's like a huge part of your life
[1:32:48] Speaker 1: you're leaving behind. You know, it's very impactful, and I
[1:32:51] Speaker 1: don't think people really understand the impact of getting out
[1:32:53] Speaker 1: until they do get out. And I'm sure that I'm
[1:32:55] Speaker 1: sure that just amplifies every time, Like in a case
[1:32:59] Speaker 1: like yours, where you you move up to the ladder of
[1:33:01] Speaker 1: like intensity and like you know, and and where you're
[1:33:04] Speaker 1: doing a job where you feel like you're really having
[1:33:06] Speaker 1: an effect. You know. Maybe there's a lot of marines
[1:33:09] Speaker 1: that do the Marine Corps do four years and never
[1:33:11] Speaker 1: deploy or maybe deploy once, and they're like, yeah, that
[1:33:14] Speaker 1: was cool, not really what I thought it was gonna be.
[1:33:16] Speaker 1: And I don't know what kind of effect I had,
[1:33:18] Speaker 1: Whereas like a job like you're talking about, there's like
[1:33:21] Speaker 1: specific events. I'm sure you can look back and be like, man,
[1:33:23] Speaker 1: that was crazy, like and this was like a little
[1:33:26] Speaker 1: legitimate national security thing that we took care of, you know,
[1:33:28] Speaker 1: and you can be proud of that. So I don't know, Man,
[1:33:33] Speaker 1: it's a weird world out there. I think people should
[1:33:36] Speaker 1: take take a second and take a look at your book,
[1:33:39] Speaker 1: War Junkie A Cautionary Tale. I think it's aptly titled,
[1:33:44] Speaker 1: you know, I think it's I really appreciate you. Coming on.
[1:33:46] Speaker 1: We're gonna have to do another one because we haven't
[1:33:48] Speaker 1: even gotten into your your helicopter flyinge. You know, you're
[1:33:52] Speaker 1: rated on multiple helicopters and stuff like that, and you're
[1:33:54] Speaker 1: currently overseas right now and doing stuff, so it's like
[1:33:57] Speaker 1: we'll have to do another one down the road and
[1:34:00] Speaker 1: catch up and maybe, you know, I'm gonna try to
[1:34:03] Speaker 1: for the listeners, I'm gonna I'd like to start trying
[1:34:05] Speaker 1: to do live stream every once in a while and
[1:34:07] Speaker 1: have people that have come on before come on and
[1:34:10] Speaker 1: let people ask questions because obviously, you know, yeah, you
[1:34:14] Speaker 1: know that way, because there's people that have questions that
[1:34:16] Speaker 1: I don't think about until afterwards. Or sometimes I'll see
[1:34:18] Speaker 1: a question in the YouTube comments and I'm like, oh, yeah,
[1:34:20] Speaker 1: that would be cool. I'll ask him next time I'm
[1:34:22] Speaker 1: I have them on. So maybe we'll try to figure
[1:34:25] Speaker 1: out something like that. But where can people pick your
[1:34:27] Speaker 1: book up?
[1:34:29] Speaker 2: You can get it on Amazon. It's a war junkie
[1:34:33] Speaker 2: cautionary tale. It's on Amazon in hardcover, softcover and ebook.
[1:34:38] Speaker 2: Just you can go to my website and get it there,
[1:34:41] Speaker 2: but it'll just take you to Amazon. Kgspradley author dot com.
[1:34:46] Speaker 2: I just released a video this morning on YouTube KG
[1:34:50] Speaker 2: Spradley Author and it's essentially the guy that's gonna do
[1:34:55] Speaker 2: the voice of the book. His name is Ron Savak.
[1:34:59] Speaker 2: He is a former Army medic and now he's got
[1:35:03] Speaker 2: his own business and he's done a lot of radio
[1:35:06] Speaker 2: and stuff over time. And he reads the forward to
[1:35:09] Speaker 2: the book, which was written by Jason Morrison for Shrekan Marine.
[1:35:14] Speaker 2: And he's got a website and a book called The
[1:35:17] Speaker 2: Perfect Fucking Life and it's kind of his life story.
[1:35:21] Speaker 2: And he was in Ramadia as well, So that's where
[1:35:25] Speaker 2: they can get the books. And let me just say
[1:35:28] Speaker 2: just what you were talking about. I don't think you
[1:35:31] Speaker 2: understand how much of an impact you make to veterans
[1:35:35] Speaker 2: because we all want to talk about this, we all
[1:35:38] Speaker 2: want to share our experiences and kind of relive it
[1:35:41] Speaker 2: and have the camaraderie. We don't know how guys like
[1:35:45] Speaker 2: you have figured out how to how to kind of
[1:35:47] Speaker 2: bring us all together with the podcast. Man, you've got
[1:35:49] Speaker 2: a solid product. So just from all the veterans out
[1:35:53] Speaker 2: there man that are looking, thank you because you're you're
[1:35:57] Speaker 2: one of those few guys that made that happen, that
[1:35:59] Speaker 2: can kind of bring everybody to this team room if
[1:36:04] Speaker 2: you will.
[1:36:04] Speaker 1: I appreciate it, man, it's it's you know, it's my honor.
[1:36:06] Speaker 1: I'm humbled by guys like you and you know, some
[1:36:09] Speaker 1: of the lot of the dudes I've had on the
[1:36:11] Speaker 1: stories they've told that being willing to open up and
[1:36:14] Speaker 1: share some of the stories because I know some of
[1:36:16] Speaker 1: it's tough, you know, to talk about or remember. And
[1:36:19] Speaker 1: I'm glad that people feel like I'm okay to talk
[1:36:24] Speaker 1: to you about that kind of thing. I feel like
[1:36:25] Speaker 1: they can relate, you know. I'm glad that we can
[1:36:28] Speaker 1: have this back and forth. And it's just and I'm
[1:36:31] Speaker 1: glad too that the average person that's never served in
[1:36:34] Speaker 1: the military gets to hear these stories because they don't
[1:36:36] Speaker 1: never know, you know, they don't know what's going on
[1:36:38] Speaker 1: out there. They don't realize what the military is doing
[1:36:41] Speaker 1: or what some of these contractors are doing out there.
[1:36:43] Speaker 1: And it's their tax dollars that are paying the salaries,
[1:36:46] Speaker 1: so they should know what's going on. Again, like I
[1:36:49] Speaker 1: said before, I think a lot of stuff that the
[1:36:51] Speaker 1: military does is overclassified for no reason. And it's just
[1:36:55] Speaker 1: not fair the American public, especially when we're asking the
[1:36:59] Speaker 1: you know, mothers and fathers of people to send them
[1:37:02] Speaker 1: their kids into the military service. They should know what
[1:37:04] Speaker 1: they're getting themselves into. They shouldn't go in blind and
[1:37:08] Speaker 1: you know it's again, it's my honor to have you
[1:37:09] Speaker 1: guys on and have have all these guests and great
[1:37:12] Speaker 1: people to come on and share their stories. As always,
[1:37:14] Speaker 1: people can check out my website it's jacrimographics dot com.
[1:37:16] Speaker 1: My instagram is Former Action Guys and Former Action News.
[1:37:19] Speaker 1: Check those out and uh, that's it, man. I really
[1:37:21] Speaker 1: appreciate it.
[1:37:23] Speaker 2: Awesome. Appreciate it, brother, Yeah, dude,

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